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The dog listening to Buck trauma dump like

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One of my favorite story telling tricks is a story that has some really fucked up/and or sad things that are not dwelt upon or expanded on because That Is Not The Assignment and instead you're just left to think about it after the fact. This is fucking catnip for my brain every single time.

Given this OBVIOUSLY I am fully obsessed with Teveri and Avra's early relationship-- there's no fucking way Avra didn't accidentally shatter Teveri's heart into pieces like. Multiple times. Technically speaking this is heavily implied in Running Close to the Wind but god... the unspoken details! The way it must have gone down! The whole Nightingale sail situation!!!!!!!!!!!

There isn't a timeline for this of course, but I think it's fair to assume that by the time Avra wins the Nightingale sail they've known each other for a few years but they're also still fairly young. Let's say like, 22-25 years old. Tev and Avra have probably been fucking and having a reasonably good time but also, you know, Avra always goes back to his job at the end of the day. THEN!! Avra wins the Nightingale sail and instead of keeping it or selling it and fucking off into the world's earliest retirement he gives it to Teveri. This has to have felt like the Scuttle Cove version of getting down on one knee with a 50 carat diamond ring. Why would Avra be giving Teveri something like that if he wasn't intending to quit his job and join Teveri's crew??? And of course Teveri doesn't say any of this because why would they? It's very obvious! Literally all their crew joined after running away from their old lives! This is how being a pirate works!!!!

Meanwhile Avra has no idea what's in Teveri's head and is just like... maybe if I can Provide Enough Value these people will keep being my friends :) :) :) I am 22 years old and haven't had a relationship that wasn't transactional on some level in 15 years :) Is this useful enough??? Can I still hang out with you sometimes???????????? I am the world's saddest weirdest weasel. I love you so much I hope I can bribe you into tolerating me some more :) :) :)

And then at some point after this Avra fucks back off to do his job some more and Tev is like. DEVASTATED. And pissed!!! And confused!! THEY WERE SUPPOSED TO HAVE A SPRING WEDDING!! WHAT IS GOING ON????????

Even worse Avra comes back expecting everything to be the same!!!!! And of course Teveri would never admit to having their heart broken. And then the whole thing plays out again and again until Teveri is finally where they’re at when the book begins. It's so awful and it's so good for me.

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The cruelty of racist white men.

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sick post i just found online. sorry i couldnt find the source

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i went to the aquarium the other week and hand to god every single seahorse was pregnant. it was like ao3 in there

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while I respect and sympathize with my housemate's anxiety that the US will descend into martial law and chaos while she's out of the country next week and she won't be able to get back to her cat

I would absolutely read a book about a ragtag friend group in a newly-formed dystopia trying to get their traveling friend's cat back to her by any means necessary

are they also trying to get out? probably. that would make sense. but they HAVE to get out with that damn cat

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Eddie's gonna be a good husband when he and Buck get together but more importantly he's gonna be such a happy husband. he loves domesticity! he loves looking at his family and knowing it's his and he's got them. he's gonna be so excited for dates and is gonna send the most fond messages and tease his guy with the happiest twinkle in his eyes. any time they invite their friends to dinner or have extended family nights with Pepa and Abuela and the Han family, he's gonna be bursting with warmth because this is real. his happiness is real and it's easy and he never wants to stop enjoying this so he won't stop ever.

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I spent a lot of time handcuffed and in a cage in high school, for a charity bit the grocery store I worked at would do

the bit was that I was "put in jail for having too big a heart" and customers could donate to my bail to get me out (and the money would go to a children's hospital or something)

now. I was very clearly a teenaged employee handcuffed inside a large cage. and I would honestly tell people that I had been in there for hours. and people would say, that's terrible! that's awful! and I would show them my wrists red from the tight handcuffs, and say but I'm sooooooo close to making bail.

and then they would dump some cash in the basket, I'd thank them, and they'd walk away.

and every so often, one of the managers would come by and collect some of the cash, so I could keep being soooooo close to making bail.

I was very good with this bit. Parents with small kids would pay $5-10 if I told their children I had been placed in jail for not cleaning my room/doing my homework, etc. For people in their 20s, I'd threaten that I was very bad at playing the harmonica, but I WOULD play it and we'd all suffer unless they paid me. and for the most amount of money, older men in suits would almost always pay $20s if I avoided eye contact and stammered a lot.

eventually, the managers started to feel bad because I was in the cage so fucking long and often, that I'd need someone to brace me when I got out because I'd have no feeling in my legs. wobbling like a newborn giraffe.

but I would also rake in at LEAST $100 an hour in charity.

so they were like, hey champ. can we, uh, give you a pillow to sit on. in the cage. would you like a pillow so you're not just sitting on a cold metal slab. can we give you a pillow.

and I had to explain to them that if they gave me a pillow, people would think I was more comfortable, so they wouldn't feel as bad, so I'd bring in less money.

the compromise was that they'd bring me a nice coffee every couple hours, which I would have to try to block with my body from the customers.

all this money went to charity. that's what the money was for. it's what was on the sign. but how much they were willing to pay was very contingent on how comfortable I looked, never mind the fact that I was still a teenaged employee handcuffed inside a cage.

and out of the dozens of shifts I did this on, not ONCE did ANYONE say, hey kid I'm going to go talk to your manager because what the fuck is going on here. they would just drop money in the basket, and I'd thank them and sip from my secret drink.

I actually had people get MAD at me that I told them I was far away from bail, they donated like $15, and then 20 minutes I got let out because my shift ended.

again. the money was for charity. it was on the sign that was very clearly placed on the upper half of my cage.

so yeah. even when people think they mean well. people can be really, really fucking stupid.

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i don't have Super strong opinions about which terms of endearment buck and eddie use (though i do have some i hate) but i'm kind of obsessed with eddie constantly using a bunch of different ones while buck is still just like eddie eddie eddie eddie eddie

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Im the guy who's getting all those pauses pregnant

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not to be a dirty commie or anything but i don't think any one person should have enough money to solve world hunger and then get to decide not to

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they are debating over buck, but they don’t know that the real threat is standing behind them

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love episodes where the plot is "Character tries to take a vacation, but, despite everything, their job exists over there too"

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THERE IS NOT A LOCKED ROOM ANYWHERE THAT THE RIGHT TOOLS AND ENOUGH TIME CANT BREAK OPEN

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Being autistic is like screaming through a megaphone “please don’t overwork me, i WILL explode” and everyone responds like haha well. You’ll get used to it over time :)

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One thing that has made me a much more well-adjusted person is a clip I once saw of Hank Green saying that anyone can be in amazing shape as long as being in amazing shape is one of their top three priorities.

(This is obviously a generalization that isn't true for everyone. But it is true for most people and I'm proceeding from there.)

This "top three priorities" framing has genuinely reduced my tendency toward jealousy and self-comparison a lot. Now when I feel envious of someone’s spotless, aesthetic home, I think to myself, “Having a spotless, aesthetic home is probably one of their top three priorities. It’s definitely not one of mine, so I shouldn’t expect my home to look like that.”

Or when I see an influencer with a body that takes a ton of work to maintain: “Maintaining that body is obviously one of her top three priorities, because it’s her livelihood. My livelihood is my brain, so I’m never going to prioritize my body like that.”

It also helps me to identify areas that I actually DO want to prioritize more. I realized in recent years that my envy for my friends who prioritized writing more than I did was NOT going away, so I started to prioritize writing more. (Not top three, but higher priority than it has been in the past.)