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the end

basically forgot about this all year long, so it seem like most of my 4th year thoughts are going to float away and disappear like they were never here at all. and that’s okay, because maybe i was too busy loving my life to want to stop and write it down. but i think maybe in two or three or five years i might remember this blog and i might go back and want to read what life was like when i was 22, what life was like at the moment when one part of my life ended and another very unsure part started.

so here it is

 right now my legs are covered with bruises from banging into things when i went out on sunday night with my friends for the last time. i am told that i was an absolute menace and got us kicked out of two bars for sneaking into the closed off second floor of trin and throwing some cups off the balcony, making grant take the blame, and later refusing to drink a cup of water and tossing it back over the bar at the bartender. it was awful but hysterical and i’ll probably never get to do it again and have it be funny and not horrifying. 

i already miss the rotunda and bodo’s and that summer camp feeling of being surrounded by other college kids in this little surreal bubble where we make the rules and no one tells us what to do and we can lay on the grass on friday afternoons and dance on tables and be each other’s family. we were our own little universe, and that kind of carefree joy can’t last forever but i really wish it could.

these past four years have changed me for the better in so many ways. i still have a ways to go, but i think i found myself and who i’d like to be. so much of that comes from being surrounded by incredible people. nicolette’s drive and brigid’s kindness and colleen’s composure and ellie’s joy and katie’s friendship and kiki’s enthusiasm and caroline’s heart and hannah’s easygoingness and alex’s sense of self and taylor and lizzie and viv and rose and emma and devon and other alex and maggie and elizabeth and everyone else i’ve gotten to love and learn with. they’ve filled my heart in so many ways and i cannot wait to watch them do big things.

virginia has been the experience of a lifetime and i truly will never get over it. four years ago i cried my eyes out for days and had my mom convinced that i was going to transfer before i had even left home, and i wish i could go back and tell myself what a ride i was about to embark on. it was so hard and so scary and so happy and so exciting and i wouldn’t want it any other way. i hope that life has more of that in store for me.

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By cristihancu

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fall of fourth year had that terrifying, giddy feeling of being close to an edge, but thinking that if you just close your eyes you can pretend maybe you’re not about to fall. for now, we balance on the edge clinging to each other, knowing that we have to jump, but not quite yet. 

and so i am going to keep holding on to the nights this semester that we spent dancing on tables and watching sunsets on rooftops, and the feeling of running into people wherever i look and realizing how deep the roots i’ve put down are. i am going to hold onto the afternoons walking up the lawn, and the night that i scared my friends half to death and the early mornings doing what i love most. the times friends shoved coffee cups or plates of pancakes into my hands, the birthday that still feels wrong coming out of my mouth, the drunken swing dancing, the drunken everything. the love and the joy and the reckless freedom that we are all going to chase down until it leads us head first right off the cliff.

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yes way rosé 🍷🍷🍷things I could go for right now… #happyhour // SO close to the long weekend… what’s everyone’s plans? 🏙 #labordayweekend (at New York, New York)

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“don’t be shy” thanks u cured me

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Nicole Schultz Photography // HITS Ocala 2017 

https://www.instagram.com/_nsphotographs/

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