writingforthesakeoflove

[writingforthesakeoflove]

I Asked my friend what your name was .... Had seen you outside your class during the holy mass , so you weren't a Christian. Thought the name Sidharth suited you the best. Damn was I right. Your name was Sidharth.

I was with my friends, my hands perched up on the balcony , my foot on top of the metal piece just below the railing. My friend lifted her hand and pointed at you and you looked towards us then boom! Damn wth.

There started a series of sudden eye contacts and stolen glances. Was I overthinking everything? Maybe, but my eyes weren't blind.

I found out you used to like a girl not too long ago but she rejected you......

You though, rejected me indirectly when I made a move. And oh boy did that hurt. I kept thinking did I come off too strongly ? Did I do something to make you uncomfortable?

But still I saw you looking at where I was standing after I walked away. I saw you looking at me from the balcony where I was standing searching for you. To think you found me first made my heart skip a beat but that was truly sad because nothing worked out. Why did it had to turn this way? Wasn't DS amazing? He wouldn't have ever hurt me.....and yet I chose this, I chose you, knowing nothing.

I did a mistake, want to take it all back. I used to thank sree , now I cuss her out. Why did fate play such a cruel game and show me you through her?

[writingforthesakeoflove]

It was second nature to me , for my friends to know. But I didn't notice her. When I said to Tilly , how gorgeous you were , she agreed almost instantly.....Tilly was my right hand in these sort of things. She heard this and asked Tilly if she had a crush on you too , she said no but she couldn't deny that you were indeed a sight for the eyes even if she already had a crush. From then on I started to notice subtle changes , how she would know where you were even before I saw you, how she constantly forgot your name and would ask us , how she would lay down her head on tilly's shoulder oh so subtly and stare at you....but I should have seen it coming, she wasn't the problem, there was something else entirely new waiting for me.

[writingforthesakeoflove]

June 2024 , 1st - 2nd week

I saw you for the first time 🌷

I clearly remember it being on the staircase, when you were headed down and I was headed up. I saw you talking with my classmate , a teasing smile on your face as you regarded her and your friend. Which friend? I don't remember now... But yeah , all thanks to Sree , I stumbled upon you.

I remember thinking...what the hell..how can a human be so beautiful? You were the epitome of gaiety. Always had a smile on your face, tall and had soft features. I knew I didn't stand a chance but I could admire you from afar.