within-orbit

[within-orbit]

I’m sorry if I am cruel I am just so tired of sleeping alone every night

[within-orbit]

How can I miss my friend when I just got off the phone with them a few hours ago? How can I miss them when nothings happened? How can I grieve for someone who’s not gone yet? Why is it that yearn for what I already have? What a terrible curse it is to be trapped in the dread of the aftermath even in the warmth of the moment. Of everything that could’ve happened to me, why this?

[within-orbit]

I’m running out of nice ways to say it. It’s all my fault. It’s all my fault and I can’t take any of it back.

[within-orbit]

i was trying to hold my own hand when nobody else would, but it seems like even I cannot stand myself

[within-orbit]

ok unserious post this time but what if i grabbed ur hand and started poking it really fast for no reason

[within-orbit]

i don’t know you but i think i’m meant to love you

[within-orbit]

they should invent a love that’s easier to find

[within-orbit]

i am not familiar stop pretending you know what i am

[within-orbit]

Death is so cruel. She took my hands in the form of something beautiful. I watched her expression harden as blood streamed down my face. She discarded me like a dog shakes out its wet coat. One of many droplets. I still love her all the same. All the same.

[within-orbit]

i wrap a lit firework in bubble wrap and pretend i don’t hear it go off

[within-orbit]

this skin is not mine. It’s not anyone’s. It is just skin. Skin i cannot shed.

[within-orbit]

follow the hoofprints

[within-orbit]

I take you down to my favorite spot. I know we are going to die.

[within-orbit]

There’s a different person in every mirror I see

[within-orbit]

Kill me in hatred and I will accept it out of love

[within-orbit]

Pull me apart at the seams. Stand over my body with blood dripping from your jaws. Throw away my belongings and keep me somewhere safe beneath your skin. Don’t think of me when I’m gone. Don’t even realize you’ve kept me. I can’t stand to be seen.

[within-orbit]

frame a photo of me in your bedroom and ignore me face to face