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You need to calm down.

Mengawali tahun dengan tantrum lagi tantrum lagi, Positif sekali kau. Sulit ternyata mengendalikan emosi terhadap pasangan. Cie. Menjadi single selama 26 tahun tidak sesulit ini rasanya. Mungkin karena sudah tahu cara mengendalikan emosi akan diri sendiri. Sering nolak orang mungkin ya, jadinya rasanya kalo ditolak sama yang disayang jadi amburadul. HAHAH.

Hepinya berlipat ketika bertemu, tapi kalo sedang tidak memungkinkan sebelnya juga berlipat. Soalnya sudah tidak single lagi (?) Kangen juga fangirlingan. Hidup hanya penuh dengan motogp, F1, manchester united dan bts dan cowok cowok kewl lainnya. Banyak pilihannya. Tapi ya cinta satu arah sih. Mungkin ekspetasinya ya hanya sebatas dinotice bukan disayang YHA. apateu.

Sekarang libur dikit maunya dateu, weekend ekspetasinya ya dateu. Dulu cukup nungguin jadwal balapan atau match MU. Ya kalo sudah ketemu juga hepi. Dahlah cukup liatin whatsappnya, dengerin karate kidnya Coldplay saja sampai gumoh.

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My 2024 pov

Mengusahakan apa yang bisa diusahakan

January

Start of the year be like yeah keep the resolution alive. Career. High performance athletes devoted fan. Relationship? Of course it still on my list for 26 years. Well well well I just want to keep it chill and going on. It turn out to be start of my relationship journey.

February

Annoyed. Doubts. Choir. Love songs. And him. And its love month. It's his birthday month too. Despite all doubts over his flaws, I think I started jatuh suka. What a simple yet romantic date. Oh he got me. Meh. idc.

March

Meaningful month. Places that collecting memories. Kopi kina was best but lege coffee is the place that confirm the feelings. Another one would be plaza senayan. It feels fancy but the stories, honesty and togetherness that make my heart full and feel way more fancy or just meaningful.

April

My first misunderstanding issue with bf. But it got consolidated well. Meeting his close friends. Few coincidence.

May

Visiting my grandma's house. What an achievement for me to bring a boy for a family occasion . Lol. His kind understanding that make me feel secure.

June

Birthday treats. Annoyed for not getting a birthday message from bf. Duh. I didn't even get it for 26 years. It should be no problem. But, when you have one, it become a problem. My old habit coming back. That silent treatment. Hehe. Well, he pick me up and explain the reasons at a warkop around house. The surprise items come with birthday gift+dinner treat+photobox session+lovely gestures. Ea.

July

Work issues. Handling a complicated customer need you to be patient. A lot of patient.

August

Visit the university with your partner with same almamater was the cinta from the famous buku, pesta, cinta, that haven't exist yet since 2015 until that day. Pretty chessy but idc. Hehe. Old memories come up and wondering if we ever met at those places back in the day.

September

Get new partner for new project at work. But kinda complicated one. Mom went to emergency at the day my bro graduated. Mind all over the place but stay to get sane and focus. Another life lesson.

October

Trip to solo with mom and dad was pretty challenging. But, again, another life lesson. Mom had a surgery. Thankfully it went well.

November

Work work work.

December

Another work work work. It's like having a race against deadline. Work target. Personal target. Achieve or not you can't get back. Instead to embrace the result or delay for another year resolution. Hehe. Oh my inner fangirl is still alive though. Namjoon's documentary was a proof how his latest album such an art.

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Every time I intend to ignore him, he always shows up

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Kevin Magnussen on the grid in Abu Dhabi with his wife and daughter ahead of his last race in F1

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Sepertinya aku memang tidak bisa ldr. Bersyukur juga jatuh cinta di umur segini, sekarang saja masih merasa cukup dumb.

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The glass has been full these past weeks. It got flood away sometime causing issues around the environment, but the glass still doesn't get crack. At least, it stand still in many ways.

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Hari ini ke ui. Nostalgia sama anak psikologi. Hepi :)

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Kalo Coldplay kan head full of dreams kalo aku head full of you ☺️

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Landan you’re everything to me

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daniel ricciardo for hugo x rb capsule | 📸

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Logging out all socmeds for... a day? well we'll see

udah bener emang jadi fangirl aja, pake sok sok mau membuktikan kalo tidak mati rasa. Ketika hati sedang tidak penuh jadinya cranky. Seperti perut. Kalo lapar ya cranky. Tapi ya lumayanlah, ternyata aku tidak mati rasa. Suka sama orang sih dari SD, rumahnya deket orang yang lagi kusayang lagi. nyeh. Kayaknya harus nonton konser tahun ini. yha solusi macam apa itu :p

Gelasnya lagi penuh aja sih sepertinya atau lagi mau datang bulan #blameitonthings . Ya udah sayang gimana dong. Dapetinnya harus nunggu 27 tahun bruh. HAHAH. Dari yang komat kamit 'gue ngapain gue ngapain' di depan coffee shop di bulan januari, sampe berasa 'without you I will crumble into pieces/things'. hiyahiya.

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Daniel arriving to the circuit ahead of the British GP | Sunday | Silverstone | Rudy Carezzevoli

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Daniel & Lando arriving at race day at Silverstone 2024

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silly wittle (large) man on his scooter in his fancy wittle suit🤭🤭

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Seb bringing everyone together today to commemorate Ayrton Senna and Roland Ratzenberger 💚💛💙 ❤️🤍❤️

Imola | 16 May 2024

📷ansiogenaaf, Scuderia Ferrari

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friendship that not only lasted but is thriving

they will always be my favorite ♥️

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Sebastidan 2024 edition ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Daniel Ricciardo and Sebastian Vettel in the paddock 2024 F1 Grand Prix of Emilia-Romagna: Thursday Media | 📸 - Cezary Gutowski