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8.27.L

I'm sick. I spent most of yesterday on the couch. Maybe you expected a post because I posted consistently this summer. I got your texts and appreciate them. I have thoughts and questions but my head is fuzzy. They are too much to post. I'd like to talk sometime this week. Glad you moved and you're happy. I hope it's much better than the last place.

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8.26.A

Was expecting to see something here tonight but not sure why I moved. It's lit. I'm worn out but happy I moved. Can't wait to have folks over sometime.

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8.20.L

1. I'm glad you called Friday. 2. I might be assistant coaching volleyball this fall- I hope it pans out because the coach is one of my favorite people at school. 3. Went to Wiseacre for Konrad and Yates' birthday. Yates' wife Allison is great- I enjoy talking to her. It was nice to laugh with Lau and Leila. 4. What weekend are you visiting your family? 5. This year already feels so much different school wise. I have a better idea of what to care about and what to let go. I feel lighter, and I'm so thankful for that. I hope you're ok and that this weekend wasn't too hard.

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8.10.L

Thanks for commenting this week. I'm thankful it's Friday. I'm sorry you're still having a hard time. Hope you have a good day.

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8.7.L

I'm sorry you're having a hard time. This- whatever this is- only works if we communicate. It hurts me when you say nothing. I'm fine and get over it but it sucks. When I hear nothing I end up wondering if I've done something wrong or assuming that things will once again play out the way they did a year ago. Last year around this time things were pretty bad. I worry for you. I care about you - and ultimately want you be all that I know you can be. Go reread your birthday card sometime this week. When you're going through a lot I can imagine posting or trying to talk to me might feel like too much. I'm not expecting anything. I hope you can talk to someone about what you're going through because it sucks to feel like you're alone. Know you're not alone. There are so many people who care for you and who are waiting know you. And don't think maybe, idk. It's the fucking truth. You have so much to offer people. Wasn't intending on typing this- it just sort of spilled out of me. ... Quick update: Best first day ever. I love 8th grade. I'm teaching so many kids I taught residency. So so happy to be back. Went to a power class at the Kroc with Savs, Lau, and some other people. I hope school went well. I'm praying that you would be given peace and courage to face each day. And that time with Aimee would be restorative. Anyways- I miss you.

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8.2.L

PD has been pretty consuming these last few days. Things are coming together which is nice. Being back at Sherwood is great despite the lack of answers and clarity from Admin. 

Not talking to you is not fun. Hope you’re ok. 

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7.30.L

It's almost 9 over here. Church was nice, ate a great salad for lunch, took a nap and tried to read the alchemist. I'm on pg 40. Having a hard time being interested in it. Went to the Kroc and swam 800 yd. A friend from college called and told me she's moving to Memphis next week. Made baked oatmeal and smothered chicken for breakfast/lunch this week. Glad yesterday wasn't bad. What's cozy corner? I love jcrew. So much. I look forward to seeing what you got 🙃. Also great news about possibly finding an apt. Tried not to think about school today. I'm scared and I hate that feeling. Hoping tomorrow settles a bit of that. Have a good day tomorrow. Night Ave.

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7.29.A

Today hasn't been that bad actually. Yesterday and the day before however were. It sounds like you've had a great day. My day has been very sleepy. I think I found a new apartment near overton park. I ate cozy corner. I slept some more. And then I shopped. Helped AS not have a crisis shopping for clothes and dropped +200 at j crew on two new shirts and two new pairs of pants. Pretty happy about that. I like hearing about your stories. You me and leila should hang out and cut loose one night. It might feel normal. I don't know. Can't wait to swim again. Night liv.

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7.29.L

Not sure if you're going to post tonight but I wanted to talk to you and this is the closest thing I have to that. 1. Woke up and had birthday brunch with Leila and the gang. Her mom came for the weekend which is really great. 2. Got a swim cap! 3. Listened to some old playlists I made. Felt pretty nostalgic. 4. Rearranged my room. Then stress cleaned my room. My desk and dresser switched places. I think I like it. 5. Kind of missed writing about my day. This is nice. 6. I appreciated what you texted yesterday. Didn't text back because it was after 9- and I wasn't sure if the time frame had changed. 7. Had a birthday dinner Leila- ate Aldo's (I know...), I made that berry salad, and laughed a lot. Matt and Hattie came. They are so lovely to talk to. I'm sleepy but my mind is racing. Just want to stop thinking so much. I hope you're ok. Usually the first night AS is there you've said it is pretty hard. Keep being kind. Hope you get some sleep.

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7.23.L

Quick post tonight. 1. Church was great today. The message was simple and sincere. The woman leading worship was so joyful you couldn't help but smile. 2. Got sushi for lunch. 3. Took a really long nap- woke up feeling kind of sick. 4. Typed out my consequence/incentive system. 5. Ate Gus's for dinner. 6. Talked with mom for a while. Made a plan for tomorrow- working with Berkey at 7 am 😬 early but worth it because I'll see you. 7. You're almost home! Be safe. Can't wait to see you.

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7.22.L

Drove to Laurel Mississippi today. My mom loves this show called Hometown (it's like fixer upper but a little more low key). They have a store and bakery. Went to a lot of antique places. Got my first comfort colors shirt. My mom was surprised about what Mississippi looked like. She thought it would be like Florida. Kind of open with few trees. She knows a lot about plants and wildlife- it's fun to hear her talk. It's 4 hours to get there but she's wanted to go for months- so we spent a little over 8 hours in the car. So much- but it was worth it. Ben is the husband in the show and was standing right outside our car when we walked out- she was so excited. Glad you're finding some good apartments. Having a pool would be so fun although sad that it might be a bit further away. I'd be interested to hear more about you periodically feeling like you're a fuck up. What do you want to work on? What are you good at? (Also don't feel like you need to answer if this is overwhelming or you need more time to think about it). Why are your parents going to New Orleans? Now that you mentioned it I remember you have family there. As for the random guy- He was a sophomore in college and I was going to be a senior- I vaguely remember his face. He seems really eager for the school year to start. Monday I'm going to try and swing stopping by at 11-12/12:30. I know it's not long. I can’t wait to see you. One. More. Day. Sorry again about last night 😔. If you can text tonight I'll try and wake up. Usually if you text me twice I hear it. Sleep well Avery. 🦄

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In the sip today.

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7.21.A

It's a weird feeling to feel like a fuck up. I have those feelings sporadically. I need to start working on the things I'm good at. I feel like I'm not working toward much right now. Maybe this will get better. I might just be having a moment. I'm so glad you're mom is in town. That's awesome. I'm so excited for where you're at right now with Sherwood and just life in general. As long as you can, the key on Monday will be great. I can be free all day before 5:00 pm. When do you think will work for you? I'm pretty good at cooking. I can get a little stressed when I'm making something new but I cooked tonight and it felt pretty seamless. The boys parties are never when I can be there. That sounds like a weird interaction. What do you remember about him? I haven't been to New Orleans since I was in either the 4th or 5th grade. I have some family who lives there. You'll see me in like two days. Not sure how Sunday night will be but Monday is a sure thing right now. Today was rough but I made it through it. I got to talk to my mom and I'm pretty excited about some of the apartments I'm looking at. If I'm not close to midtown I'll at least have a pretty nice pool. Can't wait to see you. So soon now.

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7.21.L

1. My mom is here!

2. I remember the end of year drama at MLK (wether or not you’d have PD) I guess I can give you your key/ID on Monday. If for some reason that doesn’t work we can figure something els out

3. I’m assuming for the moment you’re driving back alone? 4. Budgeting sounds great. I need to get on that. 5. Really wished we could have played volleyball together this past spring. I’m not great but it’s so fun. 6. Saw my classroom, hugged my favorite custodian who still works at SMS, went to ikea, ate a double cheese burger, ran more errands, took a nap. 7. Made steak with a red wine reduction sauce. So good. I’d be fun to cook with you. 8. Went to the boys party. Piñata was an amazon box. Met a girl who was boarder line obsessed with recycling (you go girl). Met someone I worked at honey rock with four years ago (I didn’t recognize him, he knew I didn’t, felt terrible). He’s also teaching 8th grade at Sherwood- so weird. Talked to a lot of people, feeling more myself, wished you were there. 9. New Orleans is so fun. Ah! That sounds like a blast. Have you been before? 10. I miss you. Feeling more gushy than normal. See you in like maybe TWO DAYS?! ☺️🦄💜

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My classroom (I think)!

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The dreamiest carpet from ikea. It's so gorgeous. 😍😍😍