wishuwerehere420

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i love you

[wishuwerehere420]

everything i do is in thought of you. all my actions are built around you. my life is dedicated to you. i love you.

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maybe its too early to be saying these things, even while not being romantically involved, as you just decided an hour ago. but i have some things to say, things i cant bring myself to say to you.

i think youre beautiful. truly beautiful. i think you are a being that is more capable of being beautiful than even the most dainty flower, shone by the sun.

speaking of the sun, i believe you are my sun. you are the center of my solar system, i cant help but gravitate towards you. you make my days day and my nights night. you make everything feel like it is the way it is for a reason.

you bring out me as a person. i always thought i was just some in the background person who didnt have much of a personality. you make me feel so important, like i dont belong in the background, like i deserve to be on display and the center of everyones attention.

i think youre a good person. a few bad habits dont instantly make you a toxic person. you recognize your behavior and you want to change, that says so much about you as a person.

i know all i am is just some teenager who is doing teenager things and doesnt want a relationship. or maybe you think im disposable and my feelings are replacable since im a teenager. or maybe you really do care a lot about me. i dont know that, but i do know youre interested in someone else and thats okay, as long as youre happy :) i still think youre beautiful and you still are the center of my universe and i still will do everything i can to love you.

i dont think things should have ended with a "pause." i think things should have continued, but behaviors to be fixed. theres still so much we have to do together.

i want to be able to keep giving you small nose and cheek and forehead pecks. i want to be able to fall asleep in the same bed as you. i want to know im safe at night at least one night out of the week because youre right there next to me, and youd never let anything hurt me. i want to know that your house is still a safe space for me and that ANYWHERE with you is a safe space. i want to be able to kiss your chest and neck. i want to be able to feel your nose against mine, giving me eskimo kisses when you get really excited. i want to hear you tell me im cute when i scrunch my nose and then scrunch up your nose in return every time i do it. i want to be able to feel you looking at me from across the room, with all of that admiration in your gaze, but making sure im safe and protected as well. i want to be able to catch you looking at me because you look away when i look over at you. i want to be able to get you flustered again when i point out all these things. i want to feel your hand in mine, even when its hotter than the devils asshole outside and we're sweating like crazy. i want to be able to snuggle into you when i wake up in the morning, especially because of bad dreams. i want to be able to run my hands through your soft hair. i want to be able to look into those gentle ocean eyes while we just lay in bed next to each other. i want to get baked with you again and talk about the weirdest things. i want to play in the water with you and noah again. i want to dance with you again, just for us to feel everything, yet nithing at the same time; to get away from the world for a while, you and i abd the music being the only things that matter in the moment. i want to eat the amazing food that you cook. i want to giggle when you trip because youre an accident prone goofball. i want to sit there with you and watch you roll joints again. i want to see you play with your nieces and nephews like theyre your whole world. i want to go on more late walks and trips to target. i want to go outside and dance in the rain with you. i want to travel all over with you. i want to grow old with you. i want to be able to call you MY bean, and mine only. i want to be able to make you my baby. i want to hold you on bith your best nights and your worst. i want to be the person you come home to and relax with. i want to be able to give you more foot massages and other massages when you need a pick me up or youre in pain. i want to be the highlight of your day and the light of your life. i want to be your person.

i just want us to drop all the drama and start over. we can start out just as friends, or as lovers. i just want things to be better with us. we have something beautiful, and i dont want it to go to waste.

when you see this, read it over a few times and just know that i mean every word. let me know what you have to say bean <3

[wishuwerehere420]

Me curled into your side, snuggling my stuffie, while you read me fairy tales and stroke my hair until I fall asleep. 🥰😴

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[when the day met the night, panic! at the disco] est. 2009

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the moment I realised I'm really starting to fall for you and it was the sappiest moment. Seemed to be taken out of only a dream. Just laying with you and catching eyes with you, breath hitched some. I'm always caught off guard when I catch your eyes, you're just so beautiful. Your eyes speak strongly and I never want to look away. Looking at you, nothing being said and this song in the background. It wasn't even just that moment, it was like I got flooded with these feelings from a past memory or a glimpse of the future? Just can see you and I dancing to this song as the sun fades out. I wanna be dancing with you till the sun goes down and when it rises

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i seriously mean it when i say i cant get enough of you. no matter how much time we spend together i just want more, i just want time to stop when we're together. i never want to leave your side and i want to keep naked cuddling with you until the end of time 💖 i dont want this feeling to ever go away and i dont think it will. i was missing out on this for 20 whole years, and its unreal to me that i get to have you back. the way that those puppy-like eyes glance ate while we're cuddling to see if im looking at you, the lingering weed smell in your breath and taste on your tongue when we kiss, the way you shake yohr head and the look you gibe me when i say or do something goofy, or simply the way your hand feels holding mine, all is so familiar. i cant get enough of any of it though.

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your hands on my body felt so natural, just laying with you felt natural. This is something I've done a million times before. I'm so happy to be experiencing it again and to have found you 💕

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i keep thinking about all the things we would do together if we stayed together, if we even g o t together. it excites me yet scares me so bad, because i’ve waited 20 years to sleep in the same bed as you again, yet i HAVENT slept in the same bed as you in 20 years.

[wishuwerehere420]

i could never get enough of you

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tonight is the 2nd night in a row youve made me pleasure myself and for once its satisfying. its satisfying to know youre doing the same on the other end, but i cant wait till i get to show you just how much i love you one night. i get to show you all the things you make me feel and just how passionately i care about you. i want to give you all of the pleasure you can possibly feel because you deserve to feel every single good thing ever, especially something so emotional and bonding as that that i know we’ve done together so many more times, so many years ago. its nice to fill my head with thoughts of you and just feel nothing for good feelings, even if its for less than 30 minutes. you make me feel so lovely

[wishuwerehere420]

your lips on mine is a constant thought in my mind

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Even when it storms and I'm feeling nervous, bring comforted by you is all I need. We've spent many storms together so this isn't much, to think of the times we danced in the storms, to many more we will dance in.

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to me,

you are the sun rays keeping me warm onna chilly morning, you make me feel safe. each moment I'm with you, whether in person or just on the phone with you. I was going to say meeting you changed my life, but to me, it feels like you walked right back into my life. I had accepted life for the way it is, that is just what life is about. And you came back and flipped my whole world around, all these things I've adjusted too, you've shown me that the future is truly bright and to appreciate things more, especially some that go unnoticed. you notice everything. You are an angel that's blessing this world. I couldn't have been happier to have you here with me. I was truly having myself fall in love with you. Things are going to sorted out now. It's lost so much time with you, I don't want to lose anymore .

I love you B

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i was going to write an essay about you because i cant sleep and i said i could and i want to put it to the test. it’s about 5 am. i probably wont but just know i love you and i think youre as close to perfect as it gets

[wishuwerehere420]

i think you are my everything

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you somehow managed to make the most heartbreak ive ever felt in my life, easy to overcome.