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Werewolf AU, A/B/O AU, Omega Zero, Ancient Pureblood Kaname, Alpha Hunter Kaito.
Main pair : Kaname x Zero, there would be brief Kaito x Zero but end game Kaname x Zero.
Also this is not purely following Vampire Knight Canon but this is pure AU with me butchering the vampire knight plot here and there, you all could count this as an alternative version of the plot. Um… also y’all probably going to hate me because of how I am going to portray Kaname here. I… really like the concept of the lesser of two evils and the whole story will evolve around that. It’s not really triggering but, morally questionable maybe but still I’ll put the trigger. LMAO I hate the incest in VK yet I make a morally questionable story. inspired by this wonderful edit https://www.tumblr.com/mesillusionssousecstasy/692587082100654080/vampire-knight-kaname-kuran-zero-kiryu
Song reference : Radwimps - Ms. Phenomenal
All the vampire hunters are werewolves, but they have their own hierarchy. Zero Kiryuu, the last of his Kiryuu clan, now living under the protection of Omega Kaien Cross, part of the Toga Yagari pack.
Seventeen years old Zero still has not presented as a wolf at all, but his symptoms indicate that he is turning into a vampire. Pseudo vampire, to be exact. Unbeknown to all, after the Shizuka attack, Zero suffered a significant amount of vampire poison that almost killed young Zero, making Zero’s young inner wolf fall into a deep slumber, unable to counter the pureblood poison and turning him into a pseudo vampire. It’s not common for a wolf to turn into a vampire but also is not impossible. Kaien tries his best to feed Zero blood tablets, but his body rejects them. The only way to repel a pureblood vampire poison is to drink another pureblood with higher status, which makes it almost impossible. Shizuka herself was royals among the pureblooded unless it was the Kuran’s heir or the Kuran’s ancestor that could cure Zero’s poisoning.
10 Years Ago, The Kuran Mansion
Feeling helpless, Kaien exchanged a favour with Kaname, the current heir of the Kuran clan. Kaien knew the soul that resides inside the twenty-two years old Kaname was the oldest, ancient pureblood from the Kuran Clan. The one who made a pact with the dire wolf of the werewolves. Kaname never dies. He always moves from one body to another; every millennium, the Kuran's will always make sacrifice their newborn heir for Kaname's revival. Kaname is supposed to be dead, along with his omega. The Hunter Association can't handle the fact, that the prime omega from one of the purest hunter packs, the Kiryuu was mated to the Kuran's Ancestor, to kill two birds with one stone, they murdered the young Kiryuu that recently mated to Kaname. Unable to handle his sorrow, Kaname massacres the whole Hunter Association and leaves only a small number of the Cross pack, the barest pack. There are rarely omega born from the Cross, but they manage to stop Kaname's rage because the Cross was a powerful spellcaster, when Kaname was on the brink of exhaustion and dying, feeling the pain that bonded pair that separated by death, the Cross was helping Kaname to revive in the new body but the consequences were he won't be able to restore his bond. It was either he looking for new prime omega or staying unmated. And the pureblood ancestor was never mated ever since. He was determined to find his beloved once again.
The pact between the Cross and the Kuran's gave Kaien the courage to approach Kaname. For the young pup that he'll never have the joy of having, Zero was a blessing for Kaien omega's.
Standing in front of Kaname’s office, one of the butlers opened the door for Kaien
“Kuran-sama had been expecting your arrival, Sir Cross”
“Thank you”
Kaien silently approached the mahogany desk, where a certain pureblood king was reviewing his work
“Cross” Kaname acknowledge
“Kuran”
“Please, just call me Kaname. How was the school that you’re building?”
“The progress was good and thank you for the donation from the council. The Hunter Association will definitely move in a better direction” Kaien smile
“Good, good, and the reason you’re here are?” Kaname arched his eyebrow
“I am adopting a youngling, barely a kid. His parents and twin were brutally murdered by purebloods….” Kaien drags the last part. And it had Kaname’s attention
“And which family is it?”
“Hio. Shizuka Hio. Yagari managed to take her down and killed her before she drained this kid”
“Sigh….. That crazy family. I’ll have a word with them and make sure the slaughtered pack gets even compensation, and which pack suffered such tragic fate?”
“Kiryuu” ice spread on Kaname’s bone. No way that Kiryuu still had an heir, he slaughtered them all and only the Cross that was left. “Before you throw a rage, the Cross manage to save a twin Kiryuu from one of the dead pregnant mothers, this is what my ancestor tell me”
“If you say so, Cross. What do you need me for?” for a millisecond, Kaname’s demeanour changed from relaxed to hardened.
“I’m asking your favour for my pack member in exchange for us sheltering your sister when you gain your power on the council” Kaien pledged
“And why does it concerns me?”
"We could guarantee Yuki's safety from the assassin when you take over your council, we have Yagari that could take even royal pureblood down. Also, it's been seven years since the attack and this pup was supposed to be presented as a wolf. Still, as time passed, there was no sign of him being presented as a wolf, but he showed symptoms of turning into a vampire or maybe a pseudo. Still, the chance was small if he was a pseudo one, since the wolf in this kid is basically a pup, there is no way that young wolf can survive a pureblood poison. And his sire was killed by your uncle. You know there are consequences, right" Kaien trailed
“And you let such dangerous thing near Yuuki? He can swiftly evolve into level E in no time”
“I pledged myself to Yuki’s safety and this kid, and his vampiric side had been dormant Kuran, we can’t be sure until he is at the right ages to present whether he is a level E or Pseudo”
“Mistaken not Kaien. I do this only for Yuuki’s sake, since she adores you as her uncle”, Kaname rose from his seat. “I’ll meet the Kiryuu boy right now and make sure he doesn’t go rabid when he near Yuuki.”
Kaien can only stiffly nod, and this is currently the best option he can offer Zero right now. He can't bear seeing his best friend pup suffering this much. As much as it pained him knowing Zero was badly poisoned from the pureblood that he could no longer present as a wolf, it was his selfish wish to shelter Zero and let him live. As a barren omega, Kaien's maternal instinct went haywire when he found Zero on the brink of death at such a young age.
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Present time
Drowning in his sorrow because of Yuuki choosing to be with Kaname in the end, Zero didn’t notice Kaito always visiting him in the last week. His intention was clear. The newly mature alpha of the Yagari pack wants to court him. And Zero was dumbfounded when Kaito stated his purpose in the middle of the Hunter Association annual meeting. Don’t be mistaken, it was their tradition to announce their courting in the forum but it was unheard of that a candidate of Prime Alpha was courting a vampire, a low-level one. Prime Alpha was the next candidate for President of the Hunter Association. Kaito must be crazy. How could he court someone like Zero, a turned wolf, where Kaito Takamiya was such an excellent hunter from a young age. In his vein is the blood of the Dire Wolf, the first ever that walked on this earth, as old as the Kuran’s pureblood prince. Another thing that Zero overlooked was that his heat was approaching in full force as his wolf awakened and matured, fighting his level E and vampiric side to shreds.
Zero’s Bedroom
Zero was writhing on his bed, his body temperature rising gradually. He felt like something was crawling under his skin. After his last feeding session with Kaname yesterday there is this lingering feeling that Zero can’t pinpoint. He just brushes it off as their graduations are near and Yuuki is going to leave with Kaname. His best friend going to leave him. Left him alone on his birthday in a few days. Also, the day when all his family and his twin were brutally slaughtered was twenty years ago but the pain was still fresh. As if it just yesterday
Zero didn't notice that he had emitted a strong scent of ripe omega wolf in heat since his last two feeding sessions with Kaname. It was mild at first, Kaname noticed that Zero smell had changed, from the typical scent of the fresh cotton to the level as if level D was dousing himself in perfume, and a feminine one at that. Zero smells like freshly bloomed lilac with a hint of white flowers and vanilla. A pleasing scent, if Kaname was honest. Entirely different from Yuuki, she had this enticing smell but mainly came from her blood being a pureblooded vampire. But Zero, Zero awakened something primal and dangerous to Kaname. The ancient purebloods didn't want to admit it, but Zero smells like an omega wolf, in its prime. But he can't prove anything since the boy flies faster than light when his feeding session is done. Left Kaname with a lingering hunger for a prime omega. But that kind of omega already died with the last Kiryuu bloodline alive, Ichiru Kiryuu. There is no way Zero is prime omega since he was turned into a vampire. Unless by feeding from him, the poison is replenished and Zero wolf is not dead. It means the boy was presenting. And as omega on top of that…… Kaname didn't dare to speculate but if it was what he imagined, Zero was his. HIS TO CLAIM!! Kaname's inner demon roared. His prime omega was back.
Unable to handle the heat anymore, Zero strips down all his clothes and runs the coldest bath in the middle of the night. With the hope that it could calm him down, but this heat was persistent. Zero redressed and headed to the forest, he needed to get to the lake. It was early spring, the lake should be cold enough to calm his burning body. Unaware of slick dripping down from his back entrance, Zero dashed in the middle of the night.
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When Kaito said he was restless, it was understandable, he was imprinting on Zero a few nights ago when the boy was unaware. He knows if Kaito imprinted Zero directly, he would refuse. But there are this pull and his instinct never lies. Zero was an omega wolf, not a vampire. Even if he was a vampire, Kaito going to court him. Nonetheless, he loves Zero for what he is, even with his attitude.
Kaito feels like he needs to get close to Zero, some unexplainable desire running through his veins and burning him inside out.
“Something wrong, kid?” Yagari asked, seeing his successor had been squirming in his seat in the past hour
“No…. it’s…. I don’t know” Kaito said, uncertainty in his words. Yagari arched his eyebrow.
“You sure it’s okay?” Yagari asked once again
“No. I need to be somewhere sensei, please cover me for the Hunter Association tonight” Kaito, unable to contain his uneasiness, shifted and bolted immediately.
"What a brat" Yagari sighed and continued sorting some reports from yesterday's mission.
‘Zero, beloved Zero,’ Kaito wolf hums in agreement, and they need to be near Zero no matter what, he howled, calling for Zero wolf, hoping he would answer but nothing replied.
~On the Other Side~
Kaname was in his study when he felt it. A mating call from a prime omega. Prime omega was as rare as ancient pureblood, presented once in a few hundred years. The last prime omega that peaked their potential was Kaname's late mate. But unfortunately, the boy died because of the Hunter Association's stupidity. Kaname's demon was restless in his cage and tried to break free a few times. Kaname did his best to sate his inner demon, even though he requested Yuuki's blood, but it didn't quench his thirst, making his inner monster angrier. Kaname was aware that his control was slipping, and he let the demon loose. Consequences are damned; let's see where the lord of darkness wants.
Kaname's demeanour was changed immediately. Gone was the gentle, pureblood prince. The Kaname now is the first vampire to walk this earth, the gluttony demon lord of darkness. One of the seven sins, the third king reigns in hell. Kaname's skin was pale as the death himself, his red eyes glowing in the darkness of his study, three sets of blackened wing adore his back the fingertips was darkened as his claws and fangs elongated.
"Onii-sama. Are you inside? I need to talk to you" Yuuki, unaware of what happened inside Kaname's study, decided to go, and she got the most terrifying growl as a reply. Yuuki froze. That is not his brother anymore. That was the ancient Kuran answering her. She always knew that vampire was born from the lord of the damned and the lord was still walking this earth to this day, but the chance to meet him was slim to none, even if her brother was the one hosting the demon. Yuuki gulped. She slowly retracted, she didn't want to show her back to the demon. "G-good n-night m-my lord"
The demon was pleased that the girl was gone. Now, where he left off? Kaname opened all his senses, so look for that enticing smell of prime omega. His rightfully mate. He found that the boy was slowly stripping his clothes near the lake, slowly, his scent was muddled with nature, and the boy must be dipping into the lake already. He flaps his giant triplets off the wing and takes off as fast as the light.
On the other end, Kaito is now fully transformed into a giant werewolf and standing on hind legs. He was howling and howling, but no answer from Zero wolf, and then he sensed it. The archdemon was near him. Kaito jumped into a sprint, trying to catch up with the demon.
The silver-haired beauty keeps unaware that he attracted two prime rulers because of his heat and decides to submerge his feverish naked body into the cold spring lake, staying as long as possible until his lungs allow him to. Zero emerged from the water as the moon shone on him, enhancing the silver-haired omega's devastating beauty. As if the moon goddess herself bless him with her beauty. Zero feels a little bit better with the lake's freezing water; it helps with his feverish skin. But his back entrance getting more sensitive. His back entrance wasn't supposed to be this sensitive. Zero dared himself; using his nimble finger he tried to touch his hole and found it really warm to touch and there was some kind of slick leaking out from him. Zero freak out. He is no longer a wolf and, moreover an omega. That place shouldn't be leaking lubricant right now. If what Zero thought was right, it means he is currently in heat. Zero, trying to reach out to his entrance once more, gather some lubricant in his finger and bring it to his nose, trying to scent it. It was unmistakably the smell of slick that diluted with the lake water. Damn it, he was really in heat and being outside and alone was the worst decision to make. Zero realizes the grave mistake he made and tries to swim to the lake banks before he can swim. Someone caught his hand, the hand that still had a little slick that he scented earlier, a forked tongue was licking his diluted slick, and a satisfying purr was heard.
“What a beautiful, ripe omega. My perfect omega”
Zero froze. He knows that voice very well, but usually, the gentle baritone not gruff and demonic. Before Zero can react, Kaname pulls Zero into his warm embrace and wrap him in a soft, fluffy towel.
“K-Kuran” can’t hide his initial shock, Zero stared into red wine orbs that were usually garnet.
"Sush my omega, I am Kaname, the lord of darkness. But for you beloved, I am your alpha," he purrs, nibling the finger that felt cold in his hand; Kaname bites Zero's finger. A tiny bite was enough to give him information about the beauty in his arm "Zero, my Zero, my dearest heart."
Listening to the vampire lord's undying confession makes Zero's body shiver from the excitement that he doesn't understand. His wolf was in triumph that he managed to attract such a strong and dangerous mate. Zero trembles again, this time he finally can feel and see his wolf. Beautiful wolf with pure silver as his coat and eyes was enticing lilac. He was still amazed that he could feel his wolf, and a terrifying roar redirected his attention. The satisfying purr that lulled him now changed into a threatening growl. In the banks, Zero can see Kaito in his wolf form, staring angrily at the being that held him now. Zero whines in distress, and he tries to get away from Kaname's embrace. He was in heat, and two supreme beings emitting a murderous aura around him. His sweet, inviting scent now turns into cold in fear. The two alpha stunned in silence, they scared the omega. Kaname lowers his murderous intent and starts purring again, and so does Kaito. But both alphas were glaring daggers at each other.
Zero scents haven't changed, he was in distress and Kaname realized this. He summoned his sabre and aimed in Kaito's direction while using his telekinetic power to flee with Zero in hand. Kaito roared in pain, pain because of the damned leech taking away his Zero not from the sabre-laced wolfsbane.
Kaname didn’t bother to return to the Cross academy, he was teleported to his master bedroom in the Kuran mansion. Zero landed in a bed with too much Kaname scent, the scent of ice and ozone, with a hint of rose and wine. Cold and dangerous. Zero scrambled in bed, trying to get away from such dangerous alpha. But Kaname has none; he pulls Zero to his embrace and starts purring, nosing his omega gland on his nape, and Zero is now a mess. His heat came back ferociously, and he started leaking and emitting a strong, inviting scent that had Kaname dizzy with lust. His omega was fertile and ready to breed. Zero will give him a strong heir of his own. The heir to his throne is a vampire king and demon lord.
Kaname started nibbling Zero's neck and down to his spine, Zero was sprawled on Kaname's bed as the vampire groped his plump cheeks and started lapping his entrance hungrily. Zero yelps. The cold tongue on his feverish skin made his heat and horniness come back tenfold, he was in full-blown heat. He realizes that Kaname's tongue dwells deeper and touches the peripheral of his prostate nerves, it feels good but not enough. There is an insatiable itch inside his passage, and his womb is ready to be filled with Kaname's seed. Wait a minute…. Zero is not supposed to be had this kind of thought. He wasn't in a good term with Kaname since he found out his best friend was engaged to her brother. Leeches and their weird tradition. Sensing Zero trying to get away, Kaname declawed three of his finger so he had blunt nails that won't hurt his omega.
Without much preamble, Kaname replaces his tongue with three of his finger and hits Zero’s prostate dead on. The silver-haired beauty arched from the bed his small and cute dick was twitching to live, his sense was overloaded with pleasure and Zero let honest to god moans. It pleased Kaname to no end, he tried to scissor his finger, and Zero velvety walls were welcoming his finger, so he added another one. Zero openly whimpered, he tried to get away from Kaname’s insisted finger on his prostate
“K-kana-Ahn-me… please” Zero didn’t know why he pleading.
"Sush, love, I know" Kaname nuzzled Zero's neck again and lightly bit it. Zero went pliant. Kaname hurriedly undressed, sighed when his erection was finally free, and nothing prepared Zero when the alpha virile scent hit him full force. His body gets incredibly hot as Zero lust reaches a new peak, if possible, his dick goes more rigid in the nest, almost transparent silver hair, the slick pouring from his entrance into his plump cheeks and thigh. Impatient, Kaname scoops some of the slicks to lubricate his aching dick. Kaname flips Zero to his back, positioning Zero legs to circle his hip.
“My beloved….” Kaname kissed Zero hungrily, and the omega was surprised… with the affection he received from the demon. It makes him pliant and his wolf purring in delight. Nothing can prepare Zero when Kaname penetrates him, it is too much, too hot, too big. Zero sense was overloaded and he was confused. That thing is splitting him in two, when he looks down it only halfway in, Zero starts to struggle to let that out.
"No.. noh… no" Zero breathlessly struggle, trying to get away from Kaname's excuse of male genitalia, it only excites Kaname more. Kaname grip Zero hips firmly and slide home. More slick pours out of Zero when Kaname's dick hits his prostate and stimulates his other spot. Like every omega wolf, he had two pleasure spots, one was his prostate, and the other was his gspot near his cervix. Zero screams. The stimulation was too much. His brain turns into mush he can't think about anything else but pleasure.
Kaname, as if he was encouraged, didn’t wait for Zero to adjust to his size, he pulled out slowly and then slammed in without mercy. And then he set a brutal pace, hellbent on bringing Zero to the higher pleasure he can offer. Zero openly sobbing.
Kaname ruined him for good, the pace that Kaname set didn’t give him any moment to break. He was confused, but Kaname was really persistent in drowning him.
"Kaname~! AH!! Slow-ah!! Slower!!..hyah~!!" Zero grips the sheet like his life depended on it, he knew it was impossible to escape from Kaname's grip, but at least he tried. Keyword : Tried.
"Don't go away love, my beloved Zero" Kaname once again nuzzled Zero's neck and pulled him close. Kaname's dick goes deeper than before and now it is touching his cervix. Zero cried.
“P-please... Not Ah! Not that-ngh-no that ah-ah! Place!!” Zero tried to push away Kaname that still had jack rabbiting inside him.
“I can’t do that, Zero” Kaname now gripping Zero hands and using them as his leverage to fuck the boy harder
“Hyaaa~ cuming!! Kaname I’m gonna cum, gonna cum!!” Zero struggled anew, feeling his orgasm building and reaching rapidly. But his effort was nothing to Kaname. He keeps fuck the boy like no tomorrow when Zero was convulsing and shivering as his first orgasm hits him hard and draws out. Zero entrance grows more sensitive than before.
“KANAME!! Kaname, I just cum, stop!! HYAH!! Stop it, stop!! No more I can’t take it, Kanameeh!”
“I’m sorry beloved” Kaname was determined to chase his own release, his movement was uncontrollable and Zero was crying out, begging for mercy as his second orgasm crested. Zero screamed hoarse when Kaname shot his load directly into his womb and his knot started to enlarge and press on Zero prostate.
After years of suppressed wolf and heat, Zero's heat lasted almost a week. His heat only stops when Zero finally catch and Kaname's instinct goes haywire to protect. He even binds Zero with the womb tattoo when he bites down on his omega glands. It means Zero was tied to Kaname forever.
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Zero was seven months pregnant when he had to attend Kaname's appointment as the leader of the Vampire Council. Almost all of the butler of the Kuran household was busy that evening, preparing everything for their king consort. Kaname appointed eight experienced ladies waiting to cater to his mate's needs when he was unavailable. Today was Kaname's coronation but they put it as an appointment because he was the only pureblood alive and no one dared to oppose him. Kaname was dressed in his black suit, with the iconic Kuran's rose cufflink, matching his beloved. Zero was dressed in baby blue formal kimono with roses embroidery on the bottom doubled with lilac-coloured haori for additional warmth. Usually, he always wears a veil when coming to a formal gathering because Kaname will get jealous and could end up in a brawl. But today, Kaname is the one who's asking him not to wear it.
"I want to show the world that this beauty was mine" Kaname smiled as he kissed Zero's lips.
“Hmph, show off” Zero huffed, and Kaname chuckled.
“Kuran-sama, king consort Kuran-sama. The event is going to start. All of them waiting for both of you, your majesty, to walk down the altar and take the vow” the staff bowed down and opened the door
“Shall we, beloved?” Kaname offered his hand, and Zero gladly accepted. Kaname still emits his cold and dangerous scent, but there is a hint of possessiveness, and if you try hard enough, an underlying gentle scent of lilac is there. Zero was beautiful as ever, with him being pregnant, his scent growing more gentle and maternal. That’s when Kaito saw him again, his (once) beloved Zero, in all of his beautiful pregnant glory, in the arm of another man.
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OMG!!! Whoever edit this I FUCKING LOVE YOU. NOW I HAVE FANFIC INSPO
Vampire Knight - Kaname Kuran & Zero Kiryu
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Reblog the 500,000 dollar written check from Seto Kaiba and money will come your way.
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a few reminders because i’m tired and angry
fandom is a hobby, not a form of activism
adult women aren’t inherently creepy for being in fandom and having hobbies apart from raising babies and doing taxes
the vast majority of people pushing back against the worrying trend of instigating harassment over fictional characters and relationships aren’t incest supporters or pedophiles, actually
liking a m/f ship doesn’t make someone a dirty heterosexual invading your space
preferring gay ships doesn’t make you ‘’woke’’ and good
no one owes you a disclaimer that they are a good person who recognizes that their favorite fictional villain’s actions are evil and that they don’t condone those actions irl
liking a fictional villain is in no way comparable to advocating abuse/murder/genocide/etc and you’re a fucking idiot if you believe that
just because a woman is attracted to a fictional villain doesn’t mean she’s promoting toxic relationships or going to end up in a toxic relationship. assuming women can’t tell fiction and reality apart stinks of internalized misogyny
some rando’s a/b/o fanfics have none of the level of influence that popular tv shows and movies spreading propaganda have
no one owes you a detailed description of their traumas and mental health problems
abusive relationships are not the same as enemies to lovers ships
y’all need to chill the fuck out over people, relationships, actions and events that don’t actually exist and learn how to enjoy and discuss them like normal people
fandom is a hobby, not a form of activism
feel free to add more
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I couldnt choose just for one. I love this guys.
Reading Kengan Omega at first was like “who tf is this guy that looks like Ohma?” and then you reach chapter 52 and you are like “wtf is going on?”…WTF IS GOING ON?
Btw im not sure if their color palettes are correct feel free to notify me if there a color wrong
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Ohma: …thank you. For doing this. I know it’s a risky procedure and you could lose your medical license if it goes wrong.
Hanafusa: Oh don’t worry! I don’t have a medical license for them to revoke!
Ohma:
Ohma: wait-
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I am scared
I feel numb, there is nothing that could makes me happy anymore. I’m confused
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So I was curious
I installed t**der yesterday. I just curious what kind of people will match me there. And...... I was pleasantly surprised, to put it simply. And then we talk. Meh. Only one person that really connects to me, as we both curious and trying our luck. But, knowing me, this is leads into nothing. Just a new stranger to talk to.
Now I understand why relationship never works with me. I was scared. Scared of commitment and scared that I don't know these people.
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Love Letter
Day 2
"ah, It just snippet of what I had in my mind and I want to send it to you"
"why?"
"so it safe. In your memory"
"why not my heart?"
"heart is tentative, never chose only to be chosen. But memory is different, when the time is right they're going to surface in front of you brain. Controlling you"
"sounds scary"
"that is why, there is term 'haunted by memories'"
"but when you put it that way, isn't it going to be a negative memories?"
"but you going to keep it for life. Makes me living longer than I should"
"you and your way confessing"
"no, it was my love letter"
"a letter is written not confessed"
"but I wrote it in your memory, as memento"
"what If someday, I lost my memories?"
"letter does not made to be last, does it?"
"but some letter last for decade?"
"because it was physically preserved, but you're my embodiment of preservation. My second chance, my redemption"
"I was never a redemption, just a phase. I am for my self"
"stray from the topic are we?"
"I'm expert on that"
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"...... A small chuckle escape his chapped lips, in between tubes that is his life support, he replayed a certain memories where he writes all those letter to her, unashamed, tagged all her social media for her to notice. Cringe, he know. Because for once, he want to outlive his own, living in someone memory, buried deep within someone heart. Not rotting away six feet under or burned down to ashes. Selfish, he know. But for once he finally know where to address those letter that he writes since he know how to love"
Jakarta, January 3rd 2020
Die
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Dream / Nightmare
I dreamed a lot lately, but mostly just nightmare induced by my bone deep exhaustion, stress and depression.
is it a good dream or plain pure nightmare? let’s say it mixed. I spent my night exhaust myself by reading something or anything on my phone before I sleep, maybe some memories left from my reading materials affect my brain deeply that reflected into my dream.
but recently my dream is funny one, since my mom keep bothering me about marriage and daydreamed about me marrying one of the kpop idol she seems fit with my characters I can’t stop dreaming about marrying Namjoon and having triplet with him. I would be wake up laughing and tell my mom after that and she would agree wholeheartedly.
sigh, even my mom know Namjoon is da man. but how can I get Namjoon when there is only one Namjoon on earth and millions of me? I can’t imagine lah, he is way too far for my league and he didn’t even know me exist. but alas, I love book recommended by him.
I mean he had out of the box but romantic way of thinking, poetic artist that had really good wordplay, also he is one the best lyricist out there. I can’t really move on from Intro : Persona. it just mesmerizing, beautiful and had Kim Namjoon on it.
I think it’s enough, I want to write some fiction before but I just too caught up with my own thinking about me. then so be it. “...and he was there, sitting in a white bench under the sunset, furiously writing on his agenda, small smile gracing his already enchanted beauty. a whisper of her name against his last word, praying that someday, even if just a passer by he can be graced by his love presence, standing there within arm reach, with her usual angry frown and tired face, looking up to him and smile, calling his name. but it just mere a daydream that never come true, his time running low as his heartbeat getting slower, where time never his privilege.... Jakarta, Januari 2nd 2020 with love, D
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2020
sigh. Here we are starting 2020.
I spent my year end listening to this song, funny because I found this song through when I listening to Everglow by Coldplay and.... here dua lipa sung it together with Chris Martin. fyi, listen this song together with Everglow, I feel like they completing each other and I love it.
okay enough about a song, now about my 2020. I want to start my 2020 with 30 Days Write Challenge.
first theme is Dream or Nightmare. Next Post is going to be the start of my challenge!
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30 Day Challenge
I’ve seen a lot of 30 day otp challenge things go around so I decided I wanted to make my own! I’m gonna try to complete it, but knowing me, it may take more than 30 days, whoops. Feel free to interpret these literally however you’d like, though please credit me if you do this!
1.) Dreams/Nightmares
2.) Love Letters
3.) Favorite Place
4.) Party Game
5.) Joking Around
6.) Giving Gifts
7.) Future Together
8.) Pets
9.) Reunited
10.) Dancing
11.) Sharing food
12.) Amusement Park
13.) Affectionate
14.) Sick day
15.) Water
16.) Firsts
17.) Cooking/Baking
18.) Injury
19.) Shopping
20.) Stargazing
21.) Music
22.) Watching Movies/TV
23.) Fantasy
24.) Morning Routines
25.) Road Trip
26.) Nature
27.) Working Out
28.) Studying
29.) Chores
30.) Marriage
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Sad Boi Moment : Seandainya melupakan semudah menghitung 2,3 dan berjalan. Kekurangan dan ketakutan akan selalu menjadi teman salah satu pojok gelapnya hati, yang perlahan menguasai 3/4 dan kamu tidak sadar dan sudah terlambat. tapi apakah Die akan terus-terusan menjadi gadis yang terlambat. I really want to believe in your galaxy as if I was a moonchild. Tapi aku bukan kamu. Karena aku adalah aku, yang masih terkejut bahwa selama ini menganggap dirinya dewasa ternyata belum dewasa. Bahwa pendewasaan masih terjadi di usianya yang ke 24 (kini 25). Yang dulunya melihat dunia hanya berporos pada dirinya, yang melihat hanya dengan dirinya,kini mencoba melebarkan pandangannya, dan ketika kamu sadar bahwa di ruang gelap yang kamu anggap dunia hanya ada kamu ternyata tidak, ketika kamu memutuskan untuk memperluas cahaya di ruang gelap itu dan kamu melihat sesunguhnya kamu telah menginjak-injak beberapa tangan yang mencoba meraih mu, menyalakan cahaya dihidupmu but you dismiss them.
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