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Hehe and look where we are now almost a month later :3

I think he was trying to warn me hehe

Or maybe prepare me is a better word 🙂‍↕️

Being kind enough to give me a glimpse of what was coming in the future

He must have been plotting on me fr uwu

Y'all I think it's getting real

I think Nirei wants me bad

Cus I had a dream about soft sex w/ him 💓

This wasn't like a movie time before bed type of dream that i was consciously playing in my head (that was with a version of ichigo last night).

But like a wee hours of the morning dream that just flows y'know? Where you're kinda half awake but really not controlling what images your brain is creating.

We were in missionary and he was looking at me with a deep yearning, with this softness, like his heart was in my hands, like i hung the moon and the stars. And I softly moaned his given name (Akihiko).

Ichigo, Mydei, Yuno, and Boothill have been the men bouncing around and taking turns filling my head, but Nirei is trying to make his way in there rn methinks...

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Omg I am COOKING on the circumstances of the twyrei confession rn but the energy to write…. 🫠

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Umemiya who is standing in front of you, frustratingly trying to explain how he cannot stop thinking about you. How his every thought is consumed by you. How he can't walk past a window without thinking about if you would prefer the weather today. Or how he can't brush his teeth in the morning without wondering if you wet the toothbrush before or after you put the toothpaste on it.

Umemiya who clenches his hands into tight fists and stares at his feet when he asks if you consider him a friend or just a gang alliance in preparation for the rejection.

Umemiya who has always been the one everyone looks up to, the one who takes care of everyone else standing before you and asking YOU to take care of HIM.

Umemiya who is afraid of being alone, of everything he holds dear being wiped out in seconds again, who cannot stomach the thought of losing you in this way.

Umemiya who has spent so much time running from and filling the silence in his mind with other people's problems that the silence you bring with your calm and comforting aura is not only soothing but eye opening for him to understand that he has not fully healed and that’s okay.

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Today thoughts plagued me about taking Nirei in the amazon position and how hard he would nut if I did

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#togace moodboard

miscommunication; novelty coffee mugs; sunsets; high-strung gf x easy-going bf; broken prescription glasses; bloody hands; meticulous plans x vibes; board games; misguided attempts at impressing one another; a motorcycle; ghost-like touches; loungewear; bribery & blackmail (shhh....); a quieting hand on the back of another; exotic tea blends; the curative properties of human connection

"I will follow you wherever you lead me."

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Just now realizing that there's definitely a.... *waves hand* cognitive dissonance to the WB s/i.

Because Ace Latimer -> diplomats' daughter; trust fund & private (overseas) school kid; definitely had to wear make up and dresses growing up; has a healthy relationship with her family; definitely has to make an effort to cover up her scars and/or bruises for family dinner on Sundays + the occasional fundraising event

But Ace Kakari -> has a deeply, deeply warped perception of 'freedom'; is literally on the verge of a mental break-down like 50% of the time; loves her friends and would literally die for any of them; does not know how to apply make up, is uncomfortable in dresses, and has to put on a façade to go on a date with a boy she likes; is a bit of an enigma? (but that plays into the control = freedom aspect: she controls the information others have about her so that she has the freedom to be herself)

And it's not like there's a definitive split between the two—Latimer shows herself in Kakari through her contacts and seemingly bottomless pockets and philanthropy; Kakari shows herself in Latimer whenever someone touches her and the way she can get lost in her thoughts (her parents dismiss inquiries about her as her just being "creative" and "insightful") and her coffee addiction.

There's an inherent barrier between her and the Minxes + anyone else on that side of her life. Kiryuu is the only one that knows, but when he first hears her introduce herself as "Kakari" to someone, he understands and plans to take her secret to his grave.

And it's not that she's afraid of someone taking advantage of her money/connections—they can already do that without knowing who she really is. There's a little bit of fear about the safety of her family, but that's less related to Kakari's world and more about the nature of being diplomats. I think the real fear lies in being perceived differently from who she chooses to be.

Lying and secrets aside, she's afraid that if the Minxes/Togame find out who she really is, that they'll treat her differently. She'll no longer be Marq's right hand, the one that picks you up from the lock-up, the one that you don't talk to before her first cup of coffee, the one that you know is always waiting on the sides of a fight to make sure everyone stays safe—instead she'll be rich, spoiled, a snob, untouchable.

It's happened time and time again, all throughout her childhood and well into her adulthood (she tried to find an "acceptable" boyfriend to have on her arm at fancy dinner parties, she really did)—the second that people realize that not only is she a Latimer, she's one of those Latimers, everything changes.

And boy howdy, does she hate change.

Honestly, she as an OC/self-insert is rotating in my mind just as much, if not more than, the actual selfship with Togame 😅

@weird-dere-fics, @katsulock, @kweenkatsuki-fics

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I love you.

Dickstracted had me internally crying laughing btw HAHAHAHNSKSJSKSJS. Also CRAZY how you lay it on thick with me but the boi gets the chill treatment smh /j. But like,,, him truly being enamored with me and the things I do from the start? 🥺🥺🥺

He is so loverboy what if I frew up 😞💓💓💓💓💓💓

Also, after our first time when you come to crash at my place after meeting up with Nirei, you will find that we did both end our experience satisfied mhm mhm <3. Not only that but I will share with you that I actually cried once reaching that tipping point (cumming) and after. Because I just felt like I was overflowing. He was so so good to me and I almost couldn’t believe things really happened like that and that it was with someone as special as him. You stamp the future wedding as meant to be in your head bc I mirror his sentiment about not wanting to share this feeling with anyone but him.

But also you wonder how I go from heart full crying to head empty 🎶 I just had sex 🎵 gif LMAO. And I tell you about how he held me after, kissed on me, allowed time to let the feelings pass. We start murmuring to one another about the experience and I suppose the endorphins kinda just start hitting bc we end up giggling together. And after that is when I roll over to text you the good news lol.

What I don’t know is that after I fall asleep in his arms, Nirei finds himself crying similarly to the way I did earlier, heart full. And I think just remembering the vulnerable moments from both he and I is what had his eyes going glassy in the café before he left.

AUGH and for the final revelatiioooonnnnn. The way my little heart gets to beating at Nirei’s gestures OH EM GEEEEEEE. The way he rests his hand on my lower back to steady me 😩. THE WAY I TREMBLE FROM THE KISS ON MY SHOULDER HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE 😩😩😩😩😩😩. Gawd he’s so loving in THEE hawtest ways ever bro. How are you making me wet by taking care of me sir this must be ILLEGAL.

JSKDJDKDJ the monkey shock I’m rolling 🤣. It’s so sweet tho that Sakura is a little concerned/protective of me :3. Still lowkey funny he gets that flustered with how many times he’s hooked up with u tho HEHE. But I suppose being in the moment yourself and imaging close friends doing it is a bit different hm? Especially for him LMAO.

Me when my man and my friend are best friends and both love me frfr <333333. The ending dialogue is SAUR silly and I love it to the moon and back teehee <3.

Kail these tags have been living in my brain all night and day and I have questions/thoughts 👁️👁️

Mainly stemming from the fistbumping my guy part 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

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thoughts owo

1) You and Nirei are besties, so I figure after he and I have our first time together, you would be one of the first, if not THEE first to know, yes? 👀 How do you imagine that would go? What would he say to you?

2) After twyrei’s sex life is more established, how do you come to gain the knowledge of the first time he has me like in the post you put those tags on?

Does he mention it at some point if you asked about me or how things are going between him and me?

Or maybe one day you call him early in the morning bc you wanna set up plans in the afternoon for a twyrei + kailruka/lilyblossom double date? You try him bc he’s more of a morning person than me. But when he answers his voice is surprisingly riddled with sleep. You end up piecing together and teasing that he must have been busy last night~ and force him to spill the beans later?

Perhaps we’re already all hanging out and about somewhere? Sakura notices I have a bit of a limp and thinks maybe I’ve been in a fight or somehow got injured and brings it to your attention. And when you begin to notice it for yourself you have to hold in your devilish smile and laugh, pulling Nirei aside at some point to get all the juicy details?

Could it be something else entirely?

Do you somehow get the info from me instead??

What do you envision? :3

I SMOOCH U 💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋

Hiii Twyla Love. Hehehe I’m so glad the Nirei brainrot is taking hold he’s just a sweet guy who deserves all the love and orgasms in the world lol.

tagging (no pressure to read or reply tho) @aceofbooks-creative-anthologies & @kweenkatsuki-fics

Hmmm I would say Nirei and I are the kind of friends who knew each other at a young age but didn’t really connect on a “close friends” tier until we ran into each other again as young adults/when I meet people from Furin. We run into each other and immediately hit it off. Long story short, we meet up for a weekly “coffee and catch up” session at a cafe spot that isn’t Kotoha’s shop so we can talk about anything and everything with each other.

(Also in my head, I ran into Nirei while out and about in Makochi one day, a few weeks before Sakura drops by the hotel and we meet for the first time. I immediately text Akihiko to get the tea on the guy who dropped by, and when he gives a raving review on Sakura, that’s when I decide to be nicer around the dude lol)

Also also, now that I am responding to this after more wbk Twyla lore has been dropped, I definitely treat Nirei to coffee and a pastry the next morning after you two meet for being the bestest friend ever who got you home safe and sound. (I was unfortunately a bad friend who got dickstracted T-T).

So at this coffee date that is after the Twyrei first meeting, I am asking Akihiko how his night went, trying to gauge his initial thoughts on you as a person. He’s polite when talking about the conversations you two had, but I notice the way Nirei’s body language and posture gives away his excitement when talking about your interests and clothing style and it has me cheesing at him while nodding and sipping on my own drink.

Unlike how forward I was with you last night about Nirei being “very single and available”, I just talk to Nirei a little bit about how awesome you are at helping out the Minxes with your graphic design and incredible cooking skills. Cue me shoving my phone in Nirei’s face to show off the Yummy Eats and Twyla Art 💜 photo albums I have saved. It honestly just makes me excited to brag about my friends, and Nirei is such a sweetheart who will match my energy in excitement about certain things. But the way he looks truly awestruck at the graffiti and public art pieces that he’s being shown, that look of wonder is all him. I definitely encourage him to seek a friendship with you (with my fingers crossed that it leads to something more down the road hehehe).

Okayyyy now timeskip to the coffee date after your actual first time together :) ->

Technically I am the first to find out (to my knowledge) and it’s because of you, Twyla Love.

I’d like to think I am getting the “Gurrrrrrllllllllllll guess what” text from you or the 🎶I just had sex🎶 reaction gif as a message from you in the middle of the night that has me immediately trying to call you (which you do not answer bc fair. lol). But I would definitely send you voice messages of me cheering you on and I’m texting Nirei that his ass better be at the cafe at 11 (two hours later than usual, as a gift) so I can hear everything or else.

So Nirei meets me at our usual spot, and he’s wearing a bucket hat paired with orange-tinted sunglasses, as if that is going to hide his flustered blushing from me. He sits down and I whip out my own notepad n pen combo and ask “So, what’s the timeline for a Twyrei wedding looking like? Are we thinking two springs from now, or three?” Akihiko just gives me a can you nottt look, and I calm down a bit with my teasing. (The future wedding question is me getting back at him for asking a similar thing after I was out with him and Sakura and before Sakura parted ways to go on patrol I had said “I love you” to him. In public. Insane behavior.)

In all honesty, I don’t bother him too much for the explicit details of what went down beyond me lowering my gaze and giving him a 🤨🤨🤨 look while ensuring both parties were satisfied at the end of the night’s activities (I plan to confirm with you later when I crash your pad after coffee with Nirei <3).

More than anything, I let Nirei voice the thoughts he had been carrying about the experience as a whole and how non-anxious he felt during the actual moment. Not gonna lie, it’s pretty sweet the way he talks about it like an analysis he would have of a person or a notable fighting crew, like he’s eager to share knowledge with someone who is willing to listen. It’s super cute.

“Yeah, sex with a partner that you feel safe enough to keep talking to and voicing questions during sex feels really nice. Although,” Nirei’s face scrunches up as he recalls a specific memory, one that has him a little lost in the moment. His ears are turning pink as he speaks again, “there were a few moments in the night and this morning where it was less actual talking and more, uhhhh being vocal as a reaction to certain things. Ahem.”

My grinch smile is in full effect as a response to this rambling hehehe.

We’d just have a very open convo about sex and how it made him feel to share such an intimate moment with you. (I wouldn’t tell you this next part, but his eyes do get a bit glassy at the end of our meetup as he gushes and just talks about how much he loves you and that “yeah, I don’t wanna share this feeling and with anyone but her.”)

For the second twyrei sex-life revelation ->

I am giggling imagining Sakura frowning with concern over your wellbeing while the four of us are browsing a local market on the weekend. Your limp isn’t one that’s too obvious, only a slightly awkward walk that one would notice if you’re really paying attention. Sakura of course mumbles his concern about your health to me, as he doesn’t want to ask himself.

At first, I brush it off and think that maybe your leg is acting up because the weather is shifting or something. But then I observe you for a bit and realize you are putting your weight on your right leg/the limp is brought on by the other side. Then I see the way Nirei keeps placing his hand on your lower back as we’re walking around. Not just to be affectionate, but to also guide you along and make the awkward walk you are doing less noticeable. And the way your body ever so slightly trembles when he leans in to kiss along the top of your shoulder.

There is one final clue that has my jaw dropping open before snapping shut and makin a mental note to fist bump bestie Nirei later when we aren’t in public. It’s a sunny and moderately warm day, and when you move your hair off your neck to put it in an updo real quick, I spot a reddish/mauve mark peaking out just barely above the collar of your top in the middle of your back. A hickey.

Me when I process Nirei put Twyla through the mattress less than 12 hours (if that) ago before they both came out on a date with me and Sakura:

Sakura when he thinks you got bruised from a fight but I quickly calm him down and murmur “Nahhh, babes. That’s a love bite”

Also also when you and Nirei start officially dating, half of our time at our coffee meetups is just us gushing to one another about how beautiful our partners are. And we hype the other person that’s bragging/add onto it too.

Nirei, scrolling through pics on his phone of you posing and also just being candid while smiling in different outfits: “Twyla is so gorgeous. Oh my god.” He thuds his head on the cafe table in yearning.

Me: “Dude I knowwww, she’s a literal goddess walking amongst us. You’re welcome for helping you bag a baddie, by the way.”

Nirei, who sits back up and raises a brow: ??? “How did you help? I’m the one who asked her out.”

Me: “Bruv you literally had the cutest first meeting with a sweet little moment of walking her home because of me.”

Nirei: “And you literally abandoned your introverted friend at a party where she hardly knew anyone else to jump into Sakura’s pants.”

Me: …

Nirei: …

Me: “okay. So. You have me and Sakura to thank for twyrei having a meet cute.”

ansjsjsbbsjsksk sorry this took a minute to respond to, I hope some of it makes sense!

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when i can see stright i am jumping head first into your selfship lore. im so curious bc your selfship posts are are always so cute

Viiiillll omg hiiiiiii I hope you’re doing okay, my lovely!! 🥺💖

I kith u 💋💋💋💋💋💋💋

Hehe when you get to it, i hope you enjoy it as much as I do <3333333

How have your blorbos been treatin’ you? 👀

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SIIIIIIGGGGGGH Akihiko Nirei the man that you are 🧎🏾‍♀️

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Okay so in this post I previously talked a little bit about Nirei and I’s first time doing the do together (we are both virgins <3).

But I was thinking, considering new lore I created and dropped today, what if that time actually wasn’t the first time we tried to do that together? What if it was actually our second time?

Bc now I’m thinking about that leg sleeve (mentioned in this post from earlier today) that girl gang Twy has and Nirei’s first time seeing it.

I’m thinking we’ve been kissing and doing a little heavy petting, y’know, just lovey dovey yet hawt foreplay type stuff. We both start taking our clothes off of each other. Get down to his underwear, and me in my panties and thigh high black socks. He pulls the first sock off my left leg, but it’s when his fingers hook into the lip of the right one that I suddenly feel my blood run cold, remembering what’s there. A part of me I treasure, but always hide.

A part of me knows the part of the tattoo on my hip and stuff have already been shown absentmindedly, but like to reveal the whole thing now suddenly seems so terrifying in my brain. What if this completely turns him off? What if he gets scared? What if he starts to question if I’ve lied to him about being part of the minxes? About if I’m really part of the Yakuza or something? What if he doesn’t want to see me again after this?

My eyes quickly blur with tears as he pulls it all the way down and off of me. I’m frozen, breath shaky, watching with bated breath for the reaction of disgust or fear that is surely coming.

But he never makes such a face. He just looks at the art, caresses my skin for a few moments.

It gets to point where I can’t take it. I have to try to explain this before he looks up at me to tell he can’t be seen with me again.

“N-Nirei-kun… I-I”

Before I can even wobble out the beginning of some vague version of what happened to me, he leans down and he kisses my skin. A long, soft press of his lips against my knee. And from here he just keeps going. Taking over an hour as he just kisses every bit of ink he can reach up and down my leg.

And it has me absolutely crumbling, silently sobbing into my hand and sniffling as he continues to just lavish me with such tender care. I am an absolute mess by the time he stops and finally looks up at me. And when he does, all I see is his kindness. A depth of care— dare I say love— unshaken by what he’s seen.

And he simply murmurs to me, “You don’t have to tell me why, It’s okay.”

Gawd, and it just makes me want to start bawling all over again. My heart is doing flips in my chest as I drown in whatever this hold is he has on me. How could he possibly read me like this? How could he know my worries so well without me saying them?

“I-I… I-I w-want… to t-tell you….”

He comes up to my level and gets closer to me, reaching up to caress my cheek and wipe my tears.

“You can, but you don’t have to right now. Okay?”

It feels like something else unsaid rings in the air and sits heavy on his tongue, but he doesn’t say it as he searches my eyes for something.

The unsaid thing is an “I love you.”

When his eyes settle, he leans in and kisses me, gently, pouring that sweet something into me as he pulls me closer.

We don’t end up going further as we planned. We just hold each other and breathe, soaking up the other’s presence.

As I lay my head on his chest, I am only thinking one thing.

“He is everything to me.”

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Once again tagging the girls bc the thoughts just aren’t stopping today nwolnfreniktbikfrknkw. @katsulock @kweenkatsuki-fics @aceofbooks-creative-anthologies

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i haven't put out this much selfship/self insert stuff in a day in a long ahh time, if ever

i am proud <3

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Two hearts talking ❤︎₊ ⊹

A twyrei moodboard ❤︎₊ ⊹

🩷 "I had never met a soul that could speak my language. Until there was you. You, are fluent in me." 🩵 "You have the sweetest soul I've ever seen." 🩷 "I'd say you remind me of home. But unlike home, you make me feel safe." 🩵 "There's always a home for you here in my heart. I'll leave a light on." 🩷 "How can i say "I would do anything for you" but make it sound casual?" 🩵 "If I'm being honest it was a disturbingly short amount of time between meeting you and wanting to say "I love you." 🩷 "When we first met, I was not looking for love, I was running away from it. But you were so kind and gentle that I felt my heart slowly opening up to you. And before I knew it, I was head over heels in love with you." 🩷 "With you, intimacy colours my voice. Even 'hello' sounds like 'come here." 🩵 "Let your colors bleed and blend with mine." 🩷 "Everything I've always wanted is in you." 🩵 "You are dearer to me than myself." 🩵 "I promise to plant kisses like seeds on your body, so in time you can grow to love yourself like I love you."

ℹ️ conversation via quotes from pinterest

📞 @katsulock @aceofbooks-creative-anthologies @kweenkatsuki-fics :3

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no stop cus why am i sitting here crying fr working on another twyrei post

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you and nirei 🥺🥺🥺🥺 please tell me more i know you’re so cute together

I love heem so bad Amiwa, you have no idea <3333

Before I get started, allow me to share this with u uwu.

Now I suppose a good place to start would be how he and I met. And I can most assuredly say that this happens because of the dastardly Kail (@katsulock) srbufiorhbuibrejkf.

After I decide to join Marquie's (@kweenkatsuki-fics) gang, each member tries to help me out in certain ways. I mention in my intro post that I like to explore and experience things, do fun stuff y'know. But see, I always do those things by myself.

Kail up and decides it will be her duty to start helping me be more social. Because I haven't really made friends since moving to Makochi. Sure I'm friendly with the townspeople and such, but I don't leave my house to spend time with others like ever. Just for necessities and work activities, etc. All my friends are most often at the girl gang HQ a few towns over in the pleasure district, which takes some traveling.

She lowest of keys makes this social thing like an ongoing homework assignment. I am mandated to attend social events at least 3 times a month and share proof with her via pics or videos n a rundown of what happened at the event. She will cross check my ass with other sources to make sure I'm not lying too 😶. Not that I would lie about being there, but to make sure I wouldn't go in, take a few pics, n dip immediately.

I comply with these demands, but I mostly just go and be a wallflower; people watch. But I suppose it's marginally better to be there and not do anything than to just be cooped up at home? Like yeah I could be doing something else I want to do at the moment, but at least I can kinda become familiar with some faces, even if I don't actually talk to them this way?

So the end of a given month is coming up and I have only been to two events so far. And Kail is reminding me the clock is ticking, but like girl I am nawt seeking these things out, and none have happened to fall into my lap recently. I just tell her I don't have any events I know about going on and ask if I can just skip the third one this month.

She gives me the ultimatum of going to a party right in Makochi where I live that she will be attending (meaning I won't have to send her proof n stuff with her being there) OR I could bake three big cakes of Marq's choice for the ladies that come to take refuge in the hotel/HQ.

GAWD and I'm so cooked bc I would totally bake the cakes no question, but the thing is for the ones I know Marq would probably choose I do not currently have all the ingredients I need on hand. And I don't really have the money to get them at the moment either. I don't feel I have enough of a rapport with the people around town to ask for that kind of favor, and I refuse to take any funds from the hotel/HQ bc those should be saved for resources for those ladies the cakes would be for.

I, as someone who is not a party girlie, am left with no choice but to attend this party AUGH 😔. On the day of, I meet up with her and am introduced to her boyfriend, Sakura. Once we're together we head out for the party, where apparently a bunch of the groups from around the area will be intermingling.

As expected, once I am at the party, I am a wallflower. I stay to myself and out of the way, mostly. People don't make an effort to talk to me and I like it that way. As the event goes on, I people watch and there's this one guy going around who I'm kind of... enamored with? There's this joy about him I see as I watch him and it warms me. I go from shifting my gaze around from place to place to mostly focusing on him. Something about his earnest smile makes me curious, but I have no intention of acting on anything.

Via eavesdropping I hear he's a affiliated with the same group as Kail's bf Sakura. I murmur to myself that they must be close friends then. And that's when Kail appears out of nowhere and starts dropping deets all about him, somehow knowing it was him I was murmuring to myself about (I say somehow thinking she wouldn't have noticed my ass eyeballing him for the duration of the party). Like how dare this gremlin so merrily fluster a gentle giant just minding her business???? /j

But like the events in that link about her dropping deets occur and that's how we start talking.

I cannot overstate how much of an impression he makes on me that night. Because to me it feels like the first time I have ever been so easily humanized or accepted possibly in all my time in Japan...? (including even by my own family here)

I am so used to the first thing people noticing and commenting on being either my race, my height (being tol), or that someone who looks like me speaks Japanese so well. If they don't verbally say it, it can still be seen via their expressions and in their eyes. And it's not that this experience is always negative, but sometimes I just wanna be normal, y'know?

The very first thing Nirei notices and talks to me about when he comes up to me is my star shaped glasses. Not something that I can't control about myself, but something I choose. Like everything else everyone naturally brings up doesn't matter. Not that I'm almost a head taller than him, not the color of my skin, not my 4c hair, not my body shape, not how I speak. No, he zeroes in on one of the ways I choose to express/present myself.

And it's like in seconds walls start crumbling... Because it's something I didn't realize I was searching for for so long. I almost cry, but play off my watery eyes as a result of me being a little tired. It makes me feel so safe that falling into a conversation with him is easy.

Now at the time, I didn't really understand all this. No, I didn't realize why this was until much much later on when I reflected on that day we met, after we had become closer.

I didn't know if it was because someone I was actually curious about decided to come talk to me. I didn't know if it was just the way he spoke. I didn't know if it was the expression of a pure and genuine interest on his face. I didn't know if it was because I wasn't forced to think about how we're different. I didn't know if it was because I never thought a conversation could be so simple; not intimidating. I just knew whatever this was felt good.

So when I was ready to leave and Kail was still off somewhere getting that blossom dick (HEHE), I let Nirei take me home, and we exchanged numbers. Cus he is definitely someone nearby that I would love to get to know. One of the few people who I liked the idea of actively taking a part in becoming friends with.

Over time we end up becoming closer and closer until he eventually confesses (cus Lord knows I wasn't gonna ANDOELNORENOR)

Currently cooking on a kind of emotional moment or situation that starts building this desire in him to wanna do so, with all the depth and feels n stuff rn <3.

(also tagging @aceofbooks-creative-anthologies cus even more loooreeeeee love u 💋)

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How did gang marq & ume meet? 🌚

Nanaaaaaa reee thank you for asking...

So we meet because Ume pops in to help my usual delivery guy who drops off all the linens and towels for the hotel after they've been laundered.

In my head the little podunk pleasure district the HQ is in is only a few towns over from Makochi. And for some reason my usual delivery guy is sick and his back up also can't make it and the back up's back up ALSO can't do it so somehow helpful friendly Umemiya offers to deliver the linens.

So i do NOT expect him when I come out to get the linens and i see him hop out of the truck because he wants to help bring the stuff in and im immediately like "who the FUCK are you? you do NOT belong here. get the FUCK out." shgcdjdsvc

And Ume being Ume is immediately enamored, one because I look out of place obviously being a tiny lil black women. But also I am fucking feisty and immediately ready to beat his ass and he...is like the dumb guy who is still going pspspspsp to the hissing cat.

Anyway, he does get a chance to explain to me that he's the back up back up back up driver for the delivery and I calm down a little bit. he tries to insist that he helps to bring in the linens but I do not let him cross the threshold into the hotel. he tries to make small talk and be a gentleman and smile a bunch and i am NOT having it.

I do thank him, like im not rude, just prickly and i want him to get out of there as quickly as possible because while he's standing there waiting for us to unload the truck he is watching me intensely and i hate it because he is making me feel very exposed like he can already see past all my walls.

once the truck is finally emptied I hurry him back into his truck and give him his payment as well as a big hefty tip that he smiles and thanks me for. Our hands brush against each other and we have that cliche moment where we look into each other eyes for a sec after our hands touch and he goes "Thanks for the tip. Hope I see you around again." And i look him dead in the eyes and say "You're welcome. And you won't. Don't come back here."

And of course he doesn't listen but after that first time we meet we are always on each other's mind. He loves it, i find it EXTREMELY annoying lmaooo.

[weird-dere-writes]

Hello I am hereeeeeee

ok ok FIRST tell me how you and I meet for girl gang. Do i find you or do you find me? OR do you find Ace and Ace brings you to me? I must know the origin story.

and then SECOND Nirei is your boo, yes? How does gang Twyla meet sweet Nirei?👀👀

Hiiiiiii dearest Marquie <333333

This yap sesh is doozie beloved, pls prepare ur eyes. Very fat lore drop here. I'll be saving the second part about how Twy n Nirei meet for another post n tag you cus this is really really long.

Also I assumed by "pleasure district" you meant the same one roppo ichiza is in???? But like lemme know if that's wrong and ignore their mentions below if so LMAO

cw: alcohol, parental death lore, mention of SA in passing

I think we meet because you and a few others in the girl gang come across me crashing out in the pleasure district.

Wbk Twy lowest of keys prefers to stay out of this part of town, but unfortunately passing through it is the fastest and most convenient way to get to one of the only places in this area that sells some of the specific art supplies she needs for her mural projects.

It's not really the place per se that makes her uncomfortable, but the people within it. The nature of such a district skyrockets the likelihood of Twy experiencing her most beloathed character trait: a drunkard.

There are not many things that make chill girl Twy see red, but to see someone, especially a man, belligerently drunk, falling over themselves, yelling, making female presenting people uncomfortable by making unwanted advances or grabbing at them will make her crack and fly off the handle. The combo of making a female presenting party uncomfortable AND yelling at them makes her especially lethal.

Typically when she tries to make her way through as fast as possible, she notices sometimes these guys in suits (roppo ichiza, but she doesn't know 'em like that) will take care of those kinds of people, but they aren't always out and about it seems. She's considered starting to ask them for escort through the area, but never committed.

On one early evening, Marq, you and some other members of your gang are patrolling. The people in the district tonight have proved to have a pattern of being particularly troublesome for some reason or other you've noticed, as the roppo ichiza has been spotted many times taking care of issues. It doesn't bode well for your worry because you're out looking for a girl who was supposed to show up at the hotel/HQ around 2 hours ago.

As you continue to look around for a bit, you hear a a girl calling for help and girl gang rushes in that direction. As you make your way closer you see the girl you were looking for blocked off by a man gripping her arm very tightly, yelling entitled slurred words at her. Hearing him call her a bitch has y'all ready to turn up as you run up, but before any of you can get close enough, someone has already punched his lights out.

That somebody being moi. Guy literally goes flying a few feet and I run after him before straddling and continuing to just hit him, and him him, and hit him while he is on the ground, wordlessly, mindlessly. I can't see his face. I can't hear your voices calling out to me that it's enough.

It takes a handful of people to pull me off of him, and I am fighting to go back to pummel him as I'm being pulled away. When I'm far enough away that I stop trying to fight the people holding me and standing still, I am just panting, tears streaming down my cheeks as I stare at him.

Once you've ensured the girl you were looking for was okay, you come up to me and start trying to speak to me and ask me questions, but I'm unresponsive. So you all just take me back to the hotel/HQ to keep an eye on me for a bit. I sit curled up on a couch in the lobby for a while.

When I'm back in my right mind, I still don't speak much, but I say enough to let you all know I'm fine and I'm going home (trip to the place for art supplies be damned bro). Y'all are reluctant to let me go, but do end up sending me off. Ace makes sure I don't leave without a business card for the establishment and a short run down of what it is and what it stands for so I hopefully come back for help etc. But you really can't see yourself letting me leave without something more concrete. So you take my phone, put in your contact info and call yourself so you have my info. So you can reach out to me and keep your eye on me frfr. Even if I don't end up ever responding to you, it makes you feel better that you can.

I'm silent for the first two weeks you try texting and calling, but eventually start responding. It's small stuff at first. One word text responses, hums as responses to yes or no questions on the phone. I start to open up more the as time goes on, and eventually find myself showing back up at the hotel HQ.

You start to notice that when you invite me to places in the district, I always ask for something nonalcoholic to drink, and most often do not drink it unless it is given to me in it's original packaging. If it comes in a cup or glass, you always see me do a sniff test before drinking. Even if it is actually nonalcoholic, if it smells sus enough I will send it back and ask for water. But you notice I only do this at places in the pleasure district. If we go out in another sector of town I am completely normal frfr.

Much like Suo with food, if I am invited to drink, I always politely decline or give my drink to someone else. If people around really keep encouraging me to drink, I will lift it to my lips and swallow as if to taking a swig, but nothing is getting into my mouth. Wipe my lips after. I've gotten really good at faking it, and usually one "sip" is all it takes to assuage people from remembering my glass sitting there untouched for the rest of the time at the gathering.

At first I go to these events because you invited me and I know you care, but after a certain point, depending on the place, the services it offers, what time we're going, the kind of people I would typically think would go there, where it is, etc., I will kindly say hell no I am not going and catch y'all next time :))))).

All this combined with what happened that first night you met me, you figure it has something to do with my past. You n the girls are sitting together one night discussing it. Your guess is I had an alcoholic in my family. Kail's is that maybe it wasn't a family thing, but maybe I was trapped or taken advantage of before, working in a place similar to this district (but more seedy). Ace hates to bring up the thought, but what if I was assaulted... by a drunk person like that? A few others in the gang who have met me throw out their speculations too. It just sucks not knowing because it could really be anything.

One day it just me n you three hanging out somewhere at a pretty location watching the sun set. And Marq you decide to gently broach the subject, because you all want to understand how to best help me and make sure I'm comfy better when we hang out. Because you don't have to be in the pleasure district to experience those kinds of people or situations and you all want to be prepared to protecc me if I am with you.

I am silent for a few moments, but I end up opening up to all of you. I reveal to you that a few years after moving to Japan that my father was killed in a car accident by a drunk driver, and I was in the car with him at the time. I was just a kid. My mom was at home at the time, and we were on our way back.

⚠️⚠️⚠️ [gets more detailed/graphic, tragic, disturbing, blood boiling beyond this point until you see more caution tape]

I tell you that the drunk driver's truck was only minorly damaged while our car basically got crumpled and my dad's side got the worst of it. We were both trapped in the car. My ears rung after the impact and after my brain started catching up to what happened, the smell of smoke in the air. I was coughing, could barely move, then realized my leg was uh, nawt doing very well as I started to feel it. Started screaming bc it hurt like hell and i had never felt anything like it. Once my hearing was coming back, between screams and sobs and I registered the sound of my dad grunting and gurling. Looked over to see him bleeding out of his mouth, eyes rolling back. He was trapped trapped. I don't think I could have registered he was crushed at the time, but I knew for sure he was not gonna able to move.

I'm crying more now, trying to reach out to him, to help him look at me, to respond to me, something. I'm scared, I'm confused, everything hurts, my dad is definitely hurt. And amidst all this mess....

The drunk bastard who caused it all had the nerve to stumble his way up to my dad's side of the car and start yelling about how my dad needs to watch where he's going and how his barely damaged truck needs fixing he can't afford, calling him out his name as if our car hasn't imploded with 2 people inside it.

I am screaming and crying trying to reason with this man that my dad is hurt, that he we need help, that he needs to please call someone, I want my mommy, I wanna go home.

Drunk bastard's focus goes from my dad to me and he starts calling me a bitch as I continue to try in vain to have him hear me. My incessant interruptions of his tirade have him so angry he comes around to my side of the car and he punches me through the window a few times until I'm dizzy and stop screaming.

As he's walking back to his truck and other people and help finally start to arrive, I am sitting there about to pass out, tears streaming down, listening to the last rattling breaths of my father next to me.

When I next wake up in the hospital I am eventually made to know that my dad died after ceaselessly asking where he is.

I share a few other things with you, filling gaps about little things you've noticed about me pertaining to this.

Like how sometimes when we are at a rather chill place and some intoxicated person starts heading toward the boundary of wilding in our vicinity, how I know you and the girls notice me start to get fidgety. Or if it's particularly bad how I will close my eyes and start humming a melody to myself. I let you know the song I hum to myself is a lullaby my dad used to sing me, and I hum it and tap on something to keep one of two options from happening: 1) panic attack or 2) crashing tf out.

I tell you the day you met me and I crashed the fuck out, that I was already planning on stopping the man more peacefully, but the moment I heard him scream "bitch" at her, I blacked out. And when I was punching him all I saw was that drunk bastard's face.

I mention how I've also heard some of the other girls in the gang (who I think are just workers at your establishment) talk about why I am always wearing what they assume to be knee high, thigh high, or full coverage tights depending on the fit. And I tell you my leg was able to recover rather well from the accident, all things considered, but that it left some pretty bad scarring all over it. So when I was older I got that whole leg (my right leg) covered in a tattoo sleeve. But a lot of Japan y'know associates tattoos n stuff with the yakuza and I don't need to deal with all that on top of also being black here so I use clothes to cover it up.

I pull up the leg of my pants and pull down my sock to show you some of it.

(le sleeve in it's entirety here ⬇️)

And after all this you guys share your condolences, perhaps we all hug. And you invite me to join the girl gang to help find way to stop this kind of behavior in the community. Be it through stopping those people in real time, or awareness, or outreach and prevention, making trying to get ordinances changed for the area on a wider scale, whatever I think is best. You think as long as we stand together anything can be possible. And I say yes, still sniffling and leaking tears.

(taggin @aceofbooks-creative-anthologies n @katsulock for the looooreeeeee)

[weird-dere-writes]

— Caution Tape & Warning Dividers