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You're back?!: Dreams of Exes

Girls and gays, tell me why not 1, not 2, but 3 motherfing exes were in my dreams last night?! Like sirs I have my wife laying right next to me and y'all are living rent free in my dreams, ew. Let's back track a little, now there's nothing wrong with my wife she is literally the woman of my dreams, my safe space if you will but lately I have been having dreams of her leaving and when i tell her she trips out because obvi she isn't leaving me either. So one night I have a dream she leaves right? I know how tragic, followed by the next night I have another dream she leaves only this time my ex, let's call him Fish (you know the reason lol) is now here. Fish tells me he misses me and is about to kiss me, now for some reason my dumba** was going to lean in until I jerk my hand onto his face and tell him "Wait no, you're not her, you're not (for privacy reasons let's call my wife Love and no, not like the show YOU) Love, I need to find her" Fish for some reason agrees to help me so there's the end of that dream. I wake up and tell my wife the dream, minus the almost kissing part because she would kill me and I'd like to keep our relationship happy people. I fall asleep and here's where ex no. 2 comes, in let's call him Lord of Darkness (this is very funny to me while I type lol). I can't really remember how he comes in but I do remember being the age we got together which would be 17. All I can remember is we're laughing and he's hugging me and flirting obvi, we're walking in my old neighborhood where i use to live in my apartment. While we're getting to my place I see my third ex, let's call him Jacob (yes like Jacob from twilight lol, I'm pretty sure you guys can see why). Jacob looks different, still has his beard but it more a stubble and buzz cut his hair, much more skinny too. Jacob yells my name with a smile and oh no girls Lord of Darkness is very upset (lol). Jacob hugs me but Lord of Darkness gets Jacobs arm off of me and they're about to start a fight, somehow my dumba** stops them. Here we are again with Lord of Darkness getting into my house and for some reason other students want to come in and I'm not lame obvi so I let them in. Next thing I knew school is gonna start soon so we all had to leave but Lord of Darkness and I are having the time of our lives flirting away and he keeps being charming, all i can remember is him saying "You know you love me, you miss me huh?" I laugh and say "Ew whatever" while laughing. Now don't assume this Virgo is unfaithful, that's Virgo men. The end girls/gays!

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God’s Favorite Game: September

Here we are into September, the month I dread and celebrate. Not only is it my birth month but it also a reminder for surviving life. September sounds like a beautiful month right? The perfect spot in between summer and fall, where there is green leafs turning into their beautiful dying yellow color. A jacket from time to time is necessary, warm drinks are now favorable. For me, it’s like playing death or life with God, will this month be happy? Beautiful? Perhaps livable? Or will it be degrading? Hell? Life ending. I dread summer but am anxious if my partner will be able to enjoy me in September or struggle to keep me alive till October. Thankfully, do not worry, I believe this September will be a bright one compared to last year. I can still feel on some days the heavy feeling washing over me and sitting in my belly forming, but it has disappeared at points. Remember to be kinder to people this month and every other month, carry kind words in your pocket, purse, and hands. You never know if your words will be the last ones for someone else.

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The First Post Is Always Sad

I said I could not explain what I feel but in reality, I can feel everything. I can feel my anger, sorrow, darkness of the past and present. I still weep for the same girl, only now she is a woman full of sadness and worry, not filled with confusion and stress. I wish I was her again. I look at my lover and feel content knowing I still have some peace, a small sanity in my world when I cannot find my own. For all my life as far as I can remember from 14 I have felt this extreme emotion, this depression, thankfully it is not all year around but it does come in Spring, the worst in Summer. Everyone is filled with excitement for cool swimming, fireworks displaying, but I am terrified, wondering if I will survive for 4 months. There's a reason why I say I hate summer. Although keeping myself alive for Autumn/Winter is a sweet reward I like to look forward to. People hate the mess on their lawn of yellow, brown, possibly even red leaves left from shaking tress or the ache of the winter air running through their body but for me, I know I am alive. I wish I was not made this way. I wish I could take life's pleasures and downfalls with grace.