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Denji ...m my beautiful den nj ji i.. .. ..

I’m gonna think about the change in art style for a while.

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Self shippers.

We need to relearn the balance between not wanting to share your f/o and accepting that there will be other people out there who also ship with your f/o. I've been around a long time and I'm seeing people slipping back into this mindset of hating "doubles" (tbh I don't even like the use of that word for people who share an f/o) and not only that, but getting upset at others who may support that ship as well. You may not want to hear this, but it is selfish to expect a friend to cut ties with one of their other friends only because that other friend of theirs has the same f/o as you. Self ship "doubles" are not out to take away your f/o or be more popular than you, they just want to enjoy themselves as much as you do.

Block and move on, put tags and urls on your filtered content, write out your angry thoughts in a word doc or to a close friend. But please try to be a bit kinder. This is a community based on love. Remember that.

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Okay uhh I'm awake now and forgot everything but I have snippets. Under a read more in case this shows up anywhere but yume/selfship spaces and also not to clog people's feeds. It gets rambley

Something about me and part 1 / anime denji and my attachment to him but the way it's subtly different than the one to part 2 denji. Cause like, I'm 19 and part 1 Denji is 16 so obvi I can't be romantically interested in that version of Denji cause I'm nearly 20 and that's like a cardinal sin within yume spaces. But I still feel, like... protective over him?

I actively selfship with part 2 Denji, who is 18 turning 19 later on in the in-canon year. But part 1 Denji is part 2 Denji but younger. Like that's still boyfie, but him in the past. If that makes sense? I selfship with him in the sense of "I did so when I was 16/17 but now that I'm 19 I focus on his older self, but still carry the memories and the feelings of happiness and enjoyment that I felt when I was younger."

I dunno. It's... odd. I kind of like being able to "grow" with Denji, in a way? Even though he turned 18 before I did. I think? I don't remember but I have vague memories of thinking it was funny. But it also makes me conflicted about how I feel. Especially w/ the Bomb Devil movie coming out and how odd I felt watching the more romantic scenes between the two of 'em. Similar to Asa n Denji scenes except jts ... it's different in a way I can't put my finger on.

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In any case. The other thing I had been thinking about was the fact that I'm a non-sharer selfshipper. And I lowkey feel... bad about it. I never really felt that weird about it before, but now I just feel a little shitty with it. Maybe it's realization or like self awareness or whatever, but. I almost feel childish being so uncomfortable with seeing others self ship w/ Denji. But it's not like I can just not feel that way. I've definitely tried to get used to it, but I could never really get rid of that icky feeling that pools in my stomach.

It's less of a "he's MINE !!!" sort of feeling and more of a feeling of... I guess inadequacy?? I'm a person with very very low self esteem and, from what I've now started to come to terms to, shitty mental health. Idk if I'd say I'm mentally ill, but I haven't really been confident and well in my head for years now. And I suppose, by using selfshipping as a source of comfort, it both helped and hurt? In a way?? Less self shipping and moreso seeing other Denji yumes and feeling like they're somehow better than me. That I'm on the bottom rung and they're on top; or, alternatively, that I'm a bad person for even thinking I could be on their level. That I am, inherently, preventing something from happening that's better than anything I could do, and that I'm evil for it.

Which like, now that I type it out, sounds ridiculous and stupid. But it falls in line with similar negative thoughts that I feel when other things are involved. Like my identity as a person itself, as a sister, as a friend, as an artist. As someone who creates. So on and so forth.

Does this realization and negative feelings mean I'm going to cut back on selfshipping? No, because thinking of doing that also makes me miserable. So I'm going to keep doing what I'm doing and try to tackle other aspects of my mental health in hopes that it helps with this as well.

Having said that, though... I am still a non-sharer lmao. WHICH is funny because I interact so much with people that also like Denji that I've ended up taking "people who selfship w/ Denji" off my DNI because I interact with them so much. And even after everything that I've said tbh, I still want to interact with those people. Cause they're important to me! And my weirdness w/ "sharing" won't get in the way with that. I love you my mutuals who also like Denji you guys are so dear to me ily ily ily 🫂 AND YOU STRAWBERRY ANON 🫵🏽 my special spumglo.

... but also, having said that, I think from now on I will be careful when it comes to interacting with other Denji self shippers simply because I am too mentally ill to tackle any more people 🧛🏾‍♀️ yk how it isss

Tl;Dr though ?? Unmm this was a nothing burger and I'm just rambling

I've been thinking alot about me and my self ship / yumeship with denji, especially since the 2nd teaser trailer dropped today, and I have some thoughts but I'm really tired rn so I'll get back to you on that in the morning

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second teaser trailer for what? i'm confused

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Second teaser trailer for the reze movie 🫶🏽

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Before I go to sleep though I do wanna clarify that I'm not dropping denji as an f/o. He's still my romantic f/o. My silly goober. My cutie patootie. I am still "denji's canon lover" or whatever my name was idk I fogor I'm sleepy

I've been thinking alot about me and my self ship / yumeship with denji, especially since the 2nd teaser trailer dropped today, and I have some thoughts but I'm really tired rn so I'll get back to you on that in the morning

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I've been thinking alot about me and my self ship / yumeship with denji, especially since the 2nd teaser trailer dropped today, and I have some thoughts but I'm really tired rn so I'll get back to you on that in the morning

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I JUST FINISHED THE MOVIE IM CHEESING IT WAS SO GOOOODDDD

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can I lick him dry please

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Me when I just ran

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People who post sonic 3 movie spoilers I wish u a very kill yourself

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Claws at my skin please pleasePLEASE I cannot keep finding denji yumes when I'm already feeling like shit PLEASEEEUH

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Me and Denji will kiss in 5 4 3 2 1

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If I were a human who had slowly turned into a tree I would personally and empathetically and enthusiastically thank Denji for giving me the greatest honor in being eaten by him

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CONGRATS WISHI OMG😭❤️❤️❤️ IM SO PROUD OF YOU??!!!? And just imagine how proud Denji is of his awesome, hardworking and smart girlfriend <33 Wishing you the best luck going forward!!! It's so cool to find out what you've been studying, now it makes so much sense as to how detailed and intricate you wrote about Gabi/Swihi's abilities and powers;; You gotta know a lot about the human body to create awesome stuff like that :3 I'm so so incredibly proud🫂💗💗💗 THROWS CONFETTI AT U🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

STARTS VIOLENTLY SOBBING PLEASEEEE WHY HAVE I JUST SEEN THIS 😭😭💞💞

FLAAAAKEEEE 🫂🫂 UR SO SWEET IHIHI ??????? Falls to my knees in the middle of a parking lot

I hope denji is proud man I'm doing this for HIM!!! Hitting the books just to get more denji merch n commission art of me and him mhm mhmm.... but also so I can have a career i GUESS 😒/j

Wfwfwfwf Flake ,,,, my oomfie ,,,,,, ily thank u sobs sobs

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Got tagged in this twice 😭 I did NOT know I left such an impression T□T 🫶🏽💞💞💞

ofc tagging @mncxbe and @that-weeb-in-ur-closet my beloved oomfies ♡♡ but also !!!! @mushywutty, @hatsukeii, @radbunctious, @tragaci-haos-fericit, @v3sterp0nk, @jaydangan. just to name a few ewe u////u♡ ily all my beloveds in my cellular device <333

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mmgf.... my wwwwife ....

girl eternally doomed by the chainsaw