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hey. look in my pockets. see my offerings. more nanobomb + cysova + misc valo agents textposts
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another failed experiment
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happy pride to her <3
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just wanted my mains to hang out
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DEADLOCK
I just recently started to play valorant and now can't get out of it. Litterally playing every single day
But I wanted to show you a sketch with one of my favourite agents
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Dance with me?
Venture, aka Sloan Cameron x reader
You're at your friends wedding, and somehow meet the cutest damn person in the world.
Tags: fluff, strong language, slight sexual innuendo
Enjoy!!
[Note: I haven't written a fic in 192739 yrs, and my ass hasn't been to a wedding since I was 10 so forgive my ignorance abt how they go!!]
You weren't exactly a party person.
Parties are loud, crowded and really socially taxing. While yes, you'd attend parties here and there; mostly birthdays or accomplishments for friends and family. It still wasn't your favorite thing to do. You are actually pretty upfront with others about how little social interaction you can handle. That being said... fear of disappointing your friends usually got the better of you. They were fine, partying was fun.
Honestly, you'd be lying to everyone if you said you weren't thinking about your soft, cozy bed. Or how you were daydreaming about cuddling up to your pets and watching silly videos. Not even this beautiful wedding could curb your introvert nature.
It's evening now, the golden rays barely peeking over the horizon as it descends. A sweet, cool autumn breeze blows, ruffling your clothes and hair. A welcome comfort on this warm night.
The setting is truly beautiful. Soft, golden glowing lanterns are strung along the edges of the venue. Lush green plants in decorative pots line the edges. The pillars, stone and brick, are painted in the gentle glow of the lamps and lanterns. The style...is Greek? At least you think it's Greek. If someone told you otherwise, though, you'd take their word for it. Especially since half the people here are from the Wayfinder Society, all attending as friends of the groom. The wayfinders are sprinkled around the venue, chatting about and having a grand old time.
You? No such luck, you're only attending for your friend, who happens to be the other groom. While you know a handful of people, and did polite chit chat with them, you mostly stuck to yourself. Actually, that's a lie, you mostly stuck to the snack table. You're leaning by the side of it, plate in hand, trying just about anything there. I mean, what else are you supposed to do?
While eating a particularly good cube of cheese, you let your eyes wander the room. You see a group of people laughing, another group chattering amongst themselves, one enthusiastically waving their hands in the air, seemingly very passionate about the subject. You snort, amused. Drifting eyes finally move over to the husbands, who were talking to an older couple, a quick hug is given here and there.
Man. You were bored.
You weren't trying to be disrespectful here, you just didn't know anyone. Subconsciously, your leg starts bouncing, your thoughts dance to your fluffy, comfy bed. Reaching down for another snack on your plate, you’re disappointed to see they're all gone. Frowning a bit, you look over the table to see if there's anything else you'd like to try.
And boy, was there. The chocolate hair, the hazel skin, your eyes instantly locked onto the person plating their own food. They're dressed in a white button down, and black slacks, the sleeves of their dress shirt hugging them favorably. They even had a cute little yellow bowtie on. You couldn't tell their pronouns, so you figure you'd ask if you ever spoke. Which you weren't, you didn't want to intrude. They looked to be the same person absolutely raving earlier, you'd hate to keep them from it.
If they wanna speak to me, they will. You thought distantly, watching their hands as they pluck up a cupcake.
Workers' hands. You mused, they seemed rough, and strong. They must be one of those Wayfinders. Your eyes trail their fingers, the back of their hand, man...they have really nice hands. Unbeknownst to you, your staring hasn't gone unnoticed. Their hands stills, just before the confectionery hits the plate.
"Uhm... did you want this one?" They ask someone, curious, you look up to see who they're talking to. You finally get to see their face properly, and man they're gorgeous. Too bad you didn't have time to appreciate that fact, as your eyes instantly locked with theirs. You realize a little too late that you're the one they're talking to.
"Huh." Is all you manage to get out, unsure what the fuck to say to this stranger.
"The...cupcake?" They say, motioning it towards you. "Did you want it? You're staring at it like you want it." They say, clearly confused by the way you ogled their food.
"No- no I don't want it. I'm so sorry, ignore me." You cover your face and wave a hand in their direction, this is the worst thing you've ever done. Your face and ears burn in red hot embarrassment, you're just lucky they thought all you wanted was the damn cupcake.
They seem to find it a little funny now, how you're running away from the cupcake you were practically stalking as it left the platter. "Okayyyy, well then this is mine!" They joke, putting it onto their plate before strutting away, seemingly unperturbed by your god awful screw up.
God, you needed to sit down.
You're practically on fire, feeling like you're gonna break into a sweat. Shakily, you find a chair in a less populated area and take a seat. You bend over, putting your face in your hands and elbows on your knees, as if trying to hide yourself. While you know, reasonably, that this isn't the end of the world, you can't help but feel like it is. You got caught! Red handed!
Yes, they thought it was the cupcake, so maybe you weren't totally fucked. But also, you're totally fucked who are you kidding?!
You didn't exactly think you'd interact with them before, but it's awful your only interaction was weird and unseemly on your end. Groaning quietly, you remove one hand from your face to fan yourself, damn you feel stupid.
You fan open part of your outfit, hoping in vain to let more air in to cool yourself down. Freaking out like this isn't a good look. After a couple minutes, you start to feel a little better. The flush of your cheeks is fading, and you miraculously avoided breaking into an anxious sweat.
Sighing, you puff out your lips, you just sent texts to your closest friend about how massively you fumbled the bag. They laughed at you, while you scream-spammed the chat in horror. They did end up reassuring you that you were overreacting, that it was not in fact the end of the world. You thanked them before turning off your phone. You get up, dust yourself off a little before wandering back to the food table; finding yourself in front of the disposable drink cups, grabbing one. Gazing to the left, you find the water. You watch the water slowly drizzle into your cup, before downing the glass in a couple large gulps. Still thirsty, you fill it up again before returning to your seat.
Man, what a day, go to a beautiful wedding, see your friend get married, then fumble the biggest bag ever. You mentally kick yourself, even though on the outside, you look completely normal, sipping on your cup naturally.
Bouncing your foot a bit, you lean forward to scroll on your phone, hoping to find something interesting to pass the time and distract you. You're scrolling for about 5 minutes before someone sits next to you. Out of politeness you don't look, thinking it's another guest needing a seat.
"Soo, about that cupcake. I ate it, definitely. But I felt a little bad. Here." The person next to you says, snapping you out of your doom scrolling.
Why. Why why why. Is all you can think. They're fucking with you, haunting you. All over a cupcake. You look over and see they've got a small plate with another damn cupcake on it.
"Oh im- I'm not hungry anymore, thanks though." You try to nicely deflect, hoping they'll catch the hint and let you die in shame, alone.
"Hmm, okay!" They say, they turn to face forward, unwrapping it for themself. They take a bite and bounce one of their legs, and you wonder why they're torturing you. They hum to themself as they continue to eat.
God. Please just go away...
They put their plate down and dust their hands, somehow already finishing the sickeningly sweet treat. "So." They state, placing both hands on either side of their seat, leaning forward, looking towards you. "Whatcha doing over here all by yourself?" They ask curiously.
"Well uh-" You clear your throat, "My friend’s the groom, it's his wedding. But I don't really know anyone else but him." You shrug, trying to relax and ease into conversation with them.
"Yeah, know how that feels." They say, sympathetically. "Wellll." They draw out the word, as if to emphasize it. "I was thinkin’ you could come to our table! I hate seeing anyone left out." Their smile is reassuring, until they start smirking. "Even. If. They stare at other people's food."
Ok, you can't help it. You groan at their jab, while dragging a hand down your face. "Man, you will not drop that, huh?" You say, only a little less embarrassed this time.
"Nope!" They tease, clearly getting a kick outta this.
"You know what, I barely know you and you're already the worst." You joke, and your brain nearly breaks in two when they giggle at it. Their shoulders shake and they grin, still looking at you. You can't help but smile, even while trying really hard not to. They were stunning, cute and worst of all, infuriating.
"Sorry for staring earlier...I was trying to see... your cufflinks." You say, clearly lying. As if desperately attempting to get out of the cupcake joke jail.
"Hmmm." They hum, unbelieving, eyebrows raised and nodding. "Well, too bad I don't have those." They smile, raising a hand up to show off their sleeve.
You instantly cringe, caught once again. "Oh right." You mumble out, pursing your lips. Damn, you're fighting for your fucking life over here.
Your reaction makes them laugh. An honest to god laugh, and it's loud. They're finding WAY too much amusement in proving you wrong and you don't know why. Despite the embarrassment, you were now enjoying yourself. Talking to them, joking around, even if it's at your expense. Their laugh is almost contagious, and they've got the prettiest smile you've ever seen.
"So.. what's your name?" You ask, your left hand fiddling anxiously at your side. Their laugh simmers down, and they sigh like they just heard the funniest joke in the world.
They hold their hand out towards you, "Sloane, yours?" You grab their hand and shake it, their grip firm. Your brain almost short circuits, realizing how much larger their hand is to yours. You say your name, and they repeat it.
"It's nice to meet you!" They say, shaking your hand once more before letting it go.
"Sloane is a really pretty name." You state, trying to make conversation. Totally, 100% not flirting with them, of course.
"Awe shucks, you think so? Well I like yours too." They shoot back, their cheerful glow never dropping. They look over, and you do the same. You see them eyeing the table they came from. It appears someone stole their seat.
"Oh, I'm sorry." You immediately apologize, feeling bad that their place was taken while talking to you. They shake their head and huff a little laugh, their curly hair bouncing.
"Why're you sorry? Don't be. Plus, it's no biggie." They say nonchalantly, genuinely unphased. They crack a smile and lean forward, as if they're sharing a secret. "Don't worry, I'll get back at them." They whisper, a mischievous gleam in their eyes.
You giggle, and pull back a little. "What're you gonna do huh?"
They pull an inquisitive face, staring up at the ceiling almost performatively. "I dunno! Maybe I'll put confetti in all of their tents!" They announce, toying with the idea. You couldn't tell if they're serious or not.
"You probably shouldn't do that." You jokingly warn, thinking abt how much of a pain confetti would be to get out of a tent. Much less the sleeping bags.
Sloane grins, shining that gorgeous smile again. They seem to be the happiest person in the world. "Well, that's what they get for kicking me out of my own seat!"
You shake your head and let out a small chuckle, "You really are something."
They push you by the shoulder a bit, "I'm a great something I'll have you know." They joke, before settling back in their seat.
Silence settles over the two of you for a bit, and it nearly becomes unbearable. That is until music begins to play. The lights towards the middle of the room light up, and the rest are dimmed to create a spotlight effect. The happy couple's chosen song is playing, and you watch as they approach the center of the room, beginning to dance. You smile, and awe at the sight. Seeing your friend so happy and glowing was truly a treat.
Sloane also watches, they love parties and weddings. Seeing two people so in love is one of life's many treasures. They look over towards you and see you recording your friends dance, they allow a small smile creep onto their face. They admire your side profile and the way your hair compliments you perfectly. You are eye-catching, and the way you practically folded over a cupcake earlier was hilarious. They love funny things, so they've GOT to get to know you. Exploring is one of their favorite things after all.
They settle back and turn their attention to the dance. Eventually the music begins to wind down, and one of the grooms leaves the dance floor. It's the parents' dance, they think. Now that it isn't your friend out there, you click off the record button and look over to Sloane.
"So, what brings you here?" You ask, making conversation with them. They turn their head to face you, their hands loosely clasped together on their lap.
"I'm from the wayfinders society! The other groom, Rey, is my good friend." They chirp, pointing at your friends now husband. "Y’know, me and him got lost once in a cave! Scary stuff, didn't know if we'd make it out." They said dramatically, waggling their fingers in your direction.
"You serious??" You furrow your brow, and lean forward incredulously. Their warm dark eyes look back to their friend, and they nod. "Yeah, it was a couple years ago. We lost sight of our team, and couldn't find our way out. I ended up drilling us a new exit. Real risky doing that but we didn't have a choice." Sloane recounts, "Could've been worse!" They add, trying to lighten the mood a bit.
"That's crazy, I could never do anything like that." You tap your foot against the ground, even thinking about that type of stuff gets you wound up.
They turn back to you with a hum and smile, "Well, you never know until you try! Exploring is the best thing I've ever done for myself, I love it. Seeing what the world was like before us… finding the rocks and gems the earth has made. It's real worth it." Their passion is evident, every word they speak has them glowing. You admit it's rather charming, seeing them so in love with their work.
"Man, that's so cool." You state warmly. "You got a really cool job, Sloane. You got the job little kids dream of."
They smile genuinely, really happy with the thought. "Well my abuela always said to follow your dreams, so I did. What about you? What's your dream?" They gently nudge your shoe with theirs.
"Hmmm, well. I guess I'm still trying to figure that out." You hum, looking at the ground. Your interests aren't nearly as exciting as theirs. Working one dead end job to the next, just trying to make ends meet. "Thinking tattooing, honestly." You add, looking up at them.
Sloane gasps, eyes widening. "That's so awesome though! I love tattoos, I've got at least four or five." They pull down the collar of their button down to reveal more of the flames tattooed across their neck. You'd be lying if you said you hadn't already noticed it. Wanting to see how far down it goes.
Quickly, you bat those thoughts away. Sticking to complimenting the line work and blocking of their tattoo. You ask what others they've got, and they explain all the patchwork they've got done on their arms. Some historical, some cool, some just to have a piece of the places they've been. They even mention a larger one on their thigh, a dinosaur skull with flowers. You try not to sound too interested in seeing them while asking if they have pictures.
The conversation between you and Sloane runs smoothly, chattering about your lives and cracking jokes at one another's expense. The dancing at the party is now in full swing, guests of all types littering the dance floor. It's now completely dark outside, save for the lighting inside the venue. The lamps hanging from the ceiling are dimly glowing, the lanterns now back to their full glow. You even spot fireflies outside the venue, blinking on and off, flying into the wedding space and out. The place is truly beautiful.
The strumming of a bass fills the venue, an electronic guitar complimenting it perfectly. You recognize it instantly, as it's a song you've come to enjoy. Your new friend, Sloane, practically jumps out of their skin in excitement. They quickly whip their head to look at you while whisper shouting, "I love this song!!"
They bolt up, staring at the dance floor as both their feet hit the ground with a soft thud. They twirl their whole body around, looking at you with an outstretched hand, "Come dance with me??" They frantically blurt out.
You look dumbly at Sloane before slinking back into your chair a bit, cringing. "No no- I don't dance." While waving a hand in their direction dismissively. You're hesitant and it's obvious. The idea of getting in the middle of a bunch of people and dancing. God, not what you were made for.
You were telling the truth, you don't dance! Anyone seeing you attempt to dance may need an ambulance. Sloane slumps by your reaction, and pokes conversationally, "Aww c’monnn, pretty please? With cherries on top? One song?" They say, leaning backwards a bit on the heels of their feet while keeping their upper body forward. They begin pouting a lip out and sporting their best puppy dog eyes, hoping it'll help sway their case.
Nervously, you rub your pointer finger across your thumb. This is not what I signed up for, you think as your lips form a line, eyes locking with Sloanes, trying to will yourself into saying no.
Damn.
You can't. You can't say no! You know you'd kick yourself later if you left without dancing with them. They're everything you like in someone, striking, funny, passionate... You internally groan, searching their dark eyes for a way out. Sadly, there isn't one. Their eyes only plead and beg.
And well... who are you to deny them?
Breathing in a deep, deep sigh, you fold, "Okayy. Okay." You say, holding both hands up, signaling defeat.
Sloane is about to shout out a glorious, loud YES before you cut them off with a finger up. "But first, a shot of liquid courage." You say, pushing yourself up from your chair, walking towards the end of the food table. There lay countless plastic shot glasses full of vodka. You pluck one from the rim of the platter.
Sloane watches as you down the drink, admiring the way your throat moves to swallow. They snort when they see you pulling a face.
"C'mon- c'mon- the song is already going." They bounce, having to fight the urge to just drag you onto the dance floor themself. Shaking your head, you wipe away the grimace on your face and discard the tiny shot glass into the nearby garbage.
They grab your hand and pull you into the crowd, though they seem somewhat aware of your aversion to it. So they lead you towards a less populated end of the floor, despite this, nearly everyone at the wedding was dancing. So you were still around a decent amount of people. They smile wide, looking off into the gaggle of party goers. You find it ironic this is the song you're dancing to, the lyrics playing loudly.
We've got nowhere to go
We've got nothing to prove
Instead of dancing alone
I should be dancing with you
The lyrics are slightly erotic, even, but you don't have much time to ponder it when they turn back to face you. They release your hand, before snapping their fingers in tune with the beat and swaying their hips. You giggle, your cheeks and stomach buzzing from the alcohol. Unfortunately for Sloane, you do not know how to dance. Not well at least, they laugh, watching you sway awkwardly. "You don't dance do you?" They ask, almost having to shout to be heard over the clamor of people and music.
"No, not really!" You reply, before admitting, "I don't wanna look dumb!"
"Look dumb?! I'll show you dumb." They jest, backing up a bit to give themself some space. With their eyes locked onto yours, they bend their knees while bringing their right hand towards their head, palm open. They're walking towards you sideways, left hand swiping back and forth to their side and front. You about shit yourself, recoiling in shock and laughing. They continue though, bringing both hands up in fists towards their head, pumping them as they shake their hips, still approaching you.
"What are you doing!!" You shout, cracking up at their absurdity. They finally pivot fully towards you, bending forward and moving their hands in circles. They finish off their charade with a performative strut your way, palms open in a dramatic walk.
They laugh, grabbing one of your hands and pulling you further into the floor. "I'm dancing!! You should try it sometime!" They jive, sticking their tongue out. "I'm just saying, no one can look sillier than me!" You roll your eyes and shake your head. The smile never leaving your face.
They grab your other hand and start dancing for you, swaying you side to side. You can't help but giggle, letting them have their fun. You sway your hips and release their hands, moving yours back, snapping your fingers while doing circles and stepping side to side. Their grin widens and they yell, "Hell yeah! get it!!" Encouraging you.
Smiling big, you continue attempting to dance with them. Sloane closes their eyes and lets themself feel the music, they move their feet expertly, and their arm movements intentionally. Seeing this makes you realize they definitely know how to dance. Your eyes explore them, their body and the way they move. It feels dirty watching them like this…But they invited you to dance, you think maybe they want you to watch them. Enjoy them, drink them up.
It feels as though they've already wrapped you around their finger. You feel sadness bubble that the song is already ending. Luckily the next song that plays doesn't disappoint, more bass-y than the last. This one still just as popular as the day it released.
You let yourself loosen, swaying your full body in rhythm with the bass as the song goes on. Sloane is looking at you again, and you daringly strut around them, stepping in beat with the drums. Alcohol does wonders for self esteem. They wait for you to come back around before stepping close, pulling you in by the hand. You raise an eyebrow, checking them with a grin, before gleefully walking back, shuffling your feet in tune with the music then pulling them towards you. They follow excitedly, their foot work impressive as they step towards you. They raise your held hand up as they approach and you twirl around to face them once more. Confidence runs through you at this point, letting go of the hand above you. You bring your free hand up quickly, placing it on their chest before grabbing their opposite hand. They're grinning so hard, pulling back, until your arms are taunt. Then jerking you towards them, you turn so your back hits their chest. Sloane has one hand around your front, hugging you just beneath your chest. The other holding your hip, their head resting next to yours. You both just sway now, enjoying each other's company and the music. "This okay?" They ask in your ear, the tone in their voice dropping low.
"Huh?" You say loudly, turning to face them.
"I asked if this is okay!" They announced a little louder, and closer to your ear.
"Yeah!" You affirm happily, like this is the best day of your life.
Do I wanna know?
If these feelings flow both ways.
Sad to see you go.
Sorta hoping that you'd stay.
Baby we both know.
That the nights were mainly made for sayin' things.
That you can't say tomorrow day.
Dancing with them like this, swaying side to side feels almost romantic. And you're having a really hard time ignoring that fact. That coupled with your already burning attraction has you dizzy. You could stay here forever. Another song passes by, and you both continue dancing with one another. At one point, you fumble through a waltz before they twirl and dip you. Despite having the time of your life, exhaustion was quickly catching up. Feeling a bit hot, and tired, holding both their hands, you turn around.
Looking up at Sloane, you truly get to admire their beauty. They've got beautiful curls, swooping and gentle. Their hair is natural, soft looking, and when you danced you could even smell their shampoo. Their eyes are a deep brown, rich like the dirt they so love digging through. You finally notice their eyebrow piercing as well, and you bite your lip. It suits them. You think.
The longer you analyze their features, you wonder how the hell they're even real. How someone could look as perfect as them, be as charming as them. It nearly drives you mad. They smile a little, their eyes darting away. Their flushed cheeks grow a little redder at your prolonged staring. You smile a little, this is the first time you've seen them at least a little bashful. It's adorable.
The music is playing quietly now, seeing as most of the guests vacated the dance floor. Only a few stragglers are left, you included. So now you can properly talk to them.
"You know earlier... I wasn't exactly looking at the cupcakes…” You purse your lips, and squint your eyes, as if to will yourself to get the words out.
“I was staring at you." You chew your lip, looking away shyly. This confession could make or break this… whatever this is. You certainly don't wanna break it. While nervous, you had a feeling they would respond positively.
Their eyes snap back towards you, and they let themself smile, raising an eyebrow. "Ohhh, I'm that pretty, huh?" They tease.
You sigh and roll your eyes, they really are such a bastard. "Yeah yeah, whatever." You mutter, playfully pushing their shoulder. Not risking stroking their ego any further.
"No no, tell me, was it the bowtie?" They snicker, pushing their chest out a bit to really show it off.
You shake your head, running your hands up from their own and readjusting their accessory. “Yes, it was the bowtie, all I wanted was you, bowtie.” You whisper at their chest, pulling the sides of the bow.
“Psh,” They chuckle, “Okay for real! What was it, huh?” They say, flashing their signature grin while raising their eyebrows suggestively. Perhaps telling them was a bad idea, you purse your lips again, realizing they'll bother you forever until you tell them. It seems like they're DYING to know.
You hum, dropping your head onto their chest. With one hand still on their chest, you let your other trail down their arm before grasping theirs, bringing it up towards you. Flipping it palm up, you let your free hand lightly touch their palm. "Your hands, I like them. I was looking at them." Dragging your fingers along their palm, you feel every callous and rough patch of skin. You turn them over to admire their nail polish and knuckles. You even start to massage in-between their fingers, just soaking up the fact that you can touch them like this, and they're allowing you to.
They seem to be at a loss for words, and you figure that doesn't happen too often. Smiling, you walk your fingers up their arm and to their shoulder to rest it there, bringing your other arm up to mirror it. Their hands come up to your waist and bring you close. While enjoying the embrace, you weren't expecting them to shake you and hug you in tightly. They groan into your shoulder, as if frustrated. You puff out a laugh at their weirdness.
"Sorry- you're just so cute." They say, pulling back. "I just met you and you already got me in stitches." They admit, kicking the dirt by your feet. You figure instant attraction to a stranger is just as new to you as it is to them.
"Well..." You start, not even sure what to say. "We can… go back to my room? I'm staying at a hotel nearby. We can hang out, talk...see where it takes us?" Your voice raises at the end of your sentence, as if a little worried they'll say no. That's another lie, you were a LOT worried they'll say no, denying you any more of their time.
Your anxiety is evident as your eyes search their face for a clue, a glimmer of what they might say. Of what they could be thinking.
Sloane looks at you with tenderness. Such sweetness you could melt. They bring a hand up to cup the side of your face, rubbing their thumb across it. "I'd like that." They say, their voice seems to tighten as if they're both excited and nervous about the proposition.
Yeah, usually parties suck. But this one? This one was amazing.
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A/N: No one requested this, and this is purely self indulgent. 🫠 I hope nobody minds. I still plan on doing requests! I just wanted to help myself feel better.
Premise: Suicidal!gn!reader x Supportive!Venture. I scrapped the fic because I just didn't like it and went with head canons instead. Made it extra fluffy so if you're having a bad day you can safely read it!
Warning: Low key suicide mentions but no actual suicide.
✦ "Sometimes I just think it would be better off for everyone if I didn't exist at all."
✦ "If I could just erase everyone's memory of me and disappear... I would make everyone's life much easier."
✦ Being low key suicidal would be something you would hide for months into your relationship, and if you're lucky, maybe even a year.
✦ You're very good at pretending everything is alright because you don't want to 'bother anyone more than you already do'. At least, that was your explanation of it.
✦ Obviously, Sloan is devastated.
✦ One day you had finally had enough of pretending to be fine. The meltdown was a massive one– screaming, sobbing, throwing (soft) things across the room. You were thankful they only saw the aftermath of the whole ordeal.
✦ They were rightfully concerned after you were talking about some pretty dark things.
✦ "I'm sure I could be replaced. There's always more people out there to meet, eventually someone will fill the hole that I would leave behind– if I even left one."
✦ "Someone better in every way. Better looking, smarter, more lovable. Someone that is the opposite of me."
✦ They weren't sure what to think at first, as they knew you could be extremely hard on yourself. It wasn't your fault and they certainly weren't about to blame you for something out of your control.
✦ However, when you stopped replying it became a different story entirely.
✦ They found you curled up in a blanket on the couch. You had not eaten, you were barely hydrated, and your face was red and wet from being so upset.
✦ "Please don't take me to the hospital. I don't want to go." You plead with them.
✦ "We're not going anywhere, mi vida. Just talk to me."
✦ You told them everything that was on your mind: how worthless you felt you were, how much of a burden you were to them, how much happier they would be without you.
✦ The look on their face didn't change much. You were afraid you finally said too much.
✦ "That's not true."
✦ Not the response you expected.
✦ "I love you with every fiber of my being. I don't know what a life without you would look like, but I certainly don't want to know. Not now. Not ever."
✦ Their reaction sounded completely out of character to you. You were used to them cracking jokes despite the tension, but now it seems that seriousness was all they were composed of.
✦ They lift up your blanketed body so they could hold you for awhile. If you had any tears left in your tired eyes you'd be crying again right now.
✦ For awhile it's quiet, just the two of you snuggled up on the couch as the minutes ticked by.
✦ They were terrified to leave you alone that night, so you spent it together. Not something you're unfamiliar with, but this time they wouldn't let you out of their sight.
✦ In the morning it was pretty much the same way. This time they got you to eat a little bit of food and drink a glass of water to help you nourish yourself after yesterday's excitement.
✦ And yes, they were happy enough to spoon food into your mouth and crack jokes to see you smile. They had to. The seriousness had began to take a toll on them.
✦ That, and seeing your smile meant everything to them.
✦ When you went to bed for an afternoon nap they decided to call Angela for advice in between checking on you every thirty minutes.
✦ "Well, I'm not a therapist. However, I think you would both benefit from having an emergency plan in case something like this happens again." 🪽
✦ "I know it's a lot of work, but you sound like you genuinely care about [Y/N]." 🪽
✦ "I do." 🪨
✦ "Sometimes the best thing for people who are suffering is to just be there for them and listen to them. Believe me, it can do a world of good." 🪽
✦ "Thank you, Angela." 🪨
✦ "You're quite welcome, and please tell [Y/N] I wish them well!" 🪽
✦ "Can do!" 🪨
✦ In the evening when you feel the sadness return they hold you close and make sure you don't feel alone while you ride out your emotions.
✦ Once you're able to properly think again, the two of you brainstorm ideas related to Angela's advice.
✦ You both decide on a system that was easy enough to remember– they would ask you for a number, and depending on how you felt would determine your answer.
✦ The numbers went one through five: one meaning you felt safe and five meaning you needed support with varying levels of severity in between.
✦ While the goal was to always be a one, they knew that wasn't possible. So instead, they would do the best they could to remain available at all hours of the day so you could call them if needed.
✦ They also visit you a lot more often now. Even though you feel bad for interfering with their work, they just genuinely wanted to spend time with you and make sure you were going to be okay.
✦ Besides, work could wait until tomorrow. They weren't concerned about that at all.
✦ They promised you that no matter what the two of you were going through that you would both be okay in the end.
✦ No matter the amount of tears, no matter the amount of turmoil, no matter the amount of self loathing and insecurity– you were going to be okay, and in turn, so were they.
✦ "How are we feeling, mi corazón?"
✦ No matter what number you chose they were always prepared.
✦ "I think I feel like a one today."
✦ But hearing that you were feeling well for the first time in a long time was enough to bring them to actual tears of joy.
✦ Having to be the one to comfort them and calm them down was certainly a change of pace.
✦ "I'm just happy that you're feeling better." Then they held you as tightly as they could without hurting you.
✦ "I want to be here for all of your ones, too. I love to see you happy, because nothing makes me happier than you. You are my only one."
#Sigh this was so very much needed & thank you for sharing#Some of my new favorite headcanons actually#And the ending was so unexpectedly cute#My goodness#Thanks again op <3#Venture <3#tw: suicide
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needdddd them more than anythign rn
it was quiet in the tent save for the barely audible slick noises coming from your cunt. sloan's fingers worked magic as they piston in and out of you in a harsh manner. you were so wet, all because of them.
"hm, you feel close baby? so fuckin' wet...so fuckin' hot." they couldnt help moaning at the sight and feeling of you, dripping down their hand and onto the sleeping mat below. the dull throbbing between their legs was almost becoming unbearable.
"yeah...please, fuck. dont stop, m' so fuckin close." you whimper, gripping their soft, chocolate brown hair.
their lips find place on your neck once again, tongue tracing over the bite marks they had left earlier. the stinging sensation fueled the fire in your stomach. release was so close, yet ripped from your grasp as they remove their fingers.
"why'd you stop?" you whimped again, pathetically trying to create friction by bucking your hips.
in the darkness of your shared tent, you could see their smirk, as they rubbed their hands on your thighs, squeezing.
"shh i know, i wanna taste you." they spoke softly, soothing your pleas. they move down so they are postioned between your thighs.
"want you t' come for me, kay?" they press a kiss to the inside of your thigh before diving in.
the pressure of their tongue on your sensitive pussy makes you moan, thighs shaking around them. their tongue circles your clit and you nearly see stars. suddenly, their fingers find their place back inside you, continuing that harsh pace from earlier.
without much warning for either of you, your orgasm hits you like a ton of bricks. from below you hear sloan, groaning at the taste of you as you cum on thier tongue. hands are removed from inside you and rub soothing circles on your hips and thighs, coaxing you down from the harsh release.
you whimper from the overstimulation as they place a final kiss to your clit before coming back up to face you.
the sight of them with your slick on their face, framing that stupid grin almost made you need to come again.
"how was that?" they smiled lovingly, placing kisses along your neck and face before landing a peck on your lips.
"good. really fuckin good." you kiss them back, allowing them to cover you with their frame.
lips melt together in a haze of desperation and comfort. how you loved to kiss them.
after a while, you push their chest slightly so your able to speak.
"now its your turn." you smile at them mischievously, hands squeezing their shoulders.
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NSFW Alphabet
A/N: Alright– the Venture thirst got the best of me so I made a second side blog for thirst posting. I had this in my drafts for awhile so here we go, hopefully they're decent!
Warnings: None!
A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)
Absolute cuddle bug! Lots of soft praise and smooches, letting you know just how much they love you and how well you took them/pleasured them. Will absolutely hold you until you fall asleep and will more than likely still be holding you when you wake up.
B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)
They're pretty confident about their body and view it as a canvas to express themself– but if they had to choose it would probably be their hands! That's what they use to love you, after all. They love every inch of you, especially the places where that you're the most insecure about. Will show those places the most love with extra kisses and hickeys if you're comfortable with those.
C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)
As long as they can make you do it then they're all for it, but still somewhat scared of the other Wayfinders seeing something like that so they're a little bit picky about letting it be seen on you or themself. In private they don't mind whatsoever.
D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)
Would absolutely love to have sex in public but is way too terrified to initiate that– but if you did... they would not say no, just saying.
E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)
Knows exactly what they're doing after years of smut reading. Never had sex with an actual person before but they're confident enough in their skills. Just don't be afraid to communicate as well! They need to know how they're doing... just in case.
F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)
Any position where they can see your face! They love to see you come undone in the best way possible.
G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)
Absolutely cracks jokes all the way through the process. That's just the kind of person they are! Seriousness is not their forte.
H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)
Will trim if you're constantly spitting out hair but other than that they don't bother with it. Doesn't care if you shave or not because they're happy just to see you.
I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)
Incredibly romantic! Even if they crack jokes they always make sure to tell you how much they love you, how well you're doing, and they're always encouraging and praising you during the process.
J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)
Can only really enjoy masturbating if they know you're doing it, too so they're a giant fan of mutual masturbation. If they're off on their own and can't get to you for whatever reason they have to call you. FaceTime is preferred but they can finish to just your voice as well.
K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)
Huge fan of praise as mentioned before, both giving and receiving. Loves hair pulling and grabbing onto your hair. Thinks piercings and tattoos are incredibly sexy but if you don't have any they don't mind, either.
L = Location (favorite places to do the do)
They get sleepy after finishing so they prefer the bedroom or living room more than anything, but still thinks about having sex with you in public from time to time.
M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)
The biggest one is you, of course! They're also a big fan of smut and read it a lot when they're on their own. Almost always ends up calling you after finishing a fic.
N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)
They can't bring themself to hurt you other than light impact play. Anything that involves injuring you is an instant no. They also struggle with degrading you even if you ask for it– they love you! It's hard to talk bad about you... they'll sure try though.
O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)
Is a giant fan of oral, both giving and receiving. Loves to kiss your thighs and feel them wrap around their head. If for some reason you can't be penetrated they're more than happy to provide oral, and they'll put in the extra effort to make sure you're fully satisfied in every way.
P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)
They try their hardest to be slow but they can't help but chase the high when they're with you. Will always be gentle with you unless you ask them to be rougher, in which case they will oblige (to a degree).
Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)
Because they have little ability to edge correctly (they blame this on you) all sex ends up being quick sex. Will happily have sex multiple times a day if you're up for it, but won't ever pressure you if you don't feel like it.
R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)
They do enjoy risks that benefit the both of you– as long as it doesn't end in anything that could hurt you (or them, but they're more concerned about you).
S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)
They can go multiple times a day but will more than likely call it quits after the forth time. Because they have trouble edging the sex ends up being quicker than they plan for (and once again blames you for this: "Maybe if you didn't feel so good I'd last a lot longer...").
T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)
Loves toys! However, they'll never let you finish with them. That's their job! Prefers using them on a partner more than themself but doesn't mind it, either.
U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)
Can and will tease you to the point of accidentally ruining your orgasm, but they never mean to take it that far. Apologizes profusely when that happens and will always make it up to you as soon as possible.
V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)
Tries to keep their voice down but in the moment they're blissed out and moans can't help but escape. Lots of sharp breaths and heavy breathing as well. Will absolutely sing your voice like a prayer if you play your cards just right. (It also helps to imagine them being hit by Ana's primary fire).
W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)
Loves it when you 'dress up' for them. Anything with straps and metal is an instant hard on– goes absolutely feral for garters, chains and thigh highs. Will absolutely buy things they think you'll look good in.
X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)
They are covered head to toe in tattoos and old scars. Has hip piercings as well. If AFAB: top surgery with flame tattoos across the scars. Is absolutely pierced 'down there' and makes good use of it. Usually likes to use average sized straps unless you ask for something bigger. If AMAB: Still has the piercing and still uses it to their advantage. Loves wearing pants that show off their bulge if they're in the mood and especially loves it when you notice. About 6" fully erect and is uncut.
Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)
Can and will have sex multiple times a day as stated before, so all you have to do is ask. If they really, really need it then they'll practically beg for it. Likes for you to initiate so that way you're both 'on the same page' sort of speak, they don't like it if you're not into it as well.
Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)
They like to cuddle for a while before they fall asleep, but sex usually takes a lot of energy out of them so even if they can't sleep they'll definitely be sleepy through out the day.
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A/N: Another request off the list! This one was pretty fun, and thanks again for requesting! It really does mean a lot to me! Link to request here!
Premise: Takes place a little while after Venture's Adventures trailer! Silly goober does not realize taking on a deadly organization is not good for their health!
Warnings: Blood, a small argument but other than that there's nothing to worry about!
You press down the gauze onto the fresh wound on their arm, soaking up as much as the blood as you could manage. Within minutes it soaks the tight knit fabric a dark crimson red and you discard it into the nearby bloody scrap pile. You take another piece of clean, dry gauze and apply pressure to the area before wrapping it up and taping it off. Sloan winces and grits their teeth from your rough care.
"So..." You continue to treat their wounds as they watch. "You really did all of that? By yourself?" You ask.
Tears formed in their eyes as you dug into another wound to clean it. They blink them away before you can notice–
"Sure did!" They grin.
"Didn't we have this talk before?" You chide. The grin on their face immediately fades.
"Yeah, but if things went bad I could've gotten out of there no problem." They attempt to mask the defensiveness in their voice. You sigh and continue your cleaning and dressing.
Your soft, warm hands continue gently wrapping layers of fresh gauze around Sloan's clean wounds. The silence between the two of you feels immense. Without pressing the matter further, you finish up your work and move on to the next noticeable injury. However, there are several other cuts and scrapes across their skin, so you definitely had your work cut out for you tonight. At least the worst of the worst were already taken care of.
A laugh escapes their throat and you raise an eyebrow in curiosity.
"You're turning me into a mummy!" They joke.
You shake your head and sigh once more. They pout in response.
"Jeez, tough crowd." They add.
You hold back your frustration as you roll up their jeans to reveal more injuries in need of treatment. Once again you begin to wipe their skin clean with medicine and discard all bloody cloth into the growing mountain of medical trash. Your anger is evident in your body language.
"Hmph. Angela wouldn't be this mad–" You cut them off and they're caught by surprise. You shoot straight up and scowl.
"Well I'm not Angela, okay?" You argue, angrily tightening the cloth around their leg. They audibly express pain from your harshness.
You turn around for a moment and look for more medicine. Everything you grab lightly stains the container and their labels red in the shape of gloved fingers.
"I... didn't mean it like that..." There's noticeable guilt in their voice.
"You really just don't get it, do you?" You bite your cheek to stop yourself from further outbursts.
"Get what? That artifact was important to me–"
"And you're important to me!" You turn on your heels and meet their gaze directly. "You really think you could take on Talon all by yourself and not get hurt? You could have died!" You cry.
They blush and look away. "Aww come on, it wasn't that bad..."
"Wasn't that bad?! Look at your arms! I'm not even done with you yet! What were you thinking?" Tears of frustration form in your eyes.
Sloan is quiet again as the realization hits. They look down at their disheveled clothes and half patched up body. Oh my God– you were right...
You open your mouth to start yelling again but you stop when you feel their arms wrap around your waist. They nuzzle against your warm skin and close their eyes.
"I'm sorry." They admit.
You let out another sigh and affectionately pat their head in defeat.
"You really should take better care of yourself. I can only fix so much. What you did was extremely brave and admirable, but it was also extremely stupid and reckless���" You stop yourself mid lecture so you wouldn't make them feel worse than they already did. "What I'm trying to say is... archeology is important to you, and you're important to me. There will always be more treasure to uncover but there's only one of you. You can't ever be replaced, you know?"
They sniffle and hug you closer. You continue comforting them to the best of your ability as their emotions pour out onto your soiled shirt. You remove your stained gloves and reach into your coat pocket for an emergency lemon lollipop.
"Here." You take off the wrapper and hand the sweet to them. Immediately their eyes light up with joy, and they quickly wipe away their tears on their jacket sleeve.
"Aww yeah! You're the best!" They immediately pop the sweet into their mouth. "Thanks!" They mumble with a full mouth.
"This is not an excuse to forget what I just told you."
You take your hand and tilt their head up. From a nearby glove box you grab a pair of clean gloves and get back to work.
"I won't forget! I promise!"
"Isn't that what you said last time?" You remind them.
They remove the lollipop from their mouth and look at you in full seriousness.
"I promise I'll be more careful! You're my treasure. No one else is allowed to discover you. Finders keepers!"
You couldn't help but smile from the cheesiness.
Satisfied with your expression, they continue eating away at their lollipop. You continue to hold their face carefully while wiping away the dirt, grime and blood. As an extra treat you reach into your pocket again and place a skeleton bandaid on their cheek across a minor scrape they obtained.
"Alright. I think you're good to go. Don't get into anymore trouble, okay?" You ask them, borderline begging for them to be safer in the future.
"Finders keepers." They repeat, hopping off the table.
You finally toss the huge mess you made into the garbage and wash your hands. They head for the door before they stop dead in their tracks. They flick their leftover lollipop stick into the trash.
"Oh! I almost forgot!" They walk over to you and place a kiss to your lips.
"Finders keepers..." They smile. "But you make it hard to want to stay safe because I love seeing you."
You blush and let out a tiny giggle.
"You're my favorite patient. Just don't get maimed, alright?" You swat at them lightly. "I'm serious. Doctors orders."
"Sure thing, Doc. Are you free this Saturday by any chance?" A cheeky grin lights up their face.
"Only if you can go the rest of the week without getting injured." You place your hands on your hips and put on your serious face.
"You betcha!" Their grin somehow widens further as they spin around and head for the door.
You wait for them to fully leave before leaning back on the table and crossing your arms.
"I give them eleven minutes." You whisper under your breath.
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A/N: Another request off the list! This one was pretty fun, and thanks again for requesting! It really does mean a lot to me! Link to request here!
Premise: Takes place a little while after Venture's Adventures trailer! Silly goober does not realize taking on a deadly organization is not good for their health!
Warnings: Blood, a small argument but other than that there's nothing to worry about!
You press down the gauze onto the fresh wound on their arm, soaking up as much as the blood as you could manage. Within minutes it soaks the tight knit fabric a dark crimson red and you discard it into the nearby bloody scrap pile. You take another piece of clean, dry gauze and apply pressure to the area before wrapping it up and taping it off. Sloan winces and grits their teeth from your rough care.
"So..." You continue to treat their wounds as they watch. "You really did all of that? By yourself?" You ask.
Tears formed in their eyes as you dug into another wound to clean it. They blink them away before you can notice–
"Sure did!" They grin.
"Didn't we have this talk before?" You chide. The grin on their face immediately fades.
"Yeah, but if things went bad I could've gotten out of there no problem." They attempt to mask the defensiveness in their voice. You sigh and continue your cleaning and dressing.
Your soft, warm hands continue gently wrapping layers of fresh gauze around Sloan's clean wounds. The silence between the two of you feels immense. Without pressing the matter further, you finish up your work and move on to the next noticeable injury. However, there are several other cuts and scrapes across their skin, so you definitely had your work cut out for you tonight. At least the worst of the worst were already taken care of.
A laugh escapes their throat and you raise an eyebrow in curiosity.
"You're turning me into a mummy!" They joke.
You shake your head and sigh once more. They pout in response.
"Jeez, tough crowd." They add.
You hold back your frustration as you roll up their jeans to reveal more injuries in need of treatment. Once again you begin to wipe their skin clean with medicine and discard all bloody cloth into the growing mountain of medical trash. Your anger is evident in your body language.
"Hmph. Angela wouldn't be this mad–" You cut them off and they're caught by surprise. You shoot straight up and scowl.
"Well I'm not Angela, okay?" You argue, angrily tightening the cloth around their leg. They audibly express pain from your harshness.
You turn around for a moment and look for more medicine. Everything you grab lightly stains the container and their labels red in the shape of gloved fingers.
"I... didn't mean it like that..." There's noticeable guilt in their voice.
"You really just don't get it, do you?" You bite your cheek to stop yourself from further outbursts.
"Get what? That artifact was important to me–"
"And you're important to me!" You turn on your heels and meet their gaze directly. "You really think you could take on Talon all by yourself and not get hurt? You could have died!" You cry.
They blush and look away. "Aww come on, it wasn't that bad..."
"Wasn't that bad?! Look at your arms! I'm not even done with you yet! What were you thinking?" Tears of frustration form in your eyes.
Sloan is quiet again as the realization hits. They look down at their disheveled clothes and half patched up body. Oh my God– you were right...
You open your mouth to start yelling again but you stop when you feel their arms wrap around your waist. They nuzzle against your warm skin and close their eyes.
"I'm sorry." They admit.
You let out another sigh and affectionately pat their head in defeat.
"You really should take better care of yourself. I can only fix so much. What you did was extremely brave and admirable, but it was also extremely stupid and reckless–" You stop yourself mid lecture so you wouldn't make them feel worse than they already did. "What I'm trying to say is... archeology is important to you, and you're important to me. There will always be more treasure to uncover but there's only one of you. You can't ever be replaced, you know?"
They sniffle and hug you closer. You continue comforting them to the best of your ability as their emotions pour out onto your soiled shirt. You remove your stained gloves and reach into your coat pocket for an emergency lemon lollipop.
"Here." You take off the wrapper and hand the sweet to them. Immediately their eyes light up with joy, and they quickly wipe away their tears on their jacket sleeve.
"Aww yeah! You're the best!" They immediately pop the sweet into their mouth. "Thanks!" They mumble with a full mouth.
"This is not an excuse to forget what I just told you."
You take your hand and tilt their head up. From a nearby glove box you grab a pair of clean gloves and get back to work.
"I won't forget! I promise!"
"Isn't that what you said last time?" You remind them.
They remove the lollipop from their mouth and look at you in full seriousness.
"I promise I'll be more careful! You're my treasure. No one else is allowed to discover you. Finders keepers!"
You couldn't help but smile from the cheesiness.
Satisfied with your expression, they continue eating away at their lollipop. You continue to hold their face carefully while wiping away the dirt, grime and blood. As an extra treat you reach into your pocket again and place a skeleton bandaid on their cheek across a minor scrape they obtained.
"Alright. I think you're good to go. Don't get into anymore trouble, okay?" You ask them, borderline begging for them to be safer in the future.
"Finders keepers." They repeat, hopping off the table.
You finally toss the huge mess you made into the garbage and wash your hands. They head for the door before they stop dead in their tracks. They flick their leftover lollipop stick into the trash.
"Oh! I almost forgot!" They walk over to you and place a kiss to your lips.
"Finders keepers..." They smile. "But you make it hard to want to stay safe because I love seeing you."
You blush and let out a tiny giggle.
"You're my favorite patient. Just don't get maimed, alright?" You swat at them lightly. "I'm serious. Doctors orders."
"Sure thing, Doc. Are you free this Saturday by any chance?" A cheeky grin lights up their face.
"Only if you can go the rest of the week without getting injured." You place your hands on your hips and put on your serious face.
"You betcha!" Their grin somehow widens further as they spin around and head for the door.
You wait for them to fully leave before leaning back on the table and crossing your arms.
"I give them eleven minutes." You whisper under your breath.
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Hi just wanted to say. Venture has become a major comfort character for me very quickly, and so seeing the more structured writing people make and share about them brings me some much needed happiness. ...But. i wanted to also offer that getting to read how people feel about and imagine venture actually makes me smile just as much, and often more.
Those shorter posts, where a person is wondering into a favorite character because they felt the urge to in that moment, are little treasures to me. They're experimentations with love, intimacy, and conflict. And they're *literal* pieces of your capacity to dream - which y'all are then sharing for anybody to find, pause and spend time with!
Developing your writing craft is a valuable way to grow and impact others. But the raw things, the thoughts and observations that don't get developed into structured works, those things activate me too.
So if you share your writing online and maybe feel like only structured writing is what anyone wants to read from you, (or if you don't post much but have more thoughts that you would like to share,) please know that i appreciate the smaller moments of imagination just as much as the bigger ones. <3 !
#venture x reader#venture overwatch#for anybody who shares character thoughts - not just about venture#and this is especially relevant to other black & native people dreaming into their favorite characters. thank y'all for sharing <3
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I made a fatter edit to trigger the fatphobes. Lemme know if you wanna see that
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forgot to post this here! my headcanon on that one kiri and moira interaction
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