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couldnt help but notice the coyote therian nuclear explosion that happened over the past like 2 years

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Gosh just now someone was down on the street with a cat in one of these backpacks for animals (I live in front of a vet/pet store, so this happens often), and the cat was meowing constantly and my instincts activated.

I felt an instant shift, my ears materialized in my head, trying to find the origin of the sound, my mind rushing (protect the kit, find the kit, care for the kit). I saw a human with a cat in a backpack and relaxed, I thought the kit was distressed but he was fine. Stupid instincts

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Hi @interstellarsystem!! I completely forgot otherlinking was a thing. I would love to be a barn owl by linking it, but I. Have no idea how to go about it? Do I just... Wish to be a barn owl and that's it? How would I go about shifts and stuff? How do I turn it into an identity? I had never voluntarily linked a species so I don't really know how to go about it

Sometimes I see a cool animal and go like: Awww I wish I was that animal. But I'm already like, five species at the same time so I don't want anymore kins

(Barn owls I look at you)

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A (slightly) Visual Guide to Fictionkin, Otherhearted, Etc.

Hello, I’m Jack! I’m a fictionkin with a couple stels that has been seeing a lot of confusion on the internet lately about my identities, so… I present to you - This guide! If there is any more I need to add, let me know.

Common Terms

Common Misconceptions

Resources

Fictionkin: Carrd, Tumblr help blog, Wiki

Otherhearted: Wiki

Otherlink: Wiki, 2nd Wiki

Fictionflicker: Tumblr help blog, Amino

Constelic: Tumblr, Carrd (Archive)

For the rest of my information, I got them based on my personal experience as a Multikin with multiple Stels, and my friends’ experiences with these labels. Ask me questions anonymously (or not) for any questions you might have and I’ll try to give a good answer!

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I have been cameo shifting a lot as this motherfucker and I think he's gonna become a fav form HAHEHEHA

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Hello, I hope you're doing well.

I really like the content of your account and thought I'd try asking a question. Sorry if it's already been asked or if my English is bad (I use a translator to make as few mistakes as possible).

So my question is, how do you live your Clinical Zoanthropy ? It's something I've always been interested in but I've never had the chance to ask anyone about their experience. What is it like ? How did you find out ? How difficult is it to live with ? I'd really like to learn more about it, if you don't mind of course.

Thank you for your patience,

Have a nice day.

Sorry for taking a while to respond to this. I hope my answer is satisfactory. I do not like going too deep into my own medical history, and earlier attempts in my life to explain has only garnered negative responses, so apologies if it's not as extensive of a response as you might've liked.

Answer below cut.

I'll start off with saying that not everyone with clinical zoanthropy have the exact same experiences. There are of course things that are very similar for all of us, but I just wanted to put it out there that I am only one of many. I also personally use the label mostly to find other zoanthropes, as it is a medicalized term that has a history of violence. I've also seen this belief that we all believe our experiences to be a delusion. Some zoanthropes do. I personally do not consider me being a horse, and transforming into one, a delusion. It is what I was born as.

I hope it's ok I answer your questions more broadly, as more of a description of my general experience, instead of like a checklist. It is easier for me. Might be a bit disordered.

I didn't really "discover" I was a zoanthrope, it is a term that was given to me by humans to describe what I am experiencing. But I have known I am a mustang since I was very young, and I've experienced transformations for much of my life. Though big parts of my memories of the past are spotty at best, gone at worst. It was only later in life I had the terms and words to describe what was happening to me.  In the beginning, the thought that everyone around me could see my transformations—transformations that I couldn't quite control and therefore had to repress. It terrified me. Not the transformations, but the thought that the humans would see and take away the only thing I have that makes me even close to what I once was. My only connection to what I lost.  I eventually realized no one but me could perceive these transformations. My zoanthropy affects almost every part of my life. It affects how I act and think, and how I interact with most of the people I meet. I have to take medications so the humans don't sedate and restrain me. I have to tell everyone that what I am experiencing is a delusion so I don't get hospitalized. To even be treated like a person. If even that. 

This turned into a bit of a vent. Apologies.

I hope these responses are adequate. Some things I am simply not comfortable sharing, but feel free to ask for clarifications.

I hope for a nice day for you as well.

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Canine culture is feeling connected to Minecraft dogs/wolves even if you aren’t a wolfkin just because they are just the purest form of dog, companions and protectors

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Ugh, I feel like I'm gonna (metaphorically, mentally, etc.) molt or something soon, I am absolutely having my ass kicked by an intense need to Get Weirder but I don't know how or what I'm even expecting or anything. Just that if I don't, I'm gonna explode. My me feels three sizes too small. It's like having horrible art block and ridiculous inspiration at the same time, but about my sense of self. I have got to crawl out of some kind of shell but I'm not aware of any shell so how the hell do I do that?

I don't think it's a new alter or anything, at least, but I do think it's three restless alters in a trenchcoat, one of which is me trying to figure this shit out and two of which are starting to really, really crave acknowledgement in...some capacity...that I'm not sure about?

It's not a new species, at least I'm pretty sure about that (but watch me be super fucking wrong because it's also time for my annual Hey What If I Was A Homestuck Troll where I kinda feel it for a week and then go, nah, and it stops for another year, and I swear one of these years it might stick).

Feels like spring in my head except it's summer, go figure...usually if I feel like this it's spring or autumn. Summer is a new one on me.

I've mentioned it on my main blog so I think it bears repeating since it's relevant and I think a load-bearing part of how I'm feeling right now. I am, categorically, a traumagenic dissociative system. I've been disordered. I know quite well what pseudomemories are and what they mean. I am up to snuff on the psych aspects, and I've handled my own recovery well. I need that stated and out of the way, because I am for some reason really nervous about being seen as uninformed or misunderstanding what my own plurality is and why I have it.

That being said...onward to the functional bit where I'm slowly triangulating in on what it is I want to say.

I'm kind of tired of viewing it as Just Some Disordered Psychology. It does not feel like that to me, to live with my little handful of alters. It feels like a team of us—who are integrated, yes, but we are not the same person, nor do we want to be—working together with a common goal and a common body. I've been feeling this more and more as I've let X be himself and do his own things, and it's been extremely liberating to do so, for all of us. Our system has its origins in trauma, yeah, that part is not up for debate. It performed a survival function that is absolutely textbook DID/OSDD. We know exactly how we got here. We've broken down the internal barriers, we're good at communicating, we're competent at our own mental health.

But we're at a point in recovery where the pathological model doesn't really fit us. And that's great, in many ways. That's the goal, right? We're functionally multiple.

Except that means we've got to ditch the old model, because it doesn't include any further useful path for us to follow, and I think that's where we're getting stuck. Is there even a model for where we're going? What is it supposed to look like when you're functionally multiple? What does that mean for your day-to-day?

(I can see where this is giving me cross-wired species identify feels, because that last one is the question I'm always asking. It's a familiar enough line of inquiry, just in a different direction.)

Ultimately I think I'm gonna have to figure it out myself, because it's too individual to possibly have an answer that works for everyone. Which is...ugh. Back where I started, I guess! I'll get there, but gods, I'm gonna do circles around it for a while.

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Out of all the “gear” I have, I would say I love my collars the most. I love how heavy they are and where they rest on or frame my neck scar.

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I want to claw my skin off why is it so hot why why why-

I normally hate the ocean, but I want to throw myself and get lost in it and never come back

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Teno is one of the happiest little calves I've seen so far. People trying to shame loro parque for giving Morgan the opportunity to raise this boy don't understand just how beneficial calves are to an orca's welfare.

He has his mama, he has the water, his trainers and soon he'll meet his other friends at the park. He doesn't know what the ocean is, and therefore couldn't care less about it. He's growing up healthy, breaching and splashing around with his mom, starting to take interest in both the park visitors and the trainers.

A precious little boy, I really hope activists won't try to ruin his life. Instead of worrying sick about Teno, worry about the southern resident or the Iberian orca calves who will go another day with minimal food.

And besides, Morgan's been shining like never before, too. She's truly happy.

Teno and Morgan, photo by Loro Parque.

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I remember when I was at a sleepover as a pup, for some reason I was determined to bite every single child at that sleepover before morning.

I announced my plan loudly, and everyone gave me weird looks, but I didn’t mind it. So I waited until the cover of night, and while everyone slept I went around and bit them, one by one.

Most of them I bit them on the arm, not hard enough to wake them. I’m still shocked that none of them woke up, maybe they were just pretending to be asleep, I’m not entirely sure.

I don’t know why I felt so compelled to do so, it felt very instinctual. Was it weird as fuck? Yeah. It definitely was, not to mention kinda fucked. Those kids didn’t consent to getting werewolf puppy saliva on their arms, but it happened.

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Tips for creatures with wings!

Preen them regularly! Nothing feels better than stepping out of the shower and shake them clean!

Take care of the feathers! Use oils and products designed for feathers, so they are always nice and shiny. If you can't do it yourself, ask a trusted family member/friend/person to do it for you

Preening! Very important bond between avians! Rearrange the feathers into place so that they are aligned. If a feather looks like its a bit loose, just yank it. Always ask permission to do so! Yanked feathers hurt!

If you can hide your wings under clothes/your skin, do so with caution. The wings need to breathe every once in a while, or the bones may hurt you!

Wings seem to have a mind of its own, but remember, you are always in control! Fluff out your feathers to show your emotions, bristle them, move them around.

Go for a flight every once in a while! It's good for your mind and body, and it's a good exercise. If you're like me and can't fly with them, remember to flap them around to keep the muscles strong!

Step into the sun often! Vitamin D is really good for the feathers.

Have a little fun! Dye the feathers! Decorate your wings with crystals, leaves and shells!

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Genderaminull!

A label for individuals who are genderless or disconnected from gender in the same way an animal or other non-human entity would be

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Mystenby!

A gender that is neither masculine nor feminine in the way an unknown entity or force is referred to as "they" or "it"

Pronoun ideas!

Unknown/unknowns/unknownself

Entity/entities/entityself

Thing/things/thingself

What/whats/whatself

Force/forces/forcelf

Myst/mysts/mystelf

👁️/👁️s/👁️self

❔/❔s/❔self

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Ahoj Sonar!

Have you a favourite part of yourself as dolphin? For instance I really love my mittens!

Kala

Hello! Very sorry it took so long to answer this!

My favorite part of being a dolphin, especially as a common dolphin, is my "hourglass" markings and my markings in general! I feel like it makes me very recognizable

(and quite the handsome dolphin hehe)

Really, every part of being a dolphin is a joy to me. my flippers, my tail, my dorsal fin, my melon...even just my rostrum...it is all so wonderful. When i swim, I feel my flippers guide me and my dorsal fin cuts through the water. My tail is powerful and easily pushes me forward. My melon letting me detect the slightest difference in the water and of course, let's me make clicks and squeaks! and I love booping objects with my beak!

My markings will always be my favorite, though! I feel like it makes me look quite striking eeeeee

Thank you for the ask, Kala!! 🩵🐬

- Sonar

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terfs cannot be touching my fucking meowth posting when hes literally played by a trans woman okay like hes off limits. i know that cat dabbles a little in they/them and she/her