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chuuaku band alt. chuuaku band alt. god

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what if shibusawa was the first adult he managed to trust in the orphanage

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devourspace​:

                                  i’m not that weak. he knew it was atsushi’s inferiority complex ( one of the many things they shared ), but he couldn’t help but read between the lines ( unnecessarily or not ). “ i’m not weak, either! i’ve gotten stronger! ” he shouted it but it felt more like a desperate plea of his heart. his hand quickly covered his mouth as the shouting triggered a series of coughs. he didn’t even check this time, just wiped his hand away as quickly as possible, then took his coat from where atsushi dropped it. 

                                         “ i’m not going to die. neither of us are. it’s just rain. ” the reassurance he told himself, as well as gin, as a child, when they had no shelter from the storm. all they could do was hope it would die down soon, but even when it cleared, there was the ever-present pollution and smell of waste and smoke. they could’ve died back then, even before they were attacked. he felt so weak, so small, so helpless. but he was older now, taller and stronger. and he still had to hide away until the storm cleared. 

                                         “ it’s not about being strong or weak this time, ” akutagawa whispered. he felt himself softening. that was bad. he didn’t want to show a softer side of himself to anyone, the only time he was even partially warm was towards gin, and that was when they were alone together, when they didn’t have a job. it was just … watching atsushi shiver like that – and normally he wouldn’t care, the weak would die to make the path for the strong – but it was different. he didn’t know – he didn’t want to know, it was just different. he held the coat back out to atsushi. maybe he would be more receptive if he didn’t force it onto him. “ you’re uncomfortable. my, uh … my frilly thing keeps my neck warm. so you can borrow this for now. just take it already, it won’t even be for that long.”

atsushi had not been trying to start a fight, but he should not have been surprised when akutagawa yelled at him. of course he would. he looked at him again, watching him cough and wipe away the blood again. the rain really must have made his condition worse. he could not understand why akutagawa was giving him his jacket instead. it made no sense. he was better off keeping it. he had a hard time believing it was coming from a good place.

when akutagawa held out his jacket again, atsushi opened his mouth to refuse once again, but paused when he heard his words. “your...what?” he gave him an incredulous look. was he trying to make a joke? no, akutagawa never did such a thing. but if that were the case, why did he say that? “you mean your cravat?” did he really not know what it was called? even though he had been wearing it this entire time?

reluctantly, he took the jacket and wrapped it around his shoulders once more. now he was a bit warmer. it was a wet jacket, but it would have to do for now. “are you really going to be okay?” with how much akutagawa was coughing, he had to wonder. he was a bit worried, even if he did not say so aloud. “you’re coughing up a lot of blood.”

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devourspace​:

                                   akutagawa didn’t want to take shelter from the rain. if he had been working alone, he wouldn’t have stopped. he held back the urge to call atsushi weak. people took shelter from storms; it was normal. besides, their work was done, they just had to get back to report the results. he wanted to hurry up and tell dazai-san he’d done a good job. he begrudgingly let atsushi make the decision, since he seemed cold and wet. jinko really was like a cat.

                                            he didn’t respond to atsushi. he knew he would only snap something that would piss him off. not that akutagawa would mind fighting atsushi right now, but he had made a promise that he’d wait six months before that. he was counting the days until he could finally get closure. ah, but the jinko looked so pathetic, sitting in the corner and shivering. he couldn’t afford to have him die before he could kill him properly. an accidental death caused by neglect wouldn’t be satisfying at all. he draped his coat over atsushi. it wasn’t the first time he entrusted his coat to him, but it was the first time when they weren’t fighting. 

                                             “ but you haven’t taken it off. ” whenever they spoke, it always lead to an argument, didn’t it? because the two of them were similar in ways they hated. akutagawa coughed into his hand, coming away with blood. this weather wasn’t good for his body, especially after he used up some energy fighting. he nonchalantly wiped the blood away. “ cats hate water, right? stubborn jinko. ”

atsushi clicked his tongue and shrugged the jacket off his shoulders. “there.” he did not want his coat, or his pity. and now it felt like akutagawa was trying to start a fight. he just wanted this to be over with. the two of them together did not work. he would never understand why dazai was so keen on making the two of them work together multiple times. neither of them enjoyed this. it would be better if atsushi was paired with someone else from the ada, not port mafia, and especially not akutagawa.

"take your coat back. you’re the one coughing.” due to how much they saw each other, he knew akutagawa had some sort of illness. he was not sure what exactly, and had no intention of asking. still, he did not want akutagawa to keel over. “you clearly need it more than i do. i’m not that weak.” he was cold, but he would get over it. the rain would let up soon. then, they could report back to dazai and go their separate ways.

“i don’t want to be blamed if you die here.” it would just incite more conflict with port mafia. he did not want that. no...he could not cause more problems for others. he could hear his headmaster’s voice scolding him for the mere concept of doing such a thing. the hands at his side clench into fists. “we both just have to make it back.”

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@devourspace​​ said: [ cover ]

nonverbal meme (ACCEPTING!)

[ cover ]  for your muse to cover mine with a blanket or a jacket

when atsushi found out he had to work with akutagawa on a mission again, he was not looking forward to it. he knew they worked well together when they fought, but the two did not get along at all. akutagawa still wanted to kill him after all. even if he said he would not kill anyone for six months, atsushi had his doubts. perhaps he was being too harsh to think such a thing, but it was hard to think otherwise given akutagawa’s behavior thus far. he had to stay on guard around him. 

currently, the two were taking shelter from the rain. atsushi was soaked, and trying not to shake. he sat against the wall, his knees to his chest. “we can stay here for a bit.” was all he said. he wasn’t going to make conversation with akutagawa. there was no point in attempting to do so. silence lingered between the two, only broken when atsushi let out a tiny sneeze. i hope i’m not catching a cold. as he was thinking to himself, he felt something on his shoulders. 

he immediately tensed and jerked his head to look at akutagawa to see what he was doing. when he saw he was putting his jacket around him, he was not sure how to feel. was this kindness or pity? he found himself leaning toward the latter. though akutagawa was not one to show kindness or pity often. it was confusing to say the least. “i don’t need it.” he wasn’t weak. “i’m fine.”

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@multi-mused-menagerie​ said: [ wave ] for your muse to gesture to mine to come closer (dazai)

nonverbal meme (ACCEPTING!)

atsushi could only assume the worst when dazai waved him over. it was hard not to, considering this was dazai. he always had something up his sleeve. “dazai-san, if you’re going to ask me to sneak out again, i can’t. kunikida-san will get mad at us like he did last time. don’t you have work to do?” 

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sorry if i get slower with replying to the ask memes! there’s a lot and i......get lazy easily. bear with me

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@florabled​ said: [Kyouka] [ eat ]

nonverbal meme (ACCEPTING!)

[ eat ] for your muse to offer mine food

after a hard day of work, atsushi took kyouka to the crepe stand she loved as a reward. she deserved it! fortunately, they did not have to wait long before it was their turn to order. he was happy to see her happy about this. they both got different kinds of crepes, and enjoyed them on their walk back home. when kyouka offered him some, he smiled. “thanks! i’ll just take a bit.” he took a small bite and his smile grew. “it’s really good! i’ll have to get that kind next time. do you want to have a bite of mine, too?” 

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@florabled​ said: [Kyouka] [ attention ]

nonverbal meme (ACCEPTING!) 

[ attention ] for your muse to touch mine as a way of getting their attention 

atsushi had been focused on his paperwork for the past half hour or so. dazai passed along part of his portion, and atsushi took it without much complaining. not that he wanted to do it, but he knew it would d only lead to more whining if he spoke up. it was better to just get it done. when he felt a tug on his sleeve, he sighed. “dazai-san, i’m not taking any more of your--” oh, it was just kyouka. he visibly softened. “kyouka-chan, do you need something?”

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leneemusing​:

nonverbal memes

add + to reverse who does the action

[ attention ] for your muse to touch mine as a way of getting their attention  [ sleep ] for your muse to wake mine  [ cover ]  for your muse to cover mine with a blanket or a jacket  [ lift ] for your muse to give mine a hand stepping up or over something etc.  [ kiss ]  for your muse to come up to mine and kiss them without warning  [ run ] for your muse to run their fingers through mine’s hair  [ braid ] for your muse to braid mine’s hair  [ embrace ]  for your muse to hold mine  [ smile ] for your muse to smile at mine from across the room  [ wave ] for your muse to gesture to mine to come closer  [ panic ] for your muse to grab mine’s arm or get behind them in a moment of danger  [ touch ] for your muse to rest their forehead against mine’s [ weep ]  for your muse to catch mine crying  [ eat ]  for your muse to offer mine food [ hit ] for your muse to attack mine  [ love ] for your muse to touch mine as a show of affection or reassurance  [ nap ] for your muse to fall asleep against mine  [ rest ] for your muse to rest their head in mine’s lap  [ look ] for your muse to catch mine staring  [ seduce ] for your muse to touch mine sexually  [ help ] for your muse to lean on mine for support  [ give ] for your muse to offer mine their arm  [ entwine ] for your muse to hold mine’s hand  [ laugh ] for your muse to laugh at something mine did  [ dance ] for your muse to dance with mine  [ sit ] for your muse to pull mine into their lap  [ yell ] for your muse to calm mine down  [ cry ] for your muse to wipe mine’s tears away  [ dream ] for your muse to wake mine from a nightmare  [ surprise ] for your muse to show up at mine’s house without explanation  [ fix ] for your muse to treat mine’s injury  [ sacrifice ] for your muse to get hurt protecting mine  [ guard ] for your muse to step between my muse and danger  [ taste ] for your muse to cook for mine  [ sing ] for your muse to sing to mine 

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devourspace​:

                                 “ you have wronged me in a way that cannot be forgiven. how do you suggest you atone, then? ”

“i shouldn’t be killed over a joke! just go updog someone else!”

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devourspace​:

                                 “ how about a compromise: i kill you now and neither of us have to wait any longer. ”

“NO!!!!!!!!” 

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i feel like everyone on my dash follows each other and i only have 10 followers so im not rly rbing promos but i think all of u are super neat and cool.......

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@devourspace​ replied to your post 

JINKO.

"I STILL HAVE SIX MONTHS!!”

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time to get chazuke to celebrate updogging akutagawa! :) 

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devourspace​:

                                 “ then … what … is ‘ updog ’ ? ”

“not much, what’s up with you!”

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@devourspace replied to your post

jinko

updog...is a person, right?

“i never said that!”