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Yupp looks like a relapse. Just gotta ride the honeymoon period for as long as possible. I want my clothes to becone looser by the end of February at the latest. The worst/best part is that o genuinely do need to lose weight, so for a while, if in playing my cards right, most people will actually support these new habits, bcse they will seem healthier to most people

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Dont know if anyone who follows this blog is still active but i think i might end up crawling back here again. I gained a LOT of weight in 2022, finally stopped the medication, causing it in 2023 and maintained my weight, and now its 2024, i want to shed off the extra 40-50lbs i gained, at least 30lbs, i miss my old wardrobe that i got to big to wear. Especially my summer clothes. But anyway, if youre still around, Hi, if you're recovering/recovered, you may wanna unfollow this blog

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Regretting tossing the scale before gaining so much weight from birth control, but like i can't even see if im losing weight since stopping it 3 weeks ago. Im eating less too. But only bcse my appetite has been lower. But i want to know and have no way to find out

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Guess who got fat this year (probably bcse i started pergesteron birth control) but like im actually fat now, like legitimate overweight, nearly obese by medical standards for my height. I should not have looked up what is considered healthy overweight, and obese, bcse like fuck. I might have finally triggered myself. Bit also im a fat ass who is too lazy to work out so this moght go nowhere. But anyway my BMI is like 29 now so like fuckkk meeee. Not sure what tags the ed community uses anymore or if it still exist on here at all so no tags. Also this could go nowehere. Who knows

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Hmmm might come crawling back to this blog/my ED

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i hate myself ive been yo-yo-ing for 2 weeks im gonna see how long i can skip lunch and breakfast again before my partner asks me to eat. i need to remember that i like feeling hungry. ive been at 1200 but thats clearly too much

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it really has come to it (that didnt take very long)... gonna start going for 30 minute runs in the morning before work. i would swim but covid 1 and point B. gyms with pools are pricey anyways, running outside is free and i don't have to take a bus to do it. unfortunately it is my best option for excercise

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sw: 132 lbs

gw1: 125 lbs

gw2: 120lbs

gw3: 115lbs

gw4: 110 lbs

ugw: 105lbs

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people with eds, who caused your ed and why was it your mom?

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low key wanna start a book about myself first developing anorexia

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i should tell my therapist my ed wants to come back but i know i wont. im scared but happy at the same time. i know that doesnt make sense but its called a eating disorder for a reason.

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*not my meme!! message me for credit*

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god i want to snack so bad rn. i already ate a big dinner, then a piece of mochi and several jelly beans tho.

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i want to say that im back but its complicated- i handle dinner for me and my partner (who also has a history of eating disorders) and he will notice if i change too much too fast. he wont notice as much if i dont eat during the day. i cant count calories as easily like this so i wont keep a diary like i usually do. for now im trying to only eat dinner and a fruit now and then.