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so crunchyroll is fucking evil
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They’ve released not just digitized works of art, but also a great many art history texts and art books in general. Just this week, they announced an expansion of access to their digital archive, in that they’ve made nearly 88,000 images free to download on their Open Content database under Creative Commons Zero (CC0). That means “you can copy, modify, distribute and perform the work, even for commercial purposes, all without asking permission.”
88,000 new free images just dropped, to use however you like.
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Literal definition of spyware:
Also From Microsoft’s own FAQ: "Note that Recall does not perform content moderation. It will not hide information such as passwords or financial account numbers. 🤡
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i havent ranted i awhile but imma feelin the fight in me lad, oh boy am i feelin the urge to screm
anyways i think its funny everytime i see a new mental health professional and tell them my situation theyre like "adhd?" and like NO! long long ago i was treated with stimulants in 4th grade and they KO me immediately and like ... thats not whats supposed to happen and omg guess what i actually have schizophrenia and executive dysfunction can occur in schizophrenia not just adhd i told people I AM PAYING ATTENTION i happen to forget everything immediately bc working memory is a part of executive function and also yeah i didnt have my first ep of psychosis and was diagnosed with schizophrenia when i was 23 but prodrome is a thing and ive had the same brain my whole life and idk maybe it was riddled with schizophrenia when i was born and some of my struggles in childhood can be linked to it i dunno
anyways i had me some psych testing done i dont have adhd and i wish when i mentioned i get bored easy and cant start tasks and whatnot peeps would be saying i have adhd and ignoring the mental illness i am actually diagnosed with reeee
#idk i dont post bc i dont like dealing with resposes#just let me yell into the void and be wrong sometimes#idk starting seeing a therapist again so maybe shell set me right idk im not a MH pro
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CBC made a good documentary on adult ADHD and part of it really caught me off guard because i swear they repeated verbatim my life story for the past 3 years
full programme here:
http://www.cbc.ca/natureofthings/episodes/adhd-not-just-for-kids
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Define schizophrenia?
Schizophrenia is a complicated mental illness which affects roughly 1% of the population. Schizophrenia symptoms are categorized in three groups - positive, negative and cognitive. Keep in mind that not every schizophrenic will experience every symptom, and that there’s just as many different ways to experience schizophrenia as there’s schizophrenic people.
Positive symptoms (positive as in “added to” - meaning things schizophrenic people may experience which neurotypicals don’t):
Delusions. A delusion is a fixed belief that doesn’t fit into societal and cultural norms that doesn’t change when confronted with a contradicting reality. Delusions can take many different forms and can be everything from “people can read my mind” to “I’m being stalked by the government” to “I’m being possessed by demons” to “I’m the next Jesus.”
Hallucinations. Hallucinations means experiencing sensory input that isn’t actually there. They can be both tactile (feeling touches that aren’t there - example: feeling that bugs are crawling on you when there isn’t any bugs), auditory (hearing voices or other sounds that aren’t there), visual (seeing things that aren’t there), olfactory (smelling things that aren’t there) and gustatory (to do with taste - example: having food taste rotten when it’s actually perfectly fine.)
Disorganized thinking/behavior as in a lacking ability to organize ones thoughts and a resulting lack of ability to speak, act and express yourself normally. A person suffering from disorganized thinking may speak or act in obviously bizarre ways that doesn’t make sense to other people.
Negative symptoms (negative as in “removed from” meaning that these are symptoms which are defined by being things most people experience which people with schizophrenia may lack):
Apathy. Apathy is the loss of interest in things that used to interest a person. This includes both jobs, hobbies, relationships and personal hygiene. (A person may go from being passionate about their job to laying in bed all day.)
Inappropriate or lacking emotional responses. (A person may not react emotionally to things that most people would react emotionally to or may have an inappropriate emotional response - some examples could be laughing at a family members funeral or smiling at bad news or not reacting at all to hearing that someone died.)
Lack of speech. (A person may go from speaking normally to giving one word answers or not speaking at all.)
Social withdrawal. (A person may lose all interest in socializing and start isolating themselves from their friends and family members.)
Anhedonia. Anhedonia is the lack of ability to feel pleasure as in no longer getting positive emotional responses from anything and feeling empty and grey when doing things that used to make you happy. (A person may go from really loving reading to not getting any enjoyment out of doing it.)
Sexual problems. (A person may lose their interest in sex partly or completely.)
Lethargy. Lethargy means lack of energy. (A person may go from being able to go to school every day to not being able to get out of bed.)
Impaired attention. (A person may struggle to follow conversations and focus on reading or television, etc).
Cognitive symptoms:
Loss of long and short term memory. People with schizophrenia may struggle to remember things they’re supposed to remember more often than neurotypicals. (A person may frequently forget about plans, appointments and other things they’re supposed to do - and they may struggle to recall relevant information when they need it.)
Loss of working memory. Working memory is our ability to actively process and use information in the moment. (A person with impaired working memory may be slower at comprehending what’s happening around them or what they’re supposed to do in a given situation.)
Loss of ability to concentrate/focus. People with schizophrenia may have a hard time focusing on tasks and may be easily distracted. (A person may find themselves reading the same sentence over and over without comprehending anything because they can’t focus on actually processing the information they’re reading despite wanting and needing to.)
Loss of executive functioning. Executive functioning is a term for our ability to plan, start, perform and finish a certain task, so someone with executive dysfunction may often struggle to figure out how to go from wanting to do something to actually doing it. (A person may know that they need to do the laundry, but they can’t figure out how to get from “dirty laundry” to “clean laundry” because their brain can’t see all the individual steps. They know that they need to get from A to F - but they can’t see B, C, D and E, and may thus get stuck and be unable to perform the task.)
Learning difficulties. People with schizophrenia may struggle to learn and remember new skills and information. (A person may already have asked how to use the microwave 5 times, but every time someone explains it they end up forgetting how to do it and having to ask again.)
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sorry for no updates in a long time! My life is rather uninteresting~
good news tho!
I started an antidepressant! It’s only been a week but ive noticed im less tired and doing chores doesnt seem as hard anymore. I used to feel like unloading the dishwasher was a pain. it’s hard to describe... but the thought of it just rubbed me the wrong way. now i unload it sooner and i dont get so annoyed by it. my creativity hasnt really returned yet and i dont feel like drawing and writing. in that regard i am still very much stuck.
Hopefully i get more motivation. i heard antidepressants can take up to 6 weeks to take full effect. :0
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I was having writers block and so I took a break and soon enough it was 3 in the morning and I had impulsively sewn together a tiny mouse you’re welcome
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writing is hard yo ive been trying to write a story but idk how pacing works or tension or climax or general intrigue
rip
i starting working on a synopsis so i hope that helps flesh things out
idk what this update is
im bored
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GOD I found another article about why ADHD kids say “I don’t know” so much. my entire childhood was getting yelled at for doing some ADHD shit and me not being able to offer an explanation when asked why I did something.
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You are not wasting your therapist’s time.
You are not faking it for attention.
You are not using up services that other people need more.
You deserve help.
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my therapist: so how are you doing today?
me:
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having a journal is nice. i can write all sorts of weird shit in it and not worry about other people seeing,, ive tried to use this blog kindof like a journal but sometimes i get scared and delete posts. having a journal is less worrying
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