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heading to my school job from a gig in my best outfit and the best mood i've been in in a while, thinking "wouldn't it be funny if I met K today?"

the next second, the man is right in front of me with his biggest smile.

WOULDN'T IT ALSO BE FUNNY IF I SUDDENLY GOT RICH----

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it's been half a year since our graduation, but, as i learned today, there is one thing unifying my high school class to this day: collectively simping for our English teacher. we were all in some kind of love with V while she taught us, and it eventually extended to our senior year teacher as well.

i never considered the latter an official TC of mine, but i'd be lying if i said i didn't have the average practicing sapphic's genetically coded crush on her English teacher. :DD

man... what is it about them?

~ S ♡

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funny thing is, where i'm from, this kinda thing is completely normal. at the end of prom, we dance with our friends, relatives and teachers beside our official "date". multiple boys asked our english teacher for a round, for example, and i happened to dance with two of my male teachers at some point as well. it even improved my relationship with one of them.

i did try to find K that night, but he was probably gone from the venue by then. so when i saw him the next monday over, i complained to him about how i wanted to ask him to dance with me. he promised me we would at the next possible event.

we never did, there wasn't really a convenient opportunity, but i'm kinda thankful. he is very obviously not my height, and both of us are awkward. it would have been a bit funny. 😆

~ S ♡

do you ever fantasize about dancing with your tc at prom or are you normal

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honestly, it changed for me as my tc changed, and how i changed as a person.

i honestly didn't really like V's (now) husband whenever i saw photos of him, and copped out of being at the wedding despite being invited, knowing how much it would hurt to be there.

with K, this aspect's way different. he's very private, and mentions his home life pretty rarely. that's probably what drove me to the point that now i'm extremely curious about his wife and i'd honestly love to meet her if i had the opportunity to, or at least just see a picture so i have some sort of idea of what she's like.

maybe it's me having matured in dealing with this thing, maybe it's their different approaches to talking about their respective marriages, maybe it's maybelline, but i don't really have a definitive answer or advice as to how to deal with this. i think it changes person to person. you have to find out what works for you, and give yourself time to settle into it. patience towards yourself and allowing your feelings to be felt is key in coping with any tc situation, that one's for sure.

good luck <3

~ S ♡

how do you guys cope with your tc’s being married/in a relationship like genuinely 😭

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six, surprisingly. maybe i'm not as mental as i thought, huh.

~ S ♡

put a finger down: teacher crush edition

1. if you’ve ever dreamt of your tc.

2. if your tc has ever failed you.

3. if you’ve ever cried over your tc.

4. if you’ve been on a school field trip with your tc.

5. if you’ve written fanfic about your tc.

6. if you’ve know your tc for over a year.

7. if you’ve ever tried to make your tc jealous.

8. if you’ve ever confessed your feelings to your tc.

9. if you’ve ever hugged your tc.

10. if you flirt with your tc.

how many of your fingers are still up?

for me, five !!

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so just recently i've been assigned to read a play, in which, coincidentally, the female lead has my first name, and the male lead has K's. i put it off for a while, seeing i was too shy to even open it, but i decided to rip the bandaid off today and face it.

now. this play is very romantic, and very... well... emotionally intense in nature.

lot of kissing, too.

when i tell you i have never blushed this much in my entire life...

~ S ♡

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December TC Challenge – Week 5 (#26-31)

one final time, courtesy of @depressedcoffeeaholic <3

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26. Do you like them in a romantic sense or in a more platonic way?

Listen up, besties, the thing is... I don't know :"D before we last met, I would have said it was strictly platonic now, but after everything that went down... I honestly don't know. I'm still leaning more towards platonic, but I couldn't state with absolute certainty that that's all it is.

27. Are they a cozy sweater person?

Oh yes, very much. He owns a few.

28. What color looks best on them?

I like him in white, and he wears a lot of it, but honestly, I vote for darker colours. Black, dark blue, deep red. They make the colours of his face (hair, eyes, skin) stand out more. Last time, he wore all black, and let me tell you, I was giggling, twirling my hair, kicking my feet HE LOOKED SO GOOD.

29. If you could see yourself the way they see you, would you take the chance?

For a brief dip into his thoughts, it might be interesting. But I'm fine if it's just any indicator from anyone that he even talks about me when I'm not there. I feel like too much insight would give me room to misinterpret things more negatively than they are intended. ^^"

30. What little habit they have is your absolute favorite?

He has a little box he carries coloured chalk in, and habitually, he forgets it somewhere. Whenever I noticed it and I was brave enough, I'd return it to his office, even though he was never there. I wonder if he ever knew I did it.

31. If it was legal, would you share a midnight kiss with them?

Oh no no no, we're not going there :"D I honestly don't know how I would feel about it. It might be worth a try, were it something that we both wanted, but... I really don't know. So I'll just say I'd probably pass for now.

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happy new year to all of you beautiful, beautiful people!! may it be full of happiness and success, and many fulfilling moments spent with your TCs! love you loads <33

~ S ♡

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December TC Challenge – Week 4 (#19-25)

as always courtesy of @depressedcoffeeaholic <3

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19. What's your TC's staple drink? (if they have one)

Fuck if I know, honestly. I don't even know if he drinks (though he probably does).

20. Is there anything that the two of you have in common? Is there a lot?

I think our sense of humour is quite similar. We're both introverted with the simultaneous inability to shut up, we play sports, and our eye colours look somewhat alike. That being said, I'm a lot more similar to the women in his life. His daughter looks a lot like me, and, at some point, aside from the ex-girlfriend thing you already know, he's compared me to both his daughter and his wife, so I think I might have more in common with them. :"D

(It makes one wonder if that's why he likes me...)

21. Have they ever targeted you directly in class or in the halls?

In class, in the halls, on the street, even (when he was driving and we crossed paths or if we met on the way to school in the morning). That's what kickstarted our friendship-of-sorts. He likes feeling very clever with his jokes and I like to laugh at them. It's been that way even before he became my TC.

22. Have you ever said anything that might have given away your feelings?

I never said it, but I did write it down. He knows of all the platonic ones, and to this day keeps my letter (and a couple others from other students, since they were for this school thing) above his desk to this day. Reminds him of what he's doing this all for, he told me once.

23. Do you dream about them often?

Somewhat often.

24. Is your TC more physically or verbally affectionate? Or not at all?

He was strictly only verbal while I was still in school. If I wanted to touch him, I had to ask. Though I admit, the first time we hugged, he wanted to shake my hand congratulations and I just threw my arms around his neck instead :"D

(disclaimer: i am very brave, but consider the fact that i am also very stupid and FOR THE LOVE OF GOD DO NOT ATTEMPT THIS WITH YOUR TC)

It's obviously different since graduation. He's still mostly verbal, but doesn't tiptoe around touching me if we greet each other or something of the sort. I'm still deciding which one I prefer. :"D

25. If you could (or have), what would you get your TC for Christmas?

These past two Christmases, it was chocolate, and since he has a sweet tooth, I can't go wrong with it. Plus, giving each other food (but mostly me offering him food) was kind of our thing during senior year, so I'm just playing into a habit here.

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whatever you might celebrate, or even if you don't, happy holidays to all of you wonderful people <333 hope you're all having a great one!

~ S ♡

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i dreamt with V last night, something that hasn't happened in a long while.

not physically her, just an email. mind you, we haven't exchanged a single letter in two years. she started out all sweet and excited, praising me up to the heavens, and i couldn't really place it, because that's not her thing.

as i reached the end of the letter, turned out, she was just trying to rope me into promoting, i think, in some way, a plan of hers, or assisting her in it. she dangled the honeypot in front of me just to get my support.

i felt sick.

you know, i have this thing, where my dreams are sometimes premonitions. metaphors of things that may happen to me some time later.

i don't think she'd do this kinda thing per say, but she better not pull anything funny, or i won't be responsible for my actions.

i'm trying so hard not to think of her with malice. to accept i have been to dependant on her, which caused the downfall of what was shaping to be some sort of friendship, that i was also responsible for it. but then signs like this come and... and i can't help but feel like i wasn't the only one in the wrong.

i guess we'll just have to wait and see, don't we?

~ S ♡

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you see, the thing is, that the stuff i posted about, that happened yesterday with K aren't supposed to be crazy (except for the ex-girlfriend thing, cuz what was that about??)

cheek kisses are a common greeting where we're from between acquaintances or distant family. i'd done it just 20 minutes before with a man i don't even like.

the first name basis? although it's the highest honour from a high school teacher, K's not my first to ask that. i have someone i know the whole family of, another whose wedding i attended in the summer, of course i treat them like friends.

the phone number? not common, but also not something other teachers of mine hadn't done before, and i have them to this day.

they are crazy because it's him. because he's someone i never expected to get this far with. because i never got any of this from V while she was my TC, so i never expected to get it from him. but he keeps proving me wrong, time and time again. and i couldn't be happier.

~ S ♡

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Shit's crazy y'all.

so today in the span of about 3 hours while i was visiting my old high school and K:

- he welcomed me with cheek kisses (his initiation entirely!!)

- we swapped chocolates

- spoke a lot about our respective careers

- also about our insecurities and mental health

- talked shit about people at school we don't like and whispered like children while doing it

- i told him about a fictional character i've always associated him with

- when discussing our relationship with each other, K noted how little time we actually spent together as teacher and student, and i actually told him how and when i took a liking to him

- the man actually apologised!! for not remembering as many things as i do

- also compared me to a girl he dated and was very in love with in college, and how she told him something similar to what i said (K, ACTUALLY STOP, WHO SAYS THINGS LIKE THIS???)

- we got interrupted like a dozen times

- spoke for an hour straight, never running out of topics

- found out his age

- as we were leaving for something, he asked me "wouldn't it be easier to just use informal pronouns?" and TOLD ME TO CALL HIM BY HIS FIRST NAME

- we shook hands on that, as is custom

- hugged him a second time

- i asked him if he left school (as that might happen) would he give me means to contact him, and he was like "i'd give it to you now" AND ASKED ME FOR MY NUMBER SO HE CAN CALL ME AND SAVE MINE

- after the thing we both attended, i told him a stupid joke and lost him for a bit as he started giggling (which he never does!)

you can't imagine how grateful i am. and how happy that all of this is happening. i never imagined to get this far. but alas, victory is sweet, i'm very content, and the serotonin of this is gonna last me until i see K again (which is not anytime soon, probably).

what can i say? i know the way to a man's heart. ;)

as always, if you'd read this far, drop a DM, tell me about something nice, and let's gossip about our TCs <3

~ S ♡

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December TC Challenge – Week 3 (#12-18)

courtesy, as always, of @depressedcoffeeaholic <3

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12. Do you prefer emailing them or talking in person?

I don't actually have his email, so in person :"D But I do prefer it that way. More special.

13. Do they have a signature cologne or perfume?

Not that I know of.

14. Is your TC someone you can go to for support?

Absolutely, and I have done it so many times before. I believe it's one of the biggest contributors to us being close, that he saw time and time again how much I trust him.

15. Have you ever pictured yourself with their last name or vice versa?

Oh no, never. And besides, I know someone with my first name and his last so it would be a bit odd. :D

16. Is there anything you don't like about your TC?

That thing where he shuts the world out completely when he doesn't feel like being around people. Which, honestly... mood, but at the same time... yeah. It makes him hard to catch sometimes.

17. Have you ever seen them in a really bad mood?

Not particularly like sad or very angry (pissed off, yes, but not angry), but I have seen him running on like three hours of sleep before and let me tell you, I thought the man was dangerously sick, all glossy-eyed and thin-faced and everything. One of my teachers had me run over to ask him something about the exams we were doing that day. He asks me if I was already done with mine, I told him I was, and he just kept staring at me with a completely deadpan expression for a minute and a half before he realised I asked him a question and I was waiting for his answer. :DD

18. Does your TC ever laugh differently when they're with you?

I don't think he does, but I don't even want him to. Any regular laugh or smile will do, as it was one of my biggest ambitions of senior year to bring a smile to his face as many times as I could. And, seeing that by the end of the year (and ever since then), he would smile immediately at the sight of me, I'd say I did pretty well. ^^

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"you came all the way here, because you noticed me?"

"of course!"

"that's kind of you."

after a year, K still doesn't understand that there's someone around who wants to see him.

not to worry, i'm working on it. i asked him if i could come see him on the last day before christmas break, and he told me when he'll be in.

fingers crossed this christmas goes as well as the last one did~ 🤭

~ S ♡

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December TC Challenge – Week 2 (#5-11)

just as last time, courtesy of @depressedcoffeeaholic <3

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5. What type of winter activity do you think is their favorite?

He feels like the snowball fight type to me, cheeky bastard that he is. :D

6. If you could what book or movie would you recommend to your TC?

I don't think our tastes overlap too much, but, knowing me, I'd probably end up recommending plays. :D I know a good comedic playwright from our country who has some stuff that would be his niche, so probably some of that.

7. What's their sense of humour like? Is yours similar?

He's very sarcastic by nature and just effortlessly funny. And I'd like to believe that we have that in common. :"D

8. What's the nicest thing your TC has ever said to you?

"You won't lose your way. I know it."

(It may not be the nicest, but it's the most meaningful.)

9. What wintery activity would you love to do with them?

I'd love to have back that moment in February when we just watched the snow fall outside the window together. It's one of my most treasured memories with him. <3

10. What do you think your TC's love language is?

I'm kinda feeling acts of service for him.

11. Do you have a quote or poem that you associate with them?

i just found this one recently in a novel originally in my native tongue and it describes him perfectly:

"a wonderful, unforgettable pair of eyes were on me. Sad and blue, understanding and forgiving, gentle and wise were these eyes. They held everything I carry with me from this house."

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november tc challenge this, december tc challenge that. the real tc challenge is for us all to collectively touch grass

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December TC Challenge – Week 1 (#1-4)

courtesy of @depressedcoffeeaholic <3

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1. What music genre fits your TC the most?

He feels like a jazzy guy to me. That or blues.

2. What's your favorite personality trait of your TC?

That he's very attentive and aware of his students' abilities, person by person.

3. Do you think they fit into a certain aesthetic or two? If so, which ones?

Honestly, I can't really think of anything that fits him. :D

4. If you could, how would you comfort your TC?

Just let the man rant. He's a talker if he feels close enough to you, and he'll talk minutes on minutes about something if he really gets going. He mostly regresses into himself if he's in a bad mood, so I think the best solution is to shut up and let him talk it out.

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Serendipity

long post alert (but i promise it's worth it)

there is a person at my old school who's been next to me through thick and thin, always knew how to help me best, that i owe so much to that can't possibly be repaid in a lifetime. well, that list of my debts to her lengthened this morning. you see, i went to see her, but she wasn't around when i expected her to be. in turn, as i turned to walk home, i was faced with someone i could only hope to see. K was there.

walking to school together and chatting in the morning is something we used to do whenever we'd meet outside, so you best believe i jumped to the opportunity. after the greetings, i told him it's been forever [since i've seen him last], and he replies, with the biggest smile: "Thank God," only to follow it up with "You're glad about that, aren't you?" well, mister, the only thing i was glad about was your second question, because that started out as a VERY different conversation –_–"

he barely let me breathe, he immediately asked about me. "How are you really? " and i was just there like oh Lord, he knows i'm a mess. luckily, i had a fair share of good news to tell him and surprise him with, so i felt pretty good about that. i followed up with the same question.

despite telling me first that he's in a rush, he spent long minutes detailing all the shit he doesn't want to do, but has to, about his opinion on current events, even going into what he heard on the radio this morning. he ended his monologue by promptly and very nonchalantly saying "Well, fuck them." and you see, i've heard K curse before, but i still stood there giggling because of how naturally that rolled off his tongue.

the next bit nothing could have prepared me for. just for about half a minute, the grinning, nonchalant mask he put on as we were walking, dropped, and he shared something very personal with me, something i know he wouldn't say to just anyone unprompted. i didn't dare ask for a hug, i didn't want it to come off wrong, but i hope he knows i was very touched and felt incredibly honoured that he wanted to tell me something like this completely of his own volition.

even though, as he said, i found him at the wrong time, he kept repeating that once everything is done with, and he'll have some time, i can come around if i feel like it and we can have a longer chat. i think i'll hold him to his word. i would be stupid not to, seeing he offered it multiple times, practically even asked me to without asking.

but the end was the funniest, most bizarre, sweetest bit.

what he said to me as a goodbye basically translates to "Kisses!" from my native tongue, and it's something you only really say to friends or family, very seldom even to good acquaintances. i don't think i have ever heard this man utter this word before, and i was in a state of shock that after always making an effort to be fairly formal with greetings, he decides to hit me with this in passing, the first chance he gets.

the whole conversation through, i felt spoken to as a person, as a young adult. as me. not once as a student he used to see in shared free periods and even earlier in his classes. i don't think i ever expected to hear him speak to me like that. to have him trust me this much.

it was worth it, gradually showing him all of me, all my happiness and all my pain over the course of the last year. i didn't even dream it would affect him, and yet, now i find him doing just the same to me.

i used to be afraid of him breaking my heart like V did. now i know he never could. and i'm so thankful. for him. for the opportunity. and for finding out that with the right person, things can all work out in the end.

~ S ♡

P.S.: if you've made it all the way down here, thank you. honestly. you're amazing. and if you're already here, drop me a DM or an ask and tell me something nice 🥰