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Reblog and follow please!

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I swear the color of the light cast by the sun changed the beginning of last semester, but I feel like I'm insane because I'm the only one who's noticed it???

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Oh god I think I'm falling for him, someone stop the fucking car, I NEED OFF!!!!!

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Sometimes, I feel like I was put on this earth to love people, but not be loved back. I've crossed oceans for people who'd barely cross bridges for me; but for some reason, I continue to do it anyway because I don't want people to feel hopeless and unloved the way I do.

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How do I express to people that I feel alone without them feeling bad or leaving me?

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There are some days that I just call my mom because I miss her, and because I wanna make sure she still wants me alive.

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I'm eating Vienna sausage straight from the can at 10pm on a Friday night... How sad are you?

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Realizing I must be an ugly ass bitch to the male gaze because of the number of platonic guy friends I have... Damn.

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I think it's almost crazy how I can't really keep a crush on someone, and am terrified of a romantic commitment, but at the same time be the most loyal ride or die friend ever. I crave love in a romantic sense more than anyone else it feels like a lot of the time, but I, for some God forsaken reason, can't seem to have it. I'm not even gonna throw a self pity party nd say all my faults because frankly, I know I'm not unique in being able to love others despite their faults, so I KNOW that there has to be someone that will be able to accept me, but where are you? Do I just pick someone and stick with it? Do I Pavlov someone into liking me? Do I befriend them first and let things play out? I have always been the friend but never the girl, and as shallow and stupid as it sounds, it sucks! I want someone else to start something with me because I'm tired of running. Please, whoever you are, I'm sitting on the side of the road waiting for a hand to reach out and hold till the end of this path... I'm gonna wait, but notso long as I know I can get up and drag myself there with or without anyone's hand, but for fuck's sake, damnit it would be nice.

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I'll be fucking real, my friends are the lucky ones to have someone like me

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I will listen and give validation to all those around me whilst whole heartedly believing that I should not even be breathing air.

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Someone just tagged a post of mine "incorrect Goncharov quotes" and

1. I love you

2. The layers of incomprehensible memes it takes to talk about incorrect quotes of a movie that doesn't exist.

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Ang huling sulat ko para sa'yo

Ayaw kong umpisahan ang sasabihin ko sa iyo sa pag hingi ng patawad, at hindi naman talaga ako hihingi ng pag-patawad mo kasi hindi ako nagsisising inamin ko sa iyo ang kung anong nararamdaman ko para sa'yo. May huli na lang akong nais na malaman mo.

Nagkagusto ako sa iyo dahil sa mga mata mo... Ang ganda ng mga mata mo eh, tuwing nag-uusap tayo noon, pakiramdam ko lagi parang nababasa mo na isip ko. Para sa akin, bilang isang hindi mapag-sabi ng nararamdaman kapag sa sarili ko lang, naging parang ginhawa ka. Ilang beses ba iyon na pinigilan ko lang talaga ang sarili ko na maluha kasi ayaw kong mabigla ka o matakot sa nagiging tiwala ko na sa iyo.

Isa kang maginoo, maalalahanin, mapag-bigay, matulungin, at madaling mapagkatiwalaan na siyang hinangaan ko talaga sa iyo. Mapag-malasakit ka rin talaga kaya humanga rin ako sa iyo noon. Kailan ka naligaw? Kailan ka parang naubusan ng pag-asa? O sadyang hindi ko lang ba napansin ang mga kapintasan mo noon dahil sa pagtingin ko sa iyo?

Alam ko naman na meron, tao lamang naman tayo parehas, at kung ako'y may maraming kapintasan, oo naman meron ka rin. Pero bakit ganon? Pakiramdam ko kahit anong kapintasan mo kaya ko pa ring tanggapin basta't ikaw. Hindi ko alam kung kailan ako nahulog ng ganito sa iyo...

Hindi ko na alam kung ano ang pinagdadaanan mo ngayon, kung meron man, ngunit nais ko lang malaman mo na kahit hindi mo ako pinili o bibigyan ng maayos na sagot, umaalo pa rin ako para sa iyo.

Nagpapasalamat,

Ako

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I'm feeling a whole lot of fucking self pity again ehe i hate it hear

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Are my feelings finally dying, or am I just finally understanding that you will always choose her?

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I don't expect anything from you, of "us"; but, there's this annoying and absolutely stubborn little corner of my brain that half does, and half wants to.

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There are just times in the day when I REALLY want to talk to you, but I don't because, let's be honest, I really shouldn't.