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Home for the Holidays

Authors Note: Hiii y'all! My first fic back! Okay, so this is my attempt at my first one shot ever, so, if you have any questions, comments or advice to give! Please, be my guest! I so hope y'all love this, or at least like it! Without further ado, Home for the Holidays! T.W.: mentally ab*sive parent/familial figures

Pairings: Dean x Reader

You were dreading it. The emptiness in your stomach from being too nervous to eat, mixed with the anxiety induced lack of sleep was starting to settle in. You were parked in your parent’s driveway sitting in the Impala, staring at the front door to their house, your gut was telling you to run, but your head was telling you that you’d eventually have to face them anyways. “I don’t know if I can do this De, I mean, it’s been 8 years since I last saw them.” You wring your hands nervously together in your lap. Dean shifted in the driver's seat so he could face you better. “Hey, hey,” he says calmingly, “the best part about it, is if everything goes south, you say the word and we leave, yeah?” He tries to catch your eye, smiling reassuringly at you. He reaches over then that doesn’t work, grabbing a hold of your hands to try to get you to stop fidgeting with them. “(Y/N), baby, I know that it’s scary and you’re thinking of all the things that could go wrong right now, but I’m going to be right by your side through the whole thing. You’re not going to be alone in this.” You pause a moment and meet his eyes finally. “Thanks De, I’m really lucky to have you in my life.” and with that, you finally have enough encouragement to get out of the Impala and start making your way to the front door of your parent’s house, Dean following suit. You shakily knock on the door, then take a step back and grab Dean’s hand for comfort. You hear footsteps on the other side of the door approaching, you squeeze his hand and brace yourself. The door opens to your mom standing there, you and her look at each other a few moments before either of you say a word to each other. “Hi honey, how have you been? Come on in.” Your mom speaks first, stepping aside to let you and Dean into her home. Dean is the first one to make a move into the house, sensing your feet hesitating. “Dean, it’s great to see you again, how’s Sam doing?” She tries to make small talk with the both of you. “Oh, he’s good, same ole’ Sam as always.” He answers, the tension in the room palpable. “How’s Gary? He out back cooking?” He looks around the house a bit, nothing has changed from 8 years ago, when he met you from a poltergeist hunt in this very house. He still remembered flirting with you and you rejecting  his advances at first. “Gary, is the same ole’ Gary.” She responds a bit snarkily. You look  around the house, then to your mother, nothing had changed since you had left, same house, same decor, same attitude she’s always had. You clear your throat and respond finally. “So, when do we eat?” You say, a bit frustrated and just wanting all of this to be over. “(Y/N), you just got here, don’t you want to have some wine? Sit down and catch up a bit?” your mother nags you. You take a brief moment and take a deep breath through your nose, looking to Dean for a moment to calm yourself.. You finally nod in compliance and follow her to the kitchen. She heads to the cupboard and pulls out 3 wine glasses and some cheap wine that you knew she had bought for this occasion so she didn’t have to use the expensive kind she had in the cellar downstairs. She pours a bit for you all and hands out the glasses, you take a large gulp hoping to steel your nerves, then you finally ask. “Alright, so what’s the real reason you invited us to Christmas this year?” 

 Your mom looks at you with a wide eyed expression, surprised by your blunt question. “What do you mean Dear?” She asks as though you haven’t caught on to what she was doing. You had played this game many times with her growing up. She’d try to bribe you with something, you’d ask her what was the real reason as to her bribing you, and she’d act innocent.

 “Oh come on mom, you think I don’t know you by now? I’ve had 25 years with you, I’m pretty sure, I know what you’re playing at. What’s the real reason you invited me and Dean over this Christmas?” You say exasperated. “(Y/N)…..” Dean warns a bit, he knew it was coming for quite some time and had good intentions when warning you, he just didn’t want you to do something you regretted. “No, no, I want to know. She wanted us over this bad, she can tell us as to why.” you get increasingly more frustrated. Your mom looks at you dumbfounded by the sudden outburst. “I…..I….Well, we just wanted to see you.” Her eyes flit between you and Dean, then she lets out a sigh. “Alright…..you want to make me out the villain, then I’ll be the villain….Your father-” you scoff at the word father, he wasn’t your father, he was someone that your mother was dating who had no interest in a relationship with you, who your mother made you call father. Your mother rolls her eyes and corrects herself, “Gary and I are low on money and had to pay some extra bills this month and can’t afford presents, so I was wondering if you’d loan us $300 and we can pay you back?” You suck your teeth. “And there it is…..what happened to the $1000 I ‘loaned’ you last month? Oh, let me guess, you and Gary used it on wants and not needs, hmm?” She looked at you as you had just disrespected her. “Don’t give me that look mom, that’s exactly what you did with it. Did it with the last bit of money I gave you before that too.” You stand up from the kitchen table. “Look mom, this….this has been something, but me and Dean are going to head out. I’ll give you the $300, but don’t try contacting me after this, please.” Dean stands up with you, hand on your lower back in a protecting manner. Guiding you out of your mothers house. But before you reach the front door, Dean stops and turns around. “I just wanted to say something before we left….Linda you have an amazing daughter, no thanks to your raising, but the fact that she can unlearn all of the harmful crap you’ve dealt her in her childhood and come out on top of it all, all while still being a kind human being, is a miracle in and of itself. You’d do good in remembering all the kindness she offered you when you’d been nothing but a manipulative bitch to her.” 

 You gasped and looked at Dean, a grin slowly crept onto your face, it had been the first time Dean ever got between you and your mother in an argument, but in this instance you appreciated it and loved him even more for it. Your mother, not so much. Your mother glared at him, but didn’t speak. You figured she knew he was right, so there was nothing she could say. 

 So, you grabbed Dean's hand and headed out the door finally and back into the impala. Once back in, you looked over to Dean and leaned in and kissed him, which of course he reciprocated, once you pulled back, he smiled. “What was that for?” He smiled dopily down at you. “Just for being you.” you giggle and reply. With that, you two headed off back to the motel.

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I'm backkkkkkkk!!!

Hi guys! My hiatus lasted a lot longer than I expected, but I'm back and better than ever! So much better, matter of fact, that I come bearing a gift! A one shot to be exact! It's gonna be a angsty one, but y'all already know I put a little bit o' fluff in there as well! On to another matter, Would y'all like for me to continue Long Way Home? I've been thinking about posting part 4, but it's been so long, that I don't know if it's worth posting anymore! Idk, y'all give me some feedback and let me know! Anyway's, I love you guys and y'all stay safe and have a Happy New Years! -Elizabeth

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We’ll be kicking off the final leg of The Eras Tour this week, which is hard to comprehend. This tour has been the most wondrous experience and I knew I wanted to commemorate the memories we made together in a special way. Well, two ways actually. Excited to announce that The Official Eras Tour Book, filled with my own personal reflections, never-before-seen behind the scenes photos, all the magical memories you guys brought every single night AND …. The Tortured Poets Department: The Anthology on vinyl and CD will all be available for the first time ever only at Target starting Nov 29th. 🤍

International info coming soon!

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Thank you, professor.

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Thank you for this beautiful signed copy @ren-browne-writes 😭😭😭 I LOVE HER AND I’LL CHERISH HER AND THIS IS SUCH AN AMAZING ACCOMPLISHMENT!! CONGRATS!! 😭😭

eta: my cat is also a big fan of the packaging which is a HUGE plus (cat tax under cut)

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I'm in my Bondi Rescue phase

@Ashton5SOS: Watching @bondirescue, makes me feel at home lol 😊 👍 #dayoff

@BondiRescue: So #5SOS is doing a Europe Tour @Ashton5SOS, but when are you guys coming to perform for us at Bondi?? #bondirescue

11 March 2014

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HAPPY 45TH BIRTHDAY DEAN WINCHESTER ✨

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OH… oh

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reblog if you’ve read fanfictions that are more professional, better written than some actual novels. I’m trying to see something

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Wait hold on Tumblr girlies have been carrying that show on netflix for well over 10 years now and the guy responsible for it hasn’t gotten a GOD DAMN DIME?????

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Me: *so tired my eyes hurt and I’m struggling to keep them open*

Brain: hoe don’t do it

Me: *clicks*

Brain: oh my god 

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the women of supernatural by episode count aka the most depressing gifset i’ve ever made when the show has 200+ episodes

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DEAN’S S9 SCRUFF IN EVERY EPISODE - 9x02

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Tag 9 People You Want to Know Better

Tagged by: @docharleythegeekqueen

3 Ships: Donna/Jody, Sherlock/Molly, 10th Doctor/Rose

First Ever Ship: Sherlock/Molly

Last Song: Skulls- Halestorm

Last Movie: How The Grinch Stole Christmas (Live Action)

Currently Reading: Daisy Jones & The Six- Taylor Jenkins Reid

Currently Watching: Supernatural (Rewatch), Law and Order: SVU, The Crown

Currently consuming: Monster and Watermelon Sour Patch Kids

Currently craving: Alfredo

Thank you for tagging me @docharleythegeekqueen

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