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Live & Learn

I watched Sonic 3 on Christmas. It was AWESOME. Welcome back, Sonic hyperfixation! I was disappointed (but not surprised) at how much they softened GUN. The military has a stranglehold on Hollywood :(

I was very annoyed at the fact they made Maria die in an explosion—sure, they were aiming at her, but they added that extra barrier of deniability that just took all the edge out of Shadow's trauma and made it.... not really make as much sense. Of course there's the matter of age rating, which I kinda forgot existed in the moment when I booed in the theater xD

AND WHEN THEY PLAYED LIVE AND LEARN IT WAS LIKE AAAAAAAAJDJABDSJJDJFKGJ THIS IS THE.BEST MOMENT WVER DHABANNSFJRNDNND

I started replaying Cult of the Lamb but now I wanna abandon it for a Sonic game instead. Only problem is I don't know which to do, and it takes me forever to get through a single game because I'm very bad at video games lol. I've only finished SA2 and I couldn't even figure out how to hatch Chao until after I finished the entire story :(

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i am here to announce my presentation exposing goofy for his horrendous secret. help me take him down

slide 7 link

slides 8 and 10 link

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Jim Carrey's The Grinch

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i always sing through blood drawings to not start panicking and i always wanna vary what i sing but i always go with phantom of the opera bc it's just the best one for me to sing and i always get compliments anyways lol

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sometimes you just have to let yourself be a bit neurodivergent.

i hate going out, it gives me a lot of anxiety and sensory input that i dont like, and i am often forced to talk to people.

so i do this thing on more difficult days, or sometimes just for fun, where i "bring a fictional character with me". i walk and imagine Fictional Character walking next to me. they talk to me, reassure me, hype me up, whatever i need them to do.

today dean winchester came christmas shopping with me. he went over the list with me of stuff i needed to get, told me i was doing a good job every time i finished in a certain shop, reminded me to take a deep breath when i got a little overwhelmed.

and yea. its kinda silly. and i know its just me talking to myself in a different voice, but it Works! especially since all of my special interests/hyperfixations tend to be tv/movie related.

so do what you gotta do to Get Shit Done. stop holding yourself to neurotypical standards. if you need Fictional Character to tell you you're doing a good job, do it! if you need Favourite Singer to walk you to school, do it! yea it might feel silly but you're literally fighting against your own brain to get stuff done every single day. you can have a little self indulgent daydream, as a treat.

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rb to have a super gay 2023

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let's start a riot, a riot

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NON-freaks dni. This is a freaks only zone

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god you guys are fucking gay

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ok actually this is kind of a lie bc i think only one of my main 5 ocs isnt nonbinary in my head and im 100% sure if he explored his gender identity he'd be transfem nonbinary at the least

i rly need more transfem ocs. i only have one non cis amab oc and they're agender and dont really care

ive only got like two transmasc ocs but thats still more than vice versa. honestly i just have too many cis ocs in general

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blocking isnt enough i need them to see themselves through my eyes

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i do like drawing my lesbian dog characters being cute but also having sex with each other because it's literally not evil for two girls to do that(especially with one of the girls being a trans woman) I think girls can hold hands but also raw dog eachother

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I love when people with carefully themed blogs tag stuff that's an exception to the theme. you'll be scrolling through reblogs on a shitpost and someone's tagged it "#not bugs" or "#not photography" or "#not early medieval siege warfare" and it's like hey stranger glad you stopped to have fun with us

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"i'm sick of being treated like shit, so i've decided i'm going to treat other people like shit to solve it." is what you're saying when you say that you hate cishet people, perisex people, men, and so on simply because you're queer. you're actively choosing to treat someone else like shit because you have been treated poorly.

you know what that's called? that's called the cycle of abuse. you are perpetuating it. do your part and break the cycle. just because you have been abused doesn't give you the right to abuse someone else.

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Ceo from toontown corporate clash

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This is actually a useful thing to understand how to spell out. What exactly is wrong with puritanical attitudes towards sexuality? TW: Discusses body image issues, suicide, STIs, sexual assault etc

1. It fosters fear, disgust and loathing of our bodies. By hiding the human body as soon as we are born, and treating it as an object of inherent shame: THAT creates trauma. Shame is one of the primary sources of trauma, its the fuel and lets trauma burn. Those raised in nudist societies, and children raised in households where nudity is treated in a neutral and non-sexual tend to have a much more positive relationship with their bodies as adults. This makes complete sense when you think about it. Going through puberty not knowing if your body is "normal" terrifies children in ways that stick with them for life. In fact, most cultures outside of the Unites States aren't as strange about non-sexual nudity actually...and are healthier for it. We can't have body positivity as long as we are literally criminalized for having an uncovered body. 2. It creates fear, shame and disgust about sex. Most people have sex at some point in their lives. No one would be here at all without it. Most people have sexual desires which lie outside their control. When people are ashamed of those desires, it leads to self hatred, and depression and anxiety. This shame is just as traumatic as bodily shame. When sex is normalized, and treated with the same candor as any other hobby: it becomes less apt to traumatize people.

3. Puritanical attitudes towards sex limit sex education. When people are too ashamed to talk about sex, people don't learn about pregnancy, stis, or consent. All of these things can and do kill people when they aren't addressed with an open dialogue.

Sexual shame leads to people too ashamed to buy condoms, to talk to their doctor about birth control, to ask their partner to use protection, to get tested...the negative health impacts of sexual puritanism have a massive negative effect on society.

4. Sexual shame leads to poorer communication in relationships. Ohh if I had a dime for every person i knew who ruined their relationship because they felt too guilty to talk to their partner about their sexual feelings...Not just that, but the general body shame that comes with puritanism blocks people from connecting to one another too. Have you ever avoided getting close to someone because you were ashamed of your body? If not, I guarantee you know someone who has.

5. Misogyny! Puritanical sexual believes hold that women are not capable of sexual agency. That only men should initiate sex. That women should only ever want babies and not pleasure from sex. All of this rolls right into the next one:

6. Victim blaming in sexual assault. When women are the gatekeepers of sex, its easy to blame them when they 'fail' to protect their chastity when someone violates their trust. This isn't something that just effects women: as the same attitudes hold that men are not capable of experiencing sexual assault. The lack of education and discussion about sex in a sex-negative world inherently prevent the open dialogues necessary for creating and maintaining consent culture.

7. Suppression and marginalization of the queer community. If we're too ashamed to talk about sex, we'll be too ashamed to talk about sexuality. Puritans can't accept any deviation from gender norms either. Anything other than sex between a cis man and a cis woman for the purpose of making a baby is a deviant kink, a mental illness, and needs to be wiped out. Its important to point out that many queer people hold puritanical values about sex: believing that they can achieve sex negativity and queer liberation at the same time. However, sex negative movements always rise with censorship and discrimination of queer people...because queer people are inherently considered deviant by the vast majority of sex negative "allies". It's very dangerous to forget this.

8. Censorship of art. Who decides what is sexual and what is not? Its easy to agree that sex needs to be hidden...but it never takes long before the definition of what is "sexual" expands. Even women's breasts are considered sexual in the United States. Its so normal for Americans to think of them that way that women can't feed their children in public. Drag queens face violence for reading at libraries. Books get taken off the shelves. Artists are bullied offline.

9. Censorship of scientific exploration. Scientific research into reproductive health, sexual behavior, gender identity and more are often hindered due to the "moral objections" of puritans, delaying progress and understanding. That's just off the top of my head. I think its time for people to take how problematic 'puritanism' is more seriously. As we see fascism rear its ugly head all over the world, we're going to see a lot more talk about 'degenerates'...and we know where that kind of talk leads.

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Getting ready for ToonFest Columbus 😵‍💫✨️