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What should they do if being silly is a crime

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so yes he has a six year long total nervous breakdown over a divorce which does seem kind of unwarranted on the surface but the thing is that his breakdown wasn't just because of his fiance leaving him, it's because he's lived for four decades in this absolutely untenable state of being on the coattails of the revolution. the fact that dora even has the choice to pack up and fly away and leave behind the poverty and disability and addiction and misery and, as he imagines her saying, "leave him alone in hell forever" while he has no hope of ever leaving revachol or becoming anything more than what he is is what causes the breakdown just as much as her making that choice. and so that's why he sees her as dolores dei right, like yes it's because he deifies her but it's not just that, because dolores dei isn't just some ambiguous religious figure, she's specifically the innocence of moralism and the welfare state and interisolary travel. it's not dora that failed harry, it's the world that failed harry, and because dora was able to escape and moralism and the welfare state and interisolary travel were able to save her in a way they never saved him, he projects all the ways the world has failed him onto her. like harry has this breakdown because the woman he loved (rightfully) left him yes but also harry has this breakdown because he was born into poverty in a military hospital and he got polio as a child and never quite got better and all his childhood friends are dead of car accidents and drug overdoses and he's lived his entire life under a form of capitalism that allows for no self-determination, no political representation, no upward mobility. so when she leaves him it's not just a broken heart that does him in, it's the culmination of a lifetime of misery that he falsely blames her for because she was able to escape. you feel me. and that's why his breakdown is so insane and massive and disproportionate and that's why he sees her as god you feel me. like love did him in but capitalism killed him. right

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can't keep a good trauma spelunker down

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here are EVEN MORE pictures of Dino (aka the pigeon lord)

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Did you guys know that pigeons are one of the few birds that can drink water without having to tilt their head up for the water to flow down? They can suck the water up directly in drinking position, its sort of like a straw, those are drawings of my pet pigeon

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she elden on my ring. two fingers

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Some Malevolent doodles I made after listening to season finale

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Returned to listening to Malevolent. The beginning of episode 44 stabbed me

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Mammalovent

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What if we were trapped in the corridors together for weeks and i called you out on your hypocrisy and we kept on arguing about our spiralling boss and we were both in love with emotionally unavailable people and you were doomed and I was lonely

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Truly incredible things are happening on white dog instagram

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when i get you arthur lester. when i get you.

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Episode 20 sketch godbless

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I,,,, I uhhh,,,,,,, ummmmm uhhhhhhh

sketch I guess!

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kk swag

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Disco Elysium try not to become emotionally dependent on kim kitsuragi challenge [impossible]

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Minty fresh