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everytime i get within the vicinity of one of my 5'0 friends im like. You are andrew to me :) ( I am 5'3)

Anyways...andreil!!!! sorry for being MIA, school was kicking my butt !!!

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neil speaking!

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the thing that drives me up the wall about “anti/proship” discourse is that it frames grooming as like, primarily an ideological practice in which the threat is that kids will “think adult/minor relationships are morally ok”. which sure maybe that happens idfk but the thing is that grooming is in practical almost entirely divorced from ideology and is so much more about individual exceptionalism… which I think is especially true for fandom-aged demographics! these aren’t kids who are just freshly learning the basics of right and wrong, most of them probably already generally know what pedophilia is and think it’s bad, it’s just that they’re also particularly susceptible to individualized attention that makes them feel uniquely special and mature.

like. I don’t know. it’s just incredibly frustrating to see people continually talking about CSA like it only happens because the perpetrators and victims believe pedophilia is morally permissible rather than because they think that their own personal circumstances exonerate them and make it uniquely acceptable and not harmful.

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Murderbot, a construct that was built and used to do extreme violence it's entire existence : I hate talking to people but I will try to resolve this situation peacefully if I can, threats only make people panic and then they take irrational decisions. Extreme violence is sometimes unavoidable but last resort.

ART, a peaceful research transportation : I love talking to people because I can threaten them with extreme violence right off the bat and it makes them do what I want (ads more totally-not-weapons to it's research equipment)

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THE GOLDEN RAVEN SPOILERS

”Crawling back to you”.

Not the andreil content I was expecting…

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Watching a new series set in 2010-ish will make you think words like period appropriate cellphones

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Andrew's afternoon while Neil ordered a hit in the middle of a restaurant

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i feel like a lot of discourse around identities could just be boiled down to “you could not pay me to care about this”

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Tragic. Tumblr user made a good point but was unnecessarily condescending about it. Will not be reblogging

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Do theologians in Omegaverse worlds argue about what Jesus meant when he said "I'm the Alpha and the Omega"?

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i cried

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the parallels of the trojans and foxes. both of them safe spaces but for different scars. the trojans offering a sliver of peace for queer players, as much as that could exist in the early 2000s. the foxes offering a home to players that have been perpetually overlooked and harmed by the world.

neither coach having children of their own (at first) and pouring themselves into creating the spaces they needed as a young person.

just because they had to do it alone doesn’t make it right, and they’ll be damned if any of their players ever feel abandoned again.

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Honestly, you don't need dating advice save for "just be yourself". If a guy isn't seduced by your extensive lecture about coealacanths, or a girl isn't impressed by you gaming the McDonald's systems to finesse yourself 30 free chicken nuggets, you're on a date with the wrong person. Not a bad person, but one that isn't the right match for you, and the way you want to live.

First dates are for showing someone "hey this is the kind of life I like to be living", them doing the same, until you find someone who clicks and you both think "fuck yeah I want to live like this." Whether that's sitting in a café judging joggers, or casually committing small crime for shits and giggles.

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the trauma is trauming

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The more I think about the differences between how the Trojans show affection vs how the Foxes do, the more I come to the conclusion that they unwittingly created the perfect environment for Jean and Neil’s arcs respectively.

Take for example the way Cat and Laila show Jean affection. The forehead kisses, the hugs, the endless reassurance and compassion. It may go without saying but Neil would’ve hated it if he ended up in that situation. He would’ve booked it faster than you can say Wesninski. But Jean? I mean sure he was baffled at first, but the way he grows to lean into it? The way he shows affection the same way back? Jean needed that brand of affection in a way Neil won’t ever. He needed to learn that he was deserving of such love; that there are people out there now who cared about him as deeply as he does them.

Neil on the other hand needed to learn a whole different set of lessons. The Foxes showing him that they care was less such obvious displays of love and more about patience in the face of his complications. More about their willingness to stick by him when the fabricated life he clung so hard to unraveled at the seams. Jean wouldn’t have flourished as much in that environment because he didn’t need understanding as much as he needed love. He didn’t need someone to help piece his life back together as much as he needed someone to love what was already there.

Neil is like an innocent looking stray cat that the foxes still kept even when they got bit; while Jean is like an abused show dog that the Trojans nurse back to health. And good lord do I love them both for it.

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I love the headcanon that Jean thinks Andrew is kinda spooky like a blank-eyed child in a horror movie or something.