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let me die in my sleep tonight thank you

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“You look like you’re about to cry.”

No I just wanna k1ll myself.

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literally

every year i reach new lows and wish i killed myself earlier

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i despise myself

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shrine visit for the new year !

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hahaha..... warmup....

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my manifesto

i am currently writing my manifesto. no joke.

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i know my parents are tired of me.

and why? ive been sent to the mental hospital three times. first time was october 2023, i took a lot of pills for attention really... i was addicted to popping pills sadly. parents didnt really care. second time was january 2024, suicide attempt after my parents took away my phone (which was my only comfort at the time while i was hurting myself). february 2024 was my third time, i had a panic attack due to my past sexual abuse. told my parents about it for the first time... it went well but then my stepdad said what i was always afraid that my mother would say. "it happens to most women, youre not the only one." is it true? yes. but that's not what someone wants to hear. it made me feel as though what i expressed wasnt important as it "happened to others too". i dont feel alive. i want to harm myself everyday. i dont want to wake up. i want to die. i hate myself. i lie to others about my self-confidence. no, i dont like my hair. no, i dont like my eyes. it's a lie. i say it so i dont seem weak. whenever i get compliments, i feel everything bursting inside of me. i want to cry of happiness. like, you think im pretty? really? i find it so shocking, but i accept it simply as a "thank you". i never want to do anything fun. "let's go to the arcade!" and all of my siblings agree. i hate the arcade. i hate everything but reading. writing used to be my passion but now thats fading too. the only thing im proud of are my grades. it's the only thing that proves im still here. im still myself. i laugh about the way my mother used to punch me in my stomach when she was upset. or when she hit me when tv cords. but truly it hurts me to my soul that she did that. its either i die or someone else does. i cannot control myself anymore, at least not for long. ive lost my passion. my love. my everything. im not even sure i want to go to college anymore. funny that im saying all of this yet if my grade drops below an A ill go crazy. though, miss liz (my therapist) isnt wrong. if i really didnt care about my life i'd just let myself fail, like i did freshman year. im sorry. really. my parents have to deal with the death of their child. my siblings dealing with the death of their sister. i need serious help, but getting that help will make me even more of a black sheep than i already am. i hate myself for being this way. why cant i just be normal?

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uh ... get vermilion'd [ written by @archetypeofadespota ]

im posting this before i drive myself insane thinking about how bad the art is. nevertheless this has recently become one of my most favourite fics and i tried (...) to draw what i think the characters might look like in that universe !!!!

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i love this

low effort warmup yay yay yay (based off the twitter thing going around)

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my friend put the idea in my head of rei wearing those fake thong pants and accidentally flashing them so here’s a pixel doodle of kaoru and koga being victims of reis slutty waist

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ive decided

my birthday, june 14th, will be my last day alive.

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YOURE BACK?????? I WAS ROTTING WHILE WAITING FOR YOI

SORRY I LITERALLY BROKE MY ARM 💀

i wanna do some doodle requests and enstars mv ss redraws now that im healed butttt

i have some hiyori/kanata/rinne roomate doodles im finishing up with some rinikimayo thrown in [cough and a rinnemayo fan service]

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jesus

i didn't even know i had this account that long...

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best shibuya-kei song to drown out your parents arguing

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conversation with my therapist

her: do you think your parents need a divorce? me: uhm... no, their arguments are stupid. me (later on): yeah they need one.

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Be yourself; everyone else is already taken.