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when i get to heaven the real gun emoji will be there waiting for me

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[bauhaus intensifies]

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Metin Erksan - Dry Summer (1963)

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[Screenshot from Queering the Map, the mark in Zhytomyr region I Ukraine, saying "If I knew bombs would have rained down on us the following morning, I would have never stopped kissing your fragile skin the night before".]

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joel + dadface

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devotion (2022)

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2022 reflections, review, re: whatever // ily darling @budgetmilk thank you for the tag <3

—the top 5 works you’re most proud of that you released in 2022 (not necessarily your most popular)

i haven't released anything since 2017, but shoutout to all the people on twitter who hype me up when i post a rare and wild wip

—your top 4 current WIPs that you’re excited to release in the new yea

i'm currently in my "i can only write au's/oneshots based on movies and Vibes" phase because there are no thoughts up here not really so

1) a stsg happy together au 2) a sashisu + toji crack filth 3) a soapghost sexual tension stakeout 4) bruce/batman eldritch horror monsterfucker crack

—your top 3 biggest improvements in your writing (or art) over the past year

writing anything at all. my vocab is better tho and i stopped using so many epithets and adverbs.

—your top 2 resolutions (ways you wish to improve your writing/blog) for the new year.

write More. and write badly like im a serial edit while i write ass bitch

—and your number 1 favorite line you’ve written this year!

not a line per-say but i really like this summary for the aforementioned happy together au

"The air at the end of the world was scorched and tacky with salt—a harrowing howl. On an autumn day in 2007, Shoko delivers Satoru and Suguru’s heartbreak to the edge of the world."

tagging: @cloud-cunt, @thenaphorism, @dioasa, @souperbee, @amalysstuff, and @halspur (no pressure)

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twitter @peachprc // tiktok // Man to Man by Dorian Electra // Untitled (You Construct Intricate Rituals) by Barbara Kruger // Wrestlers by Unknown // @qannibalism // Fight Club by Chuck Palahniuk // Dracula by Bram Stoker // Among Us // Hannibal 2x10 // twitter @uheeuhaha // Little Beast by Richard Siken // Succession 3x04

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Jason who doesn't know how to be gentle anymore my beloved. Who was gentle and kind and soft and who was murdered for it.

Came back all sharp edges and violence and rage. Who loves just as much now but can only show it with bared teeth.

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Necessities.

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the first draft of this was soap with his whole ass out but i thought i'd spare you guys and myself also

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hi if anyone else wants to read Mahmoud Darwish’s ‘Memory for Forgetfulness: August, Beirut, 1982’, it’s publicly available online here from the publishing company :-) just click the arrows or switch to print view!

they have a range of other public access books you can filter your browse for also, will add when I look in more depth later but just sharing the site for now <3

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— al-Abbas bin al-Ahnaf, Diwan

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doodles

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Since at this point you’re an encyclopedia 😂 /lh do you know where the fandom idea of Jason being a ch*ld pr*stitute came from? My only guess was it was like based on one thing he said to Mia Dearden because I can’t find any other basis for it

There hasn’t been any canonical evidence that Jason was sexually assaulted as a kid or worked a child prostitute, but it’s definitely been hinted at enough times to bring it into question. 

1) Fandom Speculation Based On Jason’s Childhood:

First things first, let’s go into the fanon part of the theory. Even without the interference of canon implications, the theory of Jason being a child prostitute makes sense, in a sad way. After Willis was sent to prison, it was just Jason and Catherine. Jason had to take care of his mom all by himself since she would check out a lot of the time due to all the drug use, and—with Jason being such a young kid—it kind of leaves him with few options. It’s logical to wonder if Jason resorted to some things he wasn’t proud of in order to keep food on the table and the bills paid. 

Red Hood and the Outlaws 2011 #25

(On the other hand, we also know that Jason was also a thief (e.g. the Batmobile tires incident), so it’s entirely possible that he earned enough money through stealing and didn’t have to resort to prostitution. Like I said, it’s all speculation.)

2) Jason’s Time as Robin:

During his Robin days, Jason’s violent tendencies were exaggerated later on, for the most part. He was chipper and bright (as a Robin should be), and the violent traits were added in later on to victim-blame Jason after his death. The only real instances of Jason being a violent Robin happened (mostly) when Bruce and Jason were dealing with a sexual assault case, which says a lot in and of itself. Jason has always been protective over women and children, especially if they were trafficked or victims of assault. (I’m not saying that one has to be a victim of sexual assault to empathize with others who are, but it’s still worth mentioning.) 

This only makes more sense if you take into account that Jason’s death was originally planned to be due to AIDs instead of the crowbar. There are lots of ways to contract HIV, but we all know that the most common one is through sexual contact with someone else who has it. It would add a lot more meaning and tragedy to Jason’s death if he ended up dying of AIDs after a childhood of sexual abuse.

In Batman #422, we see an instance of Jason getting excessively violent with a criminal. He attacks a pimp who was beating a prostitute, saying, “How do you like being on the receiving end, for a change?” When Batman stops Jason and asks if he was trying to kill the man, Jason asks if it would have been such a loss if he was. This is one of the few times before his death that Jason acted this way, another example being when he (allegedly) killed Felipe Garzonas, a known rapist.

Batman #422

Later in the issue, we see a woman, Judy Koslosky, murder a known serial rapist and murderer known as Branneck. Judy was the sister of one of his victims, and so she killed him in revenge. Later when confessing to the crime, Judy denied that she killed a man, stating that she “put down a mad dog.” Sound like anyone we know? 

Batman #422

Twenty-two years later during Red Hood: Lost Days, Jason says something very similar after he murders a man who trafficked children and sold them into sexual slavery. When Talia questions him on this, Jason denies that it was murder, much like Judy did. “You murder people. I...put this reptile down.” 

Judy’s words stuck with Jason enough for him to loosely repeat them years later, after having his brains bashed in and taking a dip in the Lazarus Pit. It drives one to wonder what it was about that case that made it strike such a chord with Jason that he somehow remembered it after all that.

Red Hood: Lost Days #3

Okay, now. Felipe Garzonas. That’s a thing. Remembered as Jason’s first (speculated) kill, Felipe’s death is a pretty big deal. He raped a young model, Gloria Stanson, who eventually killed herself out of fear that Felipe would get her again. Enraged, Jason tracked down Felipe at his apartment and confronted him personally. All we see is Jason arriving on the balcony, and the next page shows Felipe falling to his death. It’s still uncertain whether or not Jason pushed him, but regardless, this comic stands out for a number of reasons. 

If Jason had indeed been sexually assaulted as a kid, his emotional investment in the Garzonas case would make sense. After all, it’s not like Felipe was a murderer or an arsonist or a drug lord. He was a rapist, and it was enough for Jason to take the case so personally that he killed a man over it. Jason knew what it was like to be in Gloria’s place and wanted to get justice for her, the way that no one did for him. Jason killing Felipe could be his way of not only avenging Gloria, but also himself. 

Batman #424

Jason and Mia Dearden:

Next up is Green Arrow #72, the issue that contains Jason and Mia’s well-known interaction that sparked the majority of this theory. If you don’t already know, Mia’s past includes being exploited as a prostitute and eventually contracting HIV. (Sounds an awful lot like Jason’s theorized past of child prostitution, as well as DC’s abandoned plan to have him contract HIV, huh?) In this issue, Jason fights Mia, but he also lists all of the ways they’re alike. And there are a lot of similarities between them. Jason and Mia both grew up on the streets, both got adopted by billionaires, and both became vigilantes. 

As for the sexual assault part, this issue...is vague. Every hint at Jason having a history of sexual assault is vague, because this is DC Comics, and DC is hesitant when it comes to topics like sexual assault, especially if the assault survivor is a man. (Just look at Dick Grayson and the crappy way DC’s writers handled all three of his experiences being raped.) Jason doesn’t reference anything specific, but there are definitely some undertones to what he says to Mia. 

Green Arrow #72

“I’ve seen things. I’ve done things. I know that sometimes we have to do the bad thing just to get by.” 

What “bad thing” he’s talking about here, Jason doesn’t say. You could assume that he was referring to stealing, maybe murder, but (from what I’ve seen) Mia doesn’t have any major experience with that stuff? Nothing that Jason would know of, at least. It would make more sense for Jason to relate to her through the prostitution/sexual assault angle. 

(I sound like a broken record, but I know this isn’t actual proof of the theory being true. It’s all just speculation. However, if it were confirmed that Jason was a child prostitute, this stuff would all immediately become hard evidence backing it up., wouldn’t it?)

Battle For the Cowl:

The second instance that people usually think about when the “was Jason a child prostitute” question comes up is the scene from Battle For the Cowl #3. This, I’d say, is probably the closest that DC has ever come to confirming the theory (and it’s still not even close, how sad is that). 

When Dick confronts Jason, he plays the holographic message that Bruce left for Jason after his death as a way of giving his last advice or whatever. In the message, Bruce apologizes for the way he handled Jason as a kid. It’s implied that Jason went through some pretty heavy stuff before he came to Bruce, and that the pain from those experiences is what drove him to his eventual self-destructive path. 

Batman: Battle For the Cowl #3

“What happened to you as a child...the terror, the pain, the horrors. But that secret is one that neither of us should have kept.”

It’s never specified what “secret” Jason had, but it’s not hard to imagine, considering the few possibilities other than sexual assault. Especially if it was something traumatic enough to still deeply affect Jason this late in life. Jason had baggage from his time on the streets, possibly selling his body for money, and Bruce didn’t know how to help him deal with it other than fighting crime and taking his pain out on others. 

Anyway, yeah. It’s not confirmed whether or not Jason was a child prostitute, but it would make sense if he were, considering his encounters with sexual assault victims and lifelong baggage from whatever “secret” he had before getting adopted by Bruce.

But thAT’s jUsT a thEoRY..........A cOmIC tHeORYYY

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death follows me everywhere i go so excited to finally be able to show this! my finished piece for @gothamcityunmasked who were so gracious enough to let me draw bruce! it's your last chance to get your hands on this beautiful book, so please check out their leftover sales here!