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[wankerson333]

reminded about everythinf. the past. everything u did. and ure putting the blame on me. i did ntg wrong. why was it always me. i mvr wanna show my soft side ever again. in tired. i dont trust anyone. it always the same and they will never show me that i cud trust them. it hurts that im always the one doing everyrhing . dont they think anout me. was it all my fault. im tired . im tired with all this shit in my minf thats fucking me up. i wishi cud forget everything. everything .the memories. thr pain everything. js so i dont feel this much of heaviness. its so fucking heavy, hope that. one day i’ll die soon . im too tired of everyrhing.

[wankerson333]

wtv thats in my mind is crazy. litterally why cant i just forget about it. why cant i just stop thinking. i really wish i have amnesia so i could stop think about all of these because . i really just want to forget it and its making me weak and hating on myself.

[wankerson333]

fuck dat guy. no one really wants him. or appreciated him. so why wud i still want to be him again.

[wankerson333]

here i am crying again. cud u fucking believe it.

[wankerson333]

ure being too much of a burden kal. just stfu and hold it in.

[wankerson333]

crying without u knowing. its the craziest thing. the bad habits of me is coming back when i want to change. i reallly want to change. myself and for u. u wouldnt understand how much this hurts me for the past few days. mayb this is what i deserve. i dont deserve love but to just die. i talked bout u alot. to my brothers, my friends, my parents. of how much i love you. im scared. im really scared because i give u all of me now right after when i start forget bout everything in past. but now it js makes me feel like useless. i need u. it wasnt the gf way or rs. but the first love . the first love of us. i fucking hate being this weak. i cant talk to anyone bout it and its killing me. killing me dat i cant talk about what happen in my mind. idk. idk whats going on. im realy trying my best . idw to be stupid anymore. stupid again like i use to . i really fully taking all the risk of myself to be with u again. because i really love you and im staying. i wont go anywhere anymore. im sorry.

[wankerson333]

i can never fucking find all the shit ive ever wanted and no one ever fucking ask me. dats how i know they dont fuckinf care.

[wankerson333]

too fucked up to be loved or care.

[wankerson333]

maybe im js too fucked up.

[wankerson333]

i really wan to fucking dissappear . js fuck today.

[wankerson333]

i really wan to blow this fucking head off.

[wankerson333]

my hands are shaking. my body is shaking . im sweating. do u still care.

[wankerson333]

trying to overdose. do u still care.

[wankerson333]

do u still cared.

[wankerson333]

arms all bloddy. do u still care.

[wankerson333]

is it hard to need u.