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at 319 calories so hopefully i stay at that🙃plus fasted for almost 17 hourssss

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i literally don’t feel like a real ana. i don’t necessarily need control but the feeling of losing weight is so addicting. i restrict pretty heavily, but not enough, and i don’t punish myself (other than mentally screaming at myself) if i go a tiny bit over. i don’t look like an ana for sure, i am way too fat. i don’t enjoy feeling hungry and usually try to combat it with extremely small low calorie snacks. i wish i could enjoy the feeling of starving. i think i should just force myself to be hungry and try to convince myself it is better than being full. i just want someone to notice i’m losing weight because that would be so much more rewarding than eating. i guess i just have to restrict more so people notice quicker. i feel like shit. thanks for coming to my constant struggle of if i even have an ed or not, this is my never ending ted talk.

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A concept: me but with a tiny waist, sharp jawline, visible cheek bones, prominent collar bones, visible hip bones, slightly visible ribs, small thighs, small arms **manifesting**

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“She came back from summer looking gaunt and sick, clearly not well, but oh god her body dropped jaws”.

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fuck feelings

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its overwhelming.

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i will be skinny

𝚒 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚋𝚎 𝚜𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚗𝚢

𝕚 𝕨𝕚𝕝𝕝 𝕓𝕖 𝕤𝕜𝕚𝕟𝕟𝕪

𝒾 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝒷ℯ 𝓈𝓀𝒾𝓃𝓃𝓎

ɪ ᴡɪʟʟ ʙᴇ sᴋɪɴɴʏ

𝐢 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐞 𝐬𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐧𝐲

𝑖 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑏𝑒 𝑠𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑛𝑦

𝗂 𝗐𝗂𝗅𝗅 𝖻𝖾 𝗌𝗄𝗂𝗇𝗇𝗒

𝘪 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘦 𝘴𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘯𝘺

Ⓘ ⓌⒾⓁⓁ ⒷⒺ ⓈⓀⒾⓃⓃⓎ

🅘 🅦🅘🅛🅛 🅑🅔 🅢🅚🅘🅝🅝🅨

🄸 🅆🄸🄻🄻 🄱🄴 🅂🄺🄸🄽🄽🅈

𝔦 𝔴𝔦𝔩𝔩 𝔟𝔢 𝔰𝔨𝔦𝔫𝔫𝔶

I ᗯIᒪᒪ ᗷᗴ ᔕKIᑎᑎY

reminding myself this everyday.

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When people want to socialise and you have to pretend you can eat like a normal person.

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im going to live off doctor pepper from now on

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is iced coffee nutritious? idk. do i think it is enough to sustain me the whole day? 𝓎ℯ𝓈. am i stupid? 𝑑𝑒𝑓𝑖𝑛𝑖𝑡𝑒𝑙𝑦!

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🍑June Rules🍑

🍊AM🍊

stretch for 5 minutes

10k steps on work days, 5k steps on off days MINIMUM

shoot for at least 75g of protein daily and 20g of fiber

use planner daily

hard calorie limit of 1000

🍓PM🍓

stretch for 5 minutes

25 squats with kettlebell

5 minutes of various arm exercises with dumbbells

moisturize entire body (especially elbows, knees, and feet)

use cuticle oil before bed

read at least 15 minutes on work days, 30 minutes on off days

clean for at least 10 minutes daily

🥝WEEKLY🥝

exfoliation mask once weekly

hydrating mask once weekly

sheet mask once weekly

file and paint nails 1-2 times weekly

put $100 from each paycheck into savings