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So I'm working on a new project: a complete rebrand, with a new character under a new name. She appeared in my head one nigh when I was thinking of ways to better represent my actual physical self in Vtubing. I'm actually pretty proud of how my art for her turned out. Anyway, if you want to follow my new account, please do!

Salutations tumblr! I'm Mercy Morbid, a (mostly) friendly undeadstreaming vampire! I draw pixel art and read tarot! I am also horny on main, so NO MINORS. It is nice to meet you all!

EDIT: added official ref sheet with swatches!

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That thing? Down in the well? Tom calls it a “v-tuber.” Says it’s from another world.

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Refocusing

Hello Tumblr. Its been a while. I've neglected you, I know, but I want to try and fix that. Especially because I want to try and share what little I know about creative writing.

For as much shit as I give social media, it really has kept me writing, bit by bit, my whole adult life. And learning to write within the confines of character limits had improved my style. No, really. Check this out:

"Now blow the candles out, Xandra!" said my mother, her eyes gleaming in the flickering light. Shadows moved in the darkness behind her, and I felt something brush up against my leg.

"But I don't want to be in the dark," I protested, pleading.

"Blow them out," insisted mother.

There! A tweet-length horror story I wrote so long ago that I can't remember if I posted it on twitter or Mastodon. A whole narrative in less than 240 characters. It's kinda amazing that you can do this. Language is a miracle.

I want to share my love of the miracle of language with others, and I think Tumblr is a great way to do that. I'm sure I'm not the only one who does this. After all, Tumblr is full of writers and people who want to be writers. It would be great to connect more with the writing community on here.

I don't just plan on writing here. I am submitting my writing for publication and even pitched a book to a queer nonfiction press about writing horror to cope with fear and anxiety. I am very hopeful that it will be picked up, but even if it isn't, I will look to have it published elsewhere.

I am still Vtubing, and have a Live2d avatar. I'm going to try doing weekly writing workshops on my twitch page and see how that goes. I'm considering an MFA at a local university as well, despite the absolute horror I feel when contemplating taking on more student loans.

Altogether, I think refocusing my creative work on writing and the act of teaching folks how to write will be a great way to revitalize it and keep it going. This year has so far been all about seeing where my limits are and learning to appreciate where I'm at. Right now, I have the time to develop my writing and make a go of doing it professionally. I don't know how long that will last. I need to make the most of this opportunity. I hope you will stick around and see how I do!

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Reminder again that this is an explicitly trans-friendly blog, and if you are anti-trans you do not have a place here and this is your sign to leave. There is nothing for you here.

Also trans family, stay strong and please report trans violence on tumblr!

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Cafe

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Dreamlife (Poetry Reading)

I saved a princess, became

a werewolf, loved a vampire

but only a little bit, fought

a dragon, was the dragon,

fought myself for control,

never wanted to wake up,

why would I? It was so

nice, so wonderful, even

the nightmares are beautiful,

what is the waking world

to one who is always

dreaming?

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Really good advice from the World's Best Ice Bear!

for my Streamer friends

as Twitch recaps come out and you feel like Comparing yourselves to others, ask:

what is my goal as a Content Creator? is it having more Viewers, or something like Publishing a webcomic etc?

if my Goal isn't more viewers, does it Matter if i'm doing poorly/well there?

what is doing "Poorly"? what is doing "Well"? am i beating myself up for not being Ironmouse?

am i Streaming just because i feel i need to? is it truly my Dream? or for Fun? what do i Want, really? (see: what is my Goal as a Content Creator?)

if i want to Grow, have i looked into how others have Grown (like, their Exact process) or am i making Assumptions based on outside appearances?

am i basing Success solely on who comes to my streams? are there other ways i'm Successful?

(that last one is Important. i may not be Twitch Partner but my community raised almost $2000 for charity this year, saved me from financial crap twice, and got a HUGE 8-item merch drop into Production)

if i want to Grow, and i'm working as Hard as i can, is it possible i'm just not noticing the results?

if i want to Grow, have i needed to take Hiatuses? do i have a Full Time job? life is unavoidable and no cause for guilt

if i want to Grow, is it better for my health if i grow Slowly right now? that is to say, for example: would an average viewership of 500 right now make you too Anxious to function? would you be too Sick at the moment to focus on moderating that many people?

is my goal even Content Creation? do i LIKE being Here, really?

you are allowed to feel your Feelings. but i refuse to let you all Stay mad at yourselves over these things for long. you also need some practical ways to look at it. here you Go.

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RETURN TO STREAMING

LIVE NOW: I return to twitch! Please join me for some chatting, poetry reading, and group meditation! #PNGtubers #Vtuber #smallstreamer #Mindfulness https://twitch.tv/xandrawrites

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successfully navigating a social interaction really does feel like picking the correct dialogue option in a video game

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Show the sick Ice Bear some love this week!

🌠 SCHEDULE FOR 12/12 - 12/17 🌠

taking day off today due to Illness, but the rest of the Week should be a-go, as you Humans say. time for TBD streams will be announced day-of!!

all streams take place at my Twitch!

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reboggin

I'm in my silt era. Rebog.

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💚Long Overdue Intro💚

Hi hi! I’m Parafonia, and I’m a nymph/fae Vtuber/Vartist! I mostly stream variety and my art, and occasionally I sing! I mostly just reblog shitposts here, but occasionally I’ll also post my own work or clips. I hope my page can just be a comfy place to vibe and have a chuckle at sometimes, because that’s what it is to me.

I made my own model and most of my own graphics, though credit to my logo goes to @KotaKotonya on Twitter! Extra credits for things I use on stream/my profile can be found on my twitch page.

💚You can find me here!💚

twitch 💚  twitter 💚 discord

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Writeblr Intro: Angela's Scribbles

I’ve been on Tumblr for just over a year but managed to only now find #writeblr.

I’m a neurodivergent human who has brought several other humans into this world (Mom, I’m a mom). I have a small farm somewhere in the backwoods of Texas where I live with my spouse and various assorted children, both biological and adopted, and our sundry animals.

It’s not lions and tigers and bears oh my! But more like goats and chickens and a turtle rescue. But I digress.

I’m here because I love to write. This addiction to writing started in sixth grade when my Language Arts teacher had us make books. And I mean we created covers (from cardboard and covered those with wallpaper scraps), dedication pages, Table of contents, the whole nine yards. Then we filled them with our own original stories complete with illustrations (that was the worst part for me because I cannot draw to save my life).

I got bitten by the writing bug. After that, I wrote short stories, and poetry, and created a monthly newsletter for my friends and family.

I have a WordPress blog but I found Tumblr when I started writing fanfiction and wanted to keep it separate from the rest of my writing.

I write fanfiction for Choices games, The Royal Romance, and Ride or Die (and yes, some crossovers). I write a variety of fluff, angst, humor, and smut. Some of my work is PG, some is NSFW. Everything is tagged appropriately.

I have just recently started posting some of my original (aka not derivative) work on here. My WordPress blog features mostly flash fiction, poetry, and essays, and includes some posts from guest writers. I have short stories that are yet to be published and several novels in progress. I write horror, fantasy adventure, paranormal romance, and gothic suspense.

My pronouns and she/her. Several of my children, as well as myself, fall somewhere on the LGBTQ+ spectrum as well as the Autism/ADHD Spectrum (both, fun fact, you can have both).

If there’s anything else you’d like to know, just ask!

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Life is piling up again, the bills and the dishes and the needs and the demands and-

The chill of early morn soaks into my shoes, as I walk a field wispy with dandelions.

The sun’s rising through winter-stripped trees. A wren begins its soft beck and call, pulling the green spiral of spring from the earth. I stop, and just— breathe.

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From Stephanie Valente's chapbook, waiting for the end of the world, available from Bottlecap Press!

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Some Notes on Mindfulness and My Anxiety

I want to make it clear that I both support people learning meditation to cope with their anxiety and people taking their meds. Its not an "either-or" thing, and I am an example of that myself.

Sometimes my anxiety gets so bad that all I can do is take my meds (in this case I am referring to my antihistimine), play a videogame and wait until I settle down. Other times, I can watch my breath and let that settle my mind. Usually the first instance is more severe than the latter.

Duration is important, to. If the anxiety-provoking situation is long, periodic meditation can help. If its a quick and overwhelming attack, best to take my meds. That's just me, someone may find a different balance works for them. Every brain and body is different, and has different needs.

Point being, there are multiple kinds of tools to deal with anxiety and knowing what works best for you in which situations is incredibly useful.

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I really need to see this movie.

Everything Everywhere All at Once (2022)