writeitbetterthanueverfeltit

[writeitbetterthanueverfeltit]

I find myself here,

Lonely but never alone ,

Once had my direction

But now all I do is roam.

Looking in the mirror,

Seeing everything I hate.

Dying for some sleep,

But somehow I’m always awake.

I wonder every day,

Can I drown in my own tears?

The feeling is familiar,

But yet it feels so weird

My heart’s alway known pain,

Even when I was numb,

My life has never really started,

Yet I still feel like it’s done.

Had happiness for a moment,

Until it slipped out of my grip,

I wonder if I’ll ever truly know,

Any feeling that isn’t this.

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The body of a man

Houses the mind of a child.

Stuck in his own world,

Never free to run wild.

Locked inside his own head,

Unaware that it’s his cage.

Does he even understand

The source of all his rage?

When he feels happiness

Does he know the reason why?

Is he as sad as we are,

That he watches the world pass him by?

Is he painfully aware,

Of blissfully ignorant of his fate?

These answers we’ll never have,

But are questions we forever contemplate.

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Good deeds always punished,

Kind hearts are abused.

Funny and ironic

But I’m not amused

Most are driven by need,

Ignoring moral obligation,

Any sense of what’s right,

Outweighed by gratification.

Trying to fill a hole,

Digger deeper instead,

Consumed by an emptiness,

Hunger that can never be fed.

Trying to do what’s right,

But what is my reward?

Lived a life of peace

But still died by the sword.

The healthy are made sick

From something contagious.

In spite of the disrespect,

I try to remain gracious.

The good don’t always die young,

Sometimes they’re just shattered,

They did all the right things,

But in the end none of it mattered.

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What happens

When the giver never takes?

Alway healing others

Even while she breaks

Pouring from a cup

That’s completely empty

Closing her eyes

So that others can see.

Gives the shirt off her back

Leaving herself bare,

Neglecting her needs,

To provide others with care.

Loving others

with all her heart,

While hating herself,

As she falls apart.

Living for others,

Sacrificing every day,

She is nothing

Because she gave herself away.

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I spend my days wondering

If you’d have a smile like he does

How can I learn to grieve,

Something that never was.

Would your eyes sparkle,

Just like the ones I love.

Without you could I have

Everything I’ve dreamed of

I often think about it,

The person you would be

But I will never know

It’s something that I’ll never see.

You’ve never been here,

But somehow I miss you.

I live with this pain

Find a way to get through.

I dream of your face,

One that I’ll never know,

I’ve never held you

But I can’t let you go.

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I can feel the desperation

Hopelessly hanging on

Like I could wake up one morning

To find that everything is gone

The more I hold tight

The more I lose my grip

I try to stay afloat

But fear im on a sinking ship

Thinking this moment

Could become just a memory

That what was once full

Could one day be empty.

How can I enjoy this

Knowing it could all disappear

I used to have faith

But now all I have is fear.

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If only you could borrow my eyes,

Than you’d see yourself as I do.

How perfect you are in every way,

Truly see how much I love you.

One look at your smile,

And you’d know why I fell in love,

See that everything you are,

Makes you the man I dream of.

If only you could read my mind,

And understand my every thought,

Only than you could truly know

How much I appreciate what I’ve got.

Than you could realize the truth

That you have taken over my brain

Becoming like my obsession

One that has driven me insane.

If only you could feel inside my heart,

And how it beats only for you

And experience how with every kiss

You make it all feel so brand new

Just embrace this feeling

Appreciate that it is so intense

I know that you are part of me

That without you, none of it makes sense.

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It’s liquid medicine

But it does not heal

It only distorts

What is fake and what’s real.

Tired of hurting

So I want to be numb

Afraid of feeling

All that I have become.

In the blink of an eye

Nothing’s ever the same

Although it’s not my fault

I don’t want to place blame.

Where is the strength

That I thought I had?

Why can’t I see any good

Through all of the bad?

Try to drink it away

But still it remains

I scream for freedom

As I hold tight to these chains.

My love is so strong,

So faithful and pure

But it may not be enough

To provide me a cure.

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They say that beauty

Is in the eye of the beholder

But I no longer see mine

Now that I’ve gotten older

I look in the mirror

And see my reflection

Analyzing every flaw,

Dreaming of perfection

This face that I see

I just don’t recognize

Tell me I’m beautiful

But I won’t believe your lies

I’ve lost my beauty

It ran off with my youth

Others may lie to me

But I know the truth.

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His eyes are ocean deep

And I am lost at sea

His smile is a lighthouse

Shining bright for me

So I try to find my way

Guided by his light

But waves crash over me

That I’m too weak to fight

Why am I sinking?

When all I do is swim

I wonder if I’ll ever

Make my way back home to him.

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Broken promises

And empty words

Are all that I have

But not what I deserve.

I lived in my dreams

Until they became a nightmare

Went from safety

To feeling so scared.

Trying to forget

But it plays on repeat

Wishing that I didn’t want

The one thing that I need.

What once was beautiful

Is now ugly to the bone

Shattered to pieces

A love that was once whole.

Faking the strength

That I just don’t have,

Not ready to let go

Of all that I once had.

The feeling was real

Even if the reality was not.

One second it was here

And the next it was gone.

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I miss the days when I was numb,

Yearning to feel something

But now as I drown

I reflect on the times I felt nothing.

The higher the high

Means the lower the low,

But pain is easier to feel

When it is all that you know.

But now that I have got a taste

Of what happiness really is,

I can longer enjoy ignorance,

No longer can it be my bliss.

Can’t pretend to be blind

After all that I have seen

I’m not at the beginning or the end

I am somewhere in between.

Found a place to belong

In the heart of someone,

Now I’m left wondering

If my search has just begun.

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Always running out of breath

Even when I’m standing still

I tell myself that it won’t last

Even though I know it will

The weight of the world

Is being held in my chest

My heart is tired

Never getting any rest

Always uncomfortable

Like I just don’t belong

Nothing feels right

When everything is wrong

Even when I close my eyes

I can still see inside my mind

As I search for what I’ve lost

I’m afraid of what I’ll find

Always racing through life

But never getting ahead

I’m falling apart at the seems

Hanging on by a thread.

I try to make sense

Of things I can not control.

I’m a puzzle with missing pieces,

So I will never be whole.

Always feeling embarrassed

Living with my shame

Everything’s forever changing

Yet somehow it’s still the same.

Forever asking questions,

But never finding out why,

I am stuck with the burden

Of just trying to get by.