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a reflection on two years ago

Two years ago I wrote a post about how generally unhappy I was working as a manager at Bj’s wholesale club. The post goes into detail about how I want to run my own business, and how I want to become a black belt in Brazilian jiu jitsu. For starters, I only worked there for an additional five months before I decided to leave the company due to management politics. Leaving this work place allowed me to attend university full time and to work at a jiu jitsu academy. 

When being a part of a business that has a good structure, you take the ease of success for granted in a place that has procedures already created for its employees. Transitioning from a structured work place to a chaotic workplace is the most mentally tasking thing an employee can endure. This chaos has caused a few things to happen; it has challenged my work ethic. Two years ago was a time when I was constantly being pulled in several directions and somehow I was successful in nearly all areas of my life. 

Going forward, my goals have not changed drastically, I still do aspire to start a productized service, and obtain my black belt in Brazilian jiu jitsu, but I have also expanded on what my long term goals are too, and not just short term. starting a productized service business I would consider a short term goal. it’s a means to an end; an end which allows me to do the things I want, due to the possibility to retire early. 

Life is crazy, and two years goes by rather quickly. 

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"I think I'm in a maze, I'm feeling conflicted within my brain. All these contradictions got me feeling strange." 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

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it goes dark again, just like a spark.

by Tim Ellis

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Nothing is new.

and neither are you.

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I LOVE METAL

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some mysterious part of my mind has fooled me into thinking that the last six months of my life have been complete chaos. 

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Catch-as-catch-can, 1930s

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walk away from the 97%: don't use their vocabulary, don't use their excuses, don't go where they go, don't do what they do, don't talk like they talk. Develop your own new language, be a part of the few. It all comes down to a choice; a choice to be great, to do great, to feel great, to think great, to BECOME great.

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working forty hours a week for the past six years has made me realize a few  things

1. The more a person makes, the more a person is likely to adjust his/her lifestyle to accommodate their salaries.

2. climbing a hierarchal ladder of a corporation typically takes a lifetime of 45-50 hour work weeks.

3. climbing this ladder might mean you have to make sacrifices to things that might actually be important to you.

4. people consider that working for a large business makes you successful. you might hear people say "good for you," when you tell them what you do at work.

I believe success is the progressive realization of a worthy idea or goal. I don't deem being a rich corporate employee a worthy idea or goal. I don't see the value of spending forty five to fifty hours on something I am not passionate about. When I tell people that I am part of a mid management team within a corporation, people typically respond with trite statements like "good for you." I can't help but feel embarrassed because of how little I am passionate about the business in which I work for. Learning how a business operates is great and learning what influences the productivity and profitability however is heaps useful for understanding the economic growth of a person or business. 

I've been trying to word the ideas and thoughts that run through my head when I think about what I want to do with my life and why I made the sacrifice to become a manager at large warehouse. The other week I actually cried on my way home from work simply because of how much I don't like how I am living the life of a person I do not want to be. I forget sometimes, like in this case, why I took the job in the first place, which was to learn how to lead and manage people. I would like to apply these skills personnel skill towards creating a start up business allowing me to easily communicate amongst other businessmen to help establish myself and my business plans. It's easy to lose sight of my initial intentions when there are so many contributing factors pulling me away from my plan. My plan is to be able to call myself an entrepreneur, and actually have it be true. 

I struggle with internal and external conflict everyday holding onto my dreams of operating my own businesses and becoming a bjj black belt. Every day I try not to let monetary increases in pay, living the american dream, and falling victim to normality strip me of my goals of becoming the person I need to be in order to feel truly successful. 

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Last week I got to train six days in a row with the women's light weight world champion Michelle Nicolini. She's taught me a lot, but I still have a lot left to learn.

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Frozach Submitted

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Calvin and Hobbes

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(via 500px / Sunrise in Rameshwaram by A K)

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If a person has no dreams, they no longer have any reason to live. Dreaming is necessary, although in the dream reality should be glimpsed. For me this is a principle of life

Ayrton Senna (via iminlovewithf1)