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I feel power
I just can't believe how good it works; going on the internet and pretending that everything is ok.
I feel so much better than I did 20 minutes ago. Who cares that people I call friends stopped talking to me all of a sudden when you can go and watch cute guys playing with dogs and no one can stop you from being happy. I can worry so much about what I did wrong and cry but look at me taking care of my mental health and protecting myself from thinking about things I cant control. I am making so much progress.
All this time I was hiding myself from others so I can make them happy and hang around with me. I was hiding so well I couldn't find myself, my true self, and taking this time off and stop worrying about shit made me realise how beautiful it is to think about yourself. To take time and be with yourself. It makes me feel so bad cuz I pushed this part of myself away because "I will anNoy eveRyOne" "toO nOIsY" when actually it's amazing and so lovely.
And now thinking about this I know who my real friend is here.
Wow all of this just because I took time to watch dogs instead of belittling myself and blaming everything on me.
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