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if i cut up my pretty little arms and starve myself until i’m frail will you love me then? will you want to be with me then? please i need your approval please please please please

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Whoever thinks fp’s are romantic fuck you. Fuck you. Fuck you. FUCK YOU. Losing yourself completely to someone isn’t romantic. Being at their mercy isn’t romantic. Being taken advantage of by people that know how much you care isn’t romantic. Being abandoned over and over and over again isn’t romantic. Being called too much isn’t romantic. The whole relationship feeling one sided isn’t romantic. Being willing to do anything for a person who doesn’t give you a second thought isn’t romantic. None of it is romantic it’s TRAUMATIC.

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Its real “hoping i have repressed memories so i can feel justified in being traumatized cause the stuff i CAN remember isnt THAT bad” hours

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i was too vulnerable again. i let it happen to me again. i couldn’t stop it. i just wanted to feel loved.

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only reblog if u struggle with self harm

they/them

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ah yes. good times.

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i will shut down

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for some reason i want to throw myself back to all the places that i could be hurt just like i was before. i want to be hurt again and i don't know why? i guess maybe it can't be traumatic if it's happening right now??

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every night

i remember

and i blame myself

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I am so busy keeping my head above water that I scarcely know who I am, much less who anyone else is.

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