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[weepingpersonaballoon]

I am in hostel in college. Things are getting frustrating here. My mid sems did not go well at all. I am in my first year only so I don't have that close frnds with who I can share this.. I am getting frustrated and all I need is to be at home.. bt it's too from here... so I do have this flight option bt the thing is it's expensive... nd since I did nt do well in mid sems I feel guilty of going home. But anyways I want to go home... the thing is that my attendance in two subject is not that good.. I missed around four classes in those subjects. And my frnds did tell me to go home... they did suggest me to go home bt some of my friends r like no for attendance it's better u don't... lyk if I miss classes then it will be 5 absent on each of those 2 subjects. I am breaking down cuz of the peer pressure. I missed those classes nt cuz I wanted to have fun bt I was really frustrated and I was so scared in one of the class that I didn't attend. fun fact I did the homework also bt I still missed bunked cuz I was terrified of that teacher. I want to speak to mom but I know she is sleeping now. And I also cannot speak cuz I have to work harder than others so i have to study and if I speak to mom.. I will feel good bt I will make her worry and also I will waste my tym which I could have utilised it for my studies. I feel lyk giving up every morning bt the things is I am the only hope of my family. Only child who is getting to attend college. But I am such a slow learner and slower than others that I have to work extra hard to achieve something that others be able to achieve it without much effort... I really try I really do... bt I also wish to be intelligent lyk others.. it's frustrating at tyms... I'm ugly, pathetic slow learner insensitive so many other things also I cannot even write properly... I hate myself so much... nd plz no.. no comforting words lyk no u r good looking and all I know I'm ugly.... actually I don't even want that .. I jst want sharp brains lyk others... I try so hard.. bt still lag behind... it takes so much effort for me to reach a good level .... every schools that I have changed I always had to start from 0 no matter how hard I worked initially I always start from the back.. why only me... why can't I be like others... being a really go one... at least top 20 is also gud bt I am nt even that...the only purpose of my life is that I'm my parents ' only child.... that's it... bye now going to study.. enough break for the day

[weepingpersonaballoon]

Trust the process.. yes u can do it.. i love u, and so proud of u just continue this from now on.. i trust myself, i will achieve my dreams no matter what it takes

[weepingpersonaballoon]

I am gonna start sewing 🪡🧵 sooonnnnnn..... and also start playing guitar again.. I have to start this before the year ends.. yess

[weepingpersonaballoon]

Engineer

I am in college and an introvert i wanna be the top 1% in college. I have read so many stories abt how u have to learn how to socialise take part in many things and stuff to be the bst.

Like can i be an introvert and speak when spoken to girl and still excel in academics and may be take part in dance and also excel at giving awesome presentation infront of many students. Can someone plzz give some examples of the quiet girl/boyof college bt has done awesome job in college

[weepingpersonaballoon]

So I finally got into a collge bt...........