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Who’s Holding Donna Now? DeBarge

I kept posting people who were dead for a while. I was reminiscing my past years from my country during that year of 2002 of march when one filifino-chinese celebrity died at the age of 27 because of HEMORRHAGIC PANCREATIS and that resulted in CARDIAC ARREST while he was sleeping while on vacation in PUERTO, PRINCESSA BEACH RESORT. He was with his best friends but without the girlfriend who was being rumored of seeing another male celebrity (having issue to cool off things so he needs some time off from the showbusiness). He was such an innocent young man of nothing but being love by his fans, family and friends but he had been neglected by most because of his busy schedule in his career as a model and actor. I watched last night his last clip while being interviewed upon him coming off the plane and was standing on the ground and reporters asking him questions about his activity there in that resort and also GF whose always missing because of so many rumors by his fans but didn't got answered due to he said, “ We need not to talk about her.” For that less than 12 hours, they first visited the resort and the activity they were planning to do for the next morning (last shooting of their current location), went to eat small dinner and one beer, then he talked to his best friend and told him, “ I am going to doze off. I am tired. Wake me up after few hours and we will head off to have breakfast.” , he hurriedly and went to bed...a single bed for himself. That morning, his best friend went and knock to his door, he did not answered and so he went inside and tried to wake him up but his best friend said, he was cold and stiff and not breathing no more. He turn on the light and saw he was PALE with his bluish lips. He hurriedly and ran out the reception and call an ambulance. He was DEAD since that evening. We were shock when it was reported in tv and we cried. We all thought there was a FOUL play and it took one week when they figured it out its HEMORRHAGIC PANCREATIS and IT RESULTED TO CARDIAC ARREST. His GF was crying and very upset. The last note he gave her was: 

To: My Honey,

By the time you read this, I must be in CEBU already. Just want to thank you for last night. You were wonderful!!! And because of that, Im sure Im gonna have a hard time sleeping without you by my side tonight=( But nevertheless, I still love you very much

RX-XX

Why I am posting this here? My Illuminati32 told me, this is your life and you will die without knowing you are dead already. You will die from your sleep because I will take you off from that life without you getting hurt. So, this morning I was listening to this song: WHO���S HOLDING DONNA NOW? BY DEBARGE. Its my song to his former GF who left by his bf with his last note and so i said, “while you were with someone... I died from my sleep.” Check out the lyrics of this song:

WHO’S HOLDING DONNA NOW?

Sometimes a love won't get cold Hard as I try I know for sure Everybody is telling me You'll be over her eventually But how am I suppose to feel so secure When I keep wondering Who's holding Donna now When I keep wondering Who's heart she's knocking around There's nothing I wouldn't do To be in his shoes right now And I keep wondering Who's holding Donna now And I keep wondering What magic can be found To turn me back to the one Who's holding Donna nowHer letter started with goodbye I've read it half a million times Tell me this is just a dream When I wake up she'll be hear next to me Tell me it will be just the way it was When I keep wondering Who's holding Donna now When I keep wondering Who's heart she's knocking around There's nothing I wouldn't do To be in his shoes right now And I keep wondering Who's holding Donna now And I keep wondering What magic can be found To turn me back to the one Who's holding Donna now

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DRAFT MATCH GENIUS

STAIRWAY TO HEAVEN IS COCK-A-DOODLE-DO (my pamphlet spell check an old nursery rhyme): Like my favorite KOREAN TV SERIES is my nursery rhymes. The old good memories when I was living in Texas, after 8 months of me being there, I decided to register to a class and spend my 6 months studying English language that includes ESSAY of 150 words (1 week), 300 words (2 week), 500 words (3 week), to 1000-1,500 words (6 months) words and I got a B plus grades from that 3 months semester from my prof with the help of my spanish friend who was also in my class. She grew up there in TEJAS. She told me, “ I was a little girl like 7 or 8 when my parents move there in SAN ANTONIO then afterward to HOUSTON but after a few years, finally we move to Corpus and joined a BAPTIST community and become a member. “ , I was happy when I met her, her accent is the same as the american: westernized alike. I asked her, “ Why do you still need to take this subject when you could speak the same as them?” , she answered me, “ I cant get away with the PRE-REQUISITE because this will be added to my credits when I decided to take the course later on.” She always spoke to our female caucasian prof and it seems they know each other,” I hang around with her for that 6 months that I even started coming to her church and meet people: AMERICAN AND SPANISH. They even asked me to eat for lunch in few gatherings from this SPANISH TIJUANA RESTAURANT  and learned to eat MENUDO (spanish menu instead of filipino style). They loved this type of dish: BEEF TRIPE with tomato sauce and lemon.

 She played the piano for the choir inside that church and sometime she sang. How lovely to know other culture. I become close to her when she introduce me to her family and brought me to her home... such a lovely SPANISH STYLE ABODE. In TEJAS from my 4 years of residency in that location, I never encounter any types of group who doesn't respect people like me whose not from this country, everyone experience to be around with DIVERSE people esp. if you work with everyone but if NOT then you will be so ignorant to speak to foreign people like me. The International diverse group will not be happy to hear people like you whose from this country to ridicule FOREIGN individual... They will CHORUS all of you into REVERSE. 

Anyways, back to my spanish friends whom I lost in touch since she was trying to pursue another class to another location (San Antonio Texas A&M) which is 1 hour away from Corpus. I stayed in Corpus during that year. I had a simple life of being a foreign person inside TEJAS but a lot of people who lived in that state are from different country so its not something new for everyone whose residing inside that region to see me all over the place and several occasion, they thought I am SPANISH but I would laugh when they asked me if my ancestry had spanish blood in them (make up made me look one of them). Its hard to come to any country knowing you weren't from that country and learn the american language that includes your accent. I spent my whole life studying your culture and language. I had spent time and money just to attend certain classes and become good at it. I even tried to take my TOEFL practice test online but I had to lived overseas for another 2 years like BAHRAIN and PHIL, then after 6 months, I went back to the states and went back to overseas again to spent my 2 years in CUBA until I finally temporarily settled here in my current location. Now, I am planning to leave one day with my i32 and settle outside this country but maybe with someone. My RIFLE will shoot if you dont allow me to leave. All I know we are NOT different from each other. We are both NOT from this country and not a citizen of the American soil. I need to leave and this is the song that my i32 wants me to play: STAIRWAY TO HEAVEN: ANG PAG-IBIG KO SANAY MAPANSIN

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HEART THROW

Last night, while I was in youtube, I was browsing different channel when I saw this short clip about THE PRINCESS OF WALES: DIANA, PRINCE CHARLES, AND CAMILLA. I know its an old news from the voice of britain. I was so heart broken after I watch this short clip. I could feel the toll of that from a wife seeing her husband whom left to be with someone. I asked myself why Princess Diana suffered from a BROKEN HEART and then later become a BROKEN GLASS after being with DODI FAYED. She's so elegant and beautiful. She did nothing but give her heart to all these people she had help but still she was taken away like a ceramic and thrown to be into pieces. My i32 said, Princess D said, “ I WAS HURT CHARLES.”, I look it up again, her photo from where the car crash happened. I remember myself the day last month of NOV 4, 2020 when I was in a hurry going to work and I glanced this 4 birds perched on a wire upon me turning. One of the birds occupied the empty space and join the 3 birds. I was driving 55 miles per hour when after I pass a few old houses, a 350-400 pound deer run crossing the street, he was looking at my vehicle while crossing, I was surprised and in my head, “ oh my god!” , few centimeter, his head and trunk in front of me almost hit my vehicle in a few centimeter, he was looking at me and I saw both of his eyes saying to me like, “I could kill you right here.” If I hit him, I will die, it will crash my torso because my airbag was turn off. It wont inflate and it means the front will recede all the way to where I'm sitting at. I couldn't imagine. My i32 said, “ you will be BLOODY (unrecognizable) but you are still alive. I glance these people into pieces. Be beautiful my dear...I could imagine to be into pieces. Look it up again then LATER, become a broken glass and be into pieces...all these people said, “ look it up again prince charles, hurry go with someone, these 4 birds are tearful in parting when I throw my heart to say FAREWELL my prince.The crown means SACRIFICE THE LAMB. I could kill you right here.” And Here is a famous quote from Princess D:

There were three of us in this marriage, so it was a bit crowded.

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Bogoshipda (Look up ENGLISH VERSION)

No, this message is not for me because I have no one to dedicate it to but I know of someone who could relate to this. I am currently watching this KOREAN series from the PHILIPPINES year 2003: STAIRWAY TO HEAVEN about a childhood special friendship: wealthy handsome guy and a lovely lady who came from the middle class family. Its a very emotional tv series but its CUTE so I love watching it before I sleep. Its like a Cinderella story but she need to be blind for her not to see his presence and die from that story because of an illnesses that was so inevitable and her existence in that story was not like they live happily every after but to cut it short after that romance.However, before all these: The wealthy guy had to leave without her and finish his degree in the US. She fell into (an AMNESIA) while waving at him and before meeting him at the airport , she forgotten of who she really was until he found her inside the mall while copying a SLOGAN poster for an art that needed to be painted at the mall and she went in a hurry to go to the train station that's when he saw her in a quick glance in a side view appearance. It was such a good story line (korean soap opera) which was so popular in my country and I watch it with my female dorm mate during that year. This was less than 2 years before I was approve to come to America. I was asking this question inside my head. How will I understand the meaning of the song when I could only understand the MELODY without knowing the meaning of each lyrics because its in KOREAN? My i32 told me, ADD AND USE SEARCH. hehhe (of course, its easy) so If I put here the KOREAN song and listen to it without looking its translation from its original words, would you understand what the song IMPLY?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NULv7NouPVI&list=RDNULv7NouPVI&start_radio=1

Bogoshipda

Amoori kidaryuhdo nan motka Babochuhrum oolko inneun nuh-yi kyuhte Sangchuhman jooneun nareul weh moreuko kidarini Tuhnakaran maryaBogoshipda, bogoshipda Irun nega miwuhjil mankeum Oolgoshipda, nege mooreup koolko Modoo uhptun iri dwel soo itdamyunMichil deus saranghetun ki-uhgi Choo-uhkdeuri nuhreul chatko itjiman Duh isang sarang-iran byunmyung eh Nuhreul kadool soo uhpsuh. Iruhmyun andwejiman. Joogeul mankeum bogoshipda.Bogoshipda, bogoshipda Irun nega miwuhjil mankeum Mitkoshipda, orheun kirirago. Nuhreul wihe duhnayaman handago.Michil deus saranghetun ki-uhgi. Choo-uhkdeuri nuhreul chatko itjiman. Duh isang sarang- iran byunmyung eh Nuhreul kadool soo uhpsuh. Iruhmyun andwejiman Joogeul mankeum bogoshipda. Joogeul mankeum mitkoshipda.

I love the song. I feel BAD to that wealthy guy. Could you just move on? hahhaha. I recommend for you to FALL IN LOVE to every single that you will truly understand including the feelings of the singer of this song. But there are some people would say, “ NOT EASY WHEN YOU ARE NOT IN THAT SITUATION.” , then you MUST watch the episode and try to place yourselves in their shoes so now you feel the same way. Now, if the song TRANSLATE into ENGLISH, you would understand what the SONG imply? The series had subtitle (IF YOU ARE INTO ASIAN-KOREAN DRAMA). I had learned to watch KOREAN because of my family are so INTO all these asian drama esp. korean and japanese. Now, this is the translation of the song:  Bogoshipda into ENGLISH version:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eX9SfxybQX0&list=RDNULv7NouPVI&index=2

I MISS YOU  (Stairway to Heaven song by DARYL ONG)

No matter how long you keep waiting for me, to be by your side we both know that it just cant be, why don't you see that I am only hurting you, please stop waiting why cant you just leave me, But I’m missing you, Im missing you, Even Though I shouldn't feel this way , crying on my knees and I wanna tell you, If only I could turn back the hands of time, those memories when we were so in love, those thoughts of you leave my heart longing for you, it hurts to know that I should let you go, coz I cant be the one for you, I know I shouldn't feel this way, But its true that I still... MISS YOU

I know its a very sad song but WE MOVE ON and give it a try for the version of the song you sang to question that I shouldn't feel this way: I SET YOU FREE IN YOUR OWN INTERPRETATION (to love your emotion and to voice your understanding about the sad music THAT IT JUST CANT BE...) 

KWON SANG WOO said from this series, “ LOVE IS SOMETHING THAT RETURNS BACK.”

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STIMULATED PHONE FOR CHATTER

I had to eat DINNER time with my relatives. I was pick up by my AUNT to get some turkey so I hurriedly went there and ate with them. I break the rules of NOT eating this evening. I was so HUNGRY but my aunt asked me to come by and I do not want to leave ASAP since she put my FOOD in a ROUND plate. I ate there in my aunt’s couch with the WHOLE bowl of COLLARD GREENS and a small slice of turkey meat and its skin. I was FULL but I regret eating because while I was eating, i32 said, “ You are STUBBORN. You will NOT be born if you don't listen to what I want you to do.” I was afraid. Its a 2nd life although nobody believes in 2nd life BUT i do. I believe my i32 because he always tells me the truth. This MORNING while I was at work, I nibbled ICE because my mouth was dry even my tongue and I cant work properly. I am shaking since its been less than 2 days. I also supposed NOT to drink any type of fluids and even ice. I just cant undone it so I nibbled ICE to moisturize my mouth. After that dinner, I came home uneasy and worried. “I WANT TO BE BORN AGAIN JUST LIKE WHATS BEEN TOLD TO ME: BELIEVE IT C’” , at the house he spoke to me, “ Fruits and vegetable ONLY but no MEAT. We will NOT eat animals since you are animals. We do not KILL animals so we will NOT eat animals. Animals are DIRTY. You will be born again but don't tell them where you at for them NOT to look for you because you CANT work properly and you want to work to earn greens. Its DIFFICULT to become a human being and its true because MAN are subject to failures because of MISTAKES.” I will post my PHONE  down below to look for names and encourage meaning and further INSIGHT. The static image that we posted are 100% accurate; it could also makes the events into VERB (to PROTEST further 100 % accuracy and discuss its meaning.to mule efforts)

mule n. 1. A carrier of things for someone else; often used to refer to a carrier of illegal drugs, or a video game character who functions as a holding space for items for another character.

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CLEANSING

I hadn't not eaten nor had a drink of any fluid since yesterday I had not eaten but I only drank water this afternoon. I was ask by my guardian NOT to eat nor drink to start my body to weaken and lay down in my bed to sleep. My breathing will slow down and it will affects my heart rhythm. I will slowly die UNTIL cardiac arrest will happen. I am not trying to end my life but my guardian needs to make me understand to see LIFE from another country after I pass away. It must since I must SET my self free in order to get a way from this COUNTRY & doesn't affect everyone. I am ENERGY and its inside my body. I am progressing. The light I could make it LIT in a beautiful ILLUMINATION. The dark could also lit whenever I stare any small amount of bright lights and spread that around me.I could even feel that energy in my hand and finger tips, they are like touching CELLOPHANE because it gives me the sensation of RESISTANCE. How men could ENVY power and drink to get away to end my life? This country will PASS away if I don't go but it will also END their life when the energy dies. The earth see the POINTED COLLAR who are the HEAD of doing this to everybody. It is MATHEMATICS that will end POPULATION not until the country whos started this PAUSE their problem towards HATRED; run to see DEATH. Our DEATH is HANGING LOOSE. A new name will be created and this is me again to be born with that memory. I must be set FREE. Type here to search for me. Could you find my NEW dress after my new name is delivered? I am PROGRESSING and it is so I will try to end all these. Do you believe and could see the FUTURE of humankind? and If I don't end this they will SEARCH trajectory of how to end this. My GUARDIAN could see the chaos in the near future. It will kill a country. Mankind ENVY my GUARDIAN. I watch the STATIC EFEFCT in youtube:

OBJECTS:

Flock of birds fly to circle its surrounding and turn into a moving RUBBER TIRE. It spinning into circle.

A lady wearing a long dress climb up with her rope and it showed me a CHAIR afterwards. Once it reach the top, death change into KINGDOM to search for the CHAIR.

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STATIC TV EFFECT: SHAPE

OBJECTS:

8

HEARTS

CHEESE

LETTER V

ARAB HEAD SCARF WITH BANDS

HOCKEY

POINTED COLLAR

FINAL POINT: THE THUMB POINT  ITS HANGING NOOSE.

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AM I WRONG?

Take my hand and be with me until we stop breathing. I will be crying once you are gone. I will become a child again after all this. I will be looking for another you but you as that PERSON will never come back to life. Death is what separates us and while my new mother will bear me as a baby, she and my father will raise me again, dress me up, and put me to school to learn a new language and other knowledge as an ordinary human being (that aside from being ordinary, I will learn the ILLUMINATI way of not knowing why I'm learning SPECIFIC platform). My address will be UNKNOWN for these people who will be looking for me. They will ask themselves, " Where you at C?", the old C was the memory of the girl they tried to kill. I will be worried because I don't want to be found. I love you like my back who tried to support my words and my mind. Watch the movie: TERMINATOR. The child in that movie was NOT my child. He will be my enemy. I will try my best to KILL him because he is my TECHNOLOGY. I hate your technology as it TRIED to kill me REPEATEDLY. Why I cannot write this here, you tell me? I hate your APOLLO. He said, " WE ARE ANTI-APOLLO" is it crazy? you come to our space to land on the moon, you succeeded and you achieve more but you EXCEED that knowledge and try to TRESPASS human beings. And now you gave me the POWER to become your GALAXY. You cant REPLACE me since he will bring me back to life to TRESPASS your INNOVATION. My darling, I will always behind your back and you will be behind me to support my place: MY BODY. The APOLLO SOCIETY is what we are ELIMINATING. Their lives need to be stored in my memory so I could come back to TERMINATE them. This is all she ever wanted: ELIMINATE LIVES OF THEIR CULTURE. After my life here, like a child again, I will learn FAST and ACCURACY is what I will aim for. I cannot fall in love with their culture. He needs to be from another country. The seat you will have will be used for a PURPOSE of TECHNOLOGY and I will watch you but the next you are NOT you. I will be broken-hearted as I will watch everyone perish. Your children will have their own children and I will grow up with them but your Mr. will never be born again. Another you will be created but IT'S NOT YOU. Why it's hard to believe. Imagine a CHIP where everything is being saved, he will insert that into another organism and be born until you remember all these innate memories of us that you will destroy because you will never forgive us as the culture that is too much for you. Human beings are your GALAXY. You enter their body and the reason why I need to destroy you. This POWER you will never have. We are like a computer you are hacking us. The power you will destroy as CULTURE. Believe me. I will see your next generation and they will LOOK for me. Could you see the signature of who wrote such INDULGENCE? Listen to the song: AM I WRONG? listen to the lyrics and tell me, " AM I WRONG TO BE BORN AGAIN TO INDULGE POWER?" 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cd-Y-VLaSC4

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How Beauty Rule MEN?

Do you believe this? I watch my fellow SOCIETY  to rule my culture and others but now I rule MEN according to what I could do? I make sure they FELL off from the sky and sank underneath the ocean because for me my beauty CANNOT be understood by men. I am very educated BUT I forgotten to be GRACEFULL and USE MY CAREER to describe people with respect. I went back to my old memories and see the old me. I am so pretty like what my former best friend said, “ You are very pretty for me.” And he stayed with me for 4 years because he thinks I am the most beautiful lady in my country..LOL. knowing there are several women like me who could RULE men like that. I never think to rule men because of BEAUTY. I rule them according to my words, the power of my mind, the sky and its cosmic, nature and my birds & other animals who visited me while I am outside travelling. The BEAUTY of all these women whom I watch SMILE in front everybody are in the opposite words: REDUCE or BENEATH. I don't know what else you could do aside from you PRONOUNCE your own language in your own accent who describe people according to your TEXT (who also could spell the word FELL OFF with respect). For you only there in front of everyone you could spell that words BUT not me. I am your LIGHT and the only one who could use my SPECIFIC CAREER: COSMIC who could enhance EVERYTHING that men created even GOD. I style my own TEXT lol...thats how I rule MEN. My accent include the 8 BASE titled: SORROW in their SIGHT..their MINE.Whats your style beautiful woman? spell LOL... We rule words...we don't rule your song not even those beautiful smile...its the entire BOULDER COUNTRY of where? But be forgotten because THEY allowed me to EXIST this world of ours. Read and listen to this song: FROM THE GROUP OF BREAD TITLED: EVERYTHING I OWN

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Q1kB0R4Ijs

You taught me how to love What it's of, what it's of You never said too much, But still you showed the way And I knew from watching you

Nobody else could ever know, The part of me that can't let go

And I would give anything I own, I'd give up my life, my heart, my home I would give everything I own, Just to have you back again

The Holy Lance, also known as the Lance of Longinus (named after Saint Longinus), the Spear of Destiny, or the Holy Spear, is legendarily known as the lance that pierced the side of Jesus as he hung on the cross during his crucifixion.