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I never stay long in people's lives

Not always by choice.

I'm wondering if I truly lack social skills

Or I'm just not that worth it

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The amount of pain felt from being the second option is so unreal. I feel like I'm drowning in loneliness. I have no friends or any one who wants to spend time with me. Just once I'd love to wake up to a text asking me to hang out. Just once do I not want to cry when other people are out with their friends. It hurts so much my heart feels like it's being crushed. Someone just love me. Unconditionally and fully. Please would someone actively want to see me and not skip on our plans when they get thrown a better bone.

-Feelzandstuffs

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Now I’m just high and depressed

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What’s sad is being a parent, the only parent that actually takes care of the kids and you’re struggling so bad to the point where you know you’re going to need to be admitted soon, but at the same time you know you can’t get yourself admitted because then who’s going to take care of the kids?

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If I disappeared, I doubt anyone would notice

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My boyfriend and youngest daughter are laying here next to me in bed and all I can think about is how much I hate myself. I should be loving this moment but I just can’t..

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I don’t bother telling people how I feel, because I felt this way for so long and don’t see it ending anytime soon, that they’d just get tired of dealing with it.

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The reason why I never get too close to anyone anymore.

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I have just come to the conclusion that no matter how hard I try, it just isn’t enough.

I am not enough.

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I can’t tell anyone how bad it’s getting.

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