i just wanna fucking get over it but i dont think i will ever do it. it fuck hurts so much i can barely breath. its so fucking hard live at the moment, i barely have any friend and i know that the ones i have lie all the time to me and dont give a fuck about how im truly am. im so fuck tired of my family and how i dont fucking cant get any job, i cant remember the last time i had money. im trying to always look nice so everyone can see that im over it and that i am better from all the shit that they had done to me, but IM FUCKING NOT. i dont think that ill ever trust someone again and i cant even talk about how ill never fckn date someone again bc of the way the last guy a dated treated me. he made me felt like someone will never fckn love me because im gross n toxic, like every fckn thing that happens to him was my fault . IM JUST SO FCKN TIRED. i wish i was weak to just fucking kill myself. but im not fucking givin up.