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does anyone want to hold me and tell me i’ll br okay. n. no one. ? thats okay

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what are you supposed to do when nothing makes you feel alive anymore. where do you go when you always feel dead

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are you normal or does the realisation of waking up and having to live another day make you cry before you’ve even left ur bed

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Maybe one day

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Where am I? Really

I don’t know

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Summer

I hate summer. Everyone has too much time on their hands, it’s too hot, I get more sad than I already am constantly. I’ve never had a good summer and it’s in 3ish months.

I want to go back when summer felt like forever

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it would've been better for everyone if I had stopped having a heartbeat years ago

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i think i was destined to be ruined. i think i’ll always be fucked up.

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I saw a future with him after not wanting a future my whole entire life. He left me.

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i’ve decided not to let people into my life anymore. being hurt by a person is the equivalent of 5 gunshots to my gut.

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I don’t want to get sexualized. But if you don’t Sexualize me then you don’t love me. That’s how it goes right? People only love me when they sexualize me right? They only want me when I show off my body.

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Today is ok.

I feel a gentle sadness instead of the one that eats me alive.

My good days.

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me every day because sleep is the only thing that lets me forget how empty i am for a moment. it’s the only escape from this never ending ache, from the weight of a life i can't stand. when im awake, the pain is unbearable, but in sleep, i don't have to feel it even if just for a few hours. the worst part is knowing i’ll wake up to it all over again lol

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I'm so tired of hurting myself and everyone else in the act of trying to avoid hurting myself and everyone else.

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i wish i could have a life with you. but i am frail and dying. im slowly killing myself. youre the only reason i get out of bed anymore, if not for you, i would just curl up and die.

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Just when you think you’ve reached the bottom, the ground splits again

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I'm sure being alive isn't supposed to be this painful