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Wahoo 🎉

10.5k steps!

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5k steps, 5k left

I’ve got just over an hour to get the rest

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I did it!!!

10k steps!!

Glad I went for it, surprised myself a bit

I feel good, I’m glad I got in all my steps today when i definitely wasn’t feeling it

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5.2k steps

4.8k steps left to go, I got an hour, I think I can do it

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Only 3k steps so far today, it’s 10:30 pm, I’m not sure if I am gonna be able to get 7k more steps in time, got an hour and a half to try 🥲

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Well

Trying to find the only bright side of Monday’s events

Expending that much energy being that incredibly sick is great for weight loss 😭

Fuck

I mean like I’m grateful? I guess?

But fucking hell I would MUCH rather do it the hard, slow, old fashioned way of restricting food

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Monday was fucking awful, was not supposed to go that way at all 😭

[heads up, TMI, but I have to talk about this at least once even if no one reads, it was so scary being in that much agony]

Randomly violently ill at like 4:30am [both ends at same time 😭]

Fucking torture of throwing up all day, barely ate anything the day before, so was just water and stomach acid, fever 103.6, 2 cold baths didnt really help much, fucked up my back from being sick so much, constant pain couldn’t keep any water down either. Was an absolute nightmare. [having to be on the toilet every time I was retching water cause the strain would squeeze out any small amount of piss, and like a tbsp of molten shiss 😭 lost any dignity I had, bless my mother 😭]

Went to urgent care, appointment at 6:30, waited an hour or so, in and out of the bathroom but there’s nothing in me, tested me for flu/covid, wasn’t either, doctor was worried might be worse and threw out sepsis as an urgent possibility that needed to be ruled out, said go to ER, left urgent care around 8pm

so fucking thirsty all day 😭 felt like I was dying in pain

Got driven to ER, wait in waiting room for hours [absolute hell], finally got seen, the doctor said she knew what was wrong, sent in another nurse and he got me all hooked up real quick to IV, took blood, then gave IV bag of fluids and some anti nausea in there too first, started feeling my back slightly relax finally, was hooked up to all sorts of monitoring stuff while my body slurped up all the hydration juice in that bag, after that was done was finally gave the okay to try to sip water, didnt throw it up finally, gave me some potassium pills to help balance out how dehydrated I was, blood tests came back fine too, confirmed how dehydrated was tho lol sent me off with a prescription for more of the anti nausea stuff

Left the hospital just past midnight feeling quite a bit better, went back home and crashed hard. Slept through most of Tuesday, had some pieces of cantaloupe and some saltines, some sprite, more water throughout the day, went back to bed

Today I slept more, feel basically back to normal, which is wild. I had more fruit, more ice, managed some soup and some bread too, finally some regular ass solid food

Now it’s Thursday 4am

That was the most fucking harrowing day I’ve ever had in ages 😭

Only went 3 places on my Seattle trip, goodwill, Joann, and winco, so I must’ve picked it up at one of those places 😭 I mask up in public, so I must’ve missed a time washing my hands after an outing or something, there were some sneezing people in the Joann? Idk dawg

But damn y’all, be fucking diligent in making sure to wash your hands more often than you need to, you don’t want this hell that was Monday.

Thankfully it pretty much ran its course in 48hrs. Also bless the staff at the hospital, they are real ones

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Current hand pic, can’t wait to get my sharper hands back.

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10k steps today 🎉

Gonna go to bed soon

Can’t wait to wake up and weigh myself

Hopefully the past week I’ve lost any amount of weight.

Started tracking my food again starting today

Not too bad for first day back on tracking.

Really easy to ignore how many calories are in food when I don’t track, definitely glad to be doing this again so I can actually see it

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Back on track after my trip with 10k steps a day

Was a lot easier getting back into it than I thought

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Back from my trip, I didn’t binge and didn’t really eat a whole lots, but I did have some gummy worms but not to worried about it

Staying on track

Here’s what I’m eating now for the evening

White rice, apple & peanut butter, some more water

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Got to 10k steps

Am a bit worried about getting in enough steps the next three days, taking a short trip to the west side, hopefully I’ll get to walk around tomorrow to do some thrifting at least

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Gotta get another 2k steps at least in the next 45 minutes

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Dinner tonight

Gonna watch something on YouTube probably and get the rest of my steps in after this

Also will probably have more soup

I’m a slut for soup

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I decided to create a masterpost that would help you with what you are struggling with. Hopefully any of the links below will help you! Reminder; You’re going to be okay. What you are going through will pass, just remember to breathe. 

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Distractions;

Here are some distractions to help keep your mind occupied so you aren’t too focused on your thoughts. 

-Draw something

-This website translates the time into colours.

-Create your own galaxy.

-Play flowing.

-Make a 3D line travel where ever you like. 

-Listen to music.

-Calm.

-Ocean mood, do nothing for two minutes.

Sleep issues; 

- 8 hour sleep music.

-Rainy mood. 

-Meditation.

-Coping with nightmares.

-How to cope with nightmares, 11 steps.

-Calm

-Foods that can affect your sleeping, both positive and negatively. 

 Uncomfortable with silence; 

-Rainy mood.

-10 hours of rain and thunder.

-3 hours of rain and thunder.

-Human heartbeat.

-Rainforest.

-Sound of rain on a tin roof.

-Autumn wind.

-Rain on a tent

-Traffic in the rain.

-Soft traffic. 

-Fan.

-Train.

-Simply noise.

-My noise.

-Rainy cafe.

Anxiety; 

-How to stop worrying. 

-Tips to manage anxiety and stress.

-The 10 best ever anxiety management techniques. 

-Self-help strategies for anxiety. 

-Helping a friend with anxiety. 

-All about worrying.

-8 myths about anxiety. 

Sad, angry and depressed/depression; 

-“I’m always sad”

-Feeling sad.

-Going through trauma.

-“I’m always angry”.

-Anger management. 

-All about anger.

-National helplines and websites.

-Self-help strategies for depression.

-Dealing with depression at work.

-Dealing with depression at school.

Isolation and loneliness; 

-Pets and mental health.

-All about loneliness. 

-“I feel so alone”

-10 more ideas to help with loneliness. 

-How to deal with loneliness.

 Self-harm;

-Alternatives to self-harm and distraction techniques.

-146 things to do besides self-harm.

-More alternatives to self-harm.

-Self-harm alternatives.

-How to take care of self-harm wounds/injuries.

-Getting rid of scars.  

Addiction; 

-How to help a friend with a drug addiction.

-What is addiction?

-All about alcohol and addiction.

-The facts about drug addiction.

 Eating disorders; 

-Helping a friend with an eating disorder.

-Eating disorder treatments. 

-Support services for eating disorders. 

-Self-help tips with eating disorders.

-Eating disorder recovery. 

-Recovering from an eating disorder. 

-100+ reasons to recover. 

-Understanding and managing eating disorders. 

 Dealing with self-hatred;  

-3 ways to ease self-loathing. 

-How to turn self-hatred into self-compassion.

-Self-hatred resources.

-10 step plan to deal with self-hate. 

 Suicidal; 

-International suicide hotlines (1)  (2)

-Preventing suicide. 

-Reasons to stay alive.

-Dealing with suicidal thoughts and feelings.

-Coping with suicidal ideation.  

 Schizophrenia;

-All about schizophrenia.  

-Helping a person with schizophrenia.  

-Understanding and dealing with schizophrenia.  

-Delusions and hallucinations.  

OCD;

-Managing your OCD at home. 

-Overcoming OCD.

-How to cope with OCD. 

-Strategies for dealing with the anxious moments. 

Borderline personality disorder; 

-Helping someone with BPD. 

-All about personality disorders.

-Treatment for BPD.

Abuse; 

-Healthy relationships VS abusive relationships. 

-Emotional abuse

-Overcoming sexual abuse. 

-Hotlines services. 

-5 ways to escape an abusive relationship. 

-Domestic violence support. 

-Signs of an abusive relationship. 

-What do to if you’re in an abusive relationship. 

-Surviving abuse. 

-What you can do if you’re sexual harassed. 

-Sexual assault support.

-What to do if you’ve been sexually assaulted or abused. 

 Bullying;

-How to stand up against bullying.

-How to protect yourself when it comes to cyber bullying.

-How to help stop people bullying you. 

 Loss and grief; 

-How to cope with a suicide of a loved one.

-Grieving for a stranger. 

-Common reactions to death. 

-Working through grief.

(Other loss and grief)

-Moving away from friends and family. 

-Coping with a breakup.

 Getting help; 

-Seeking help early. 

-All about psychological treatments. 

-Types of help.

-All about age and confidentiality. 

Things you need to remember; 

- Don’t stress about being fixed because you’re not broken.

-Remember to remind yourself of your accomplishments. Tell yourself that you’re proud of yourself, even if you’re not. 

- This is temporary. You won’t always feel like this. 

-You are not alone. 

-You are enough. 

-You are important. 

-You are worth it. 

-You are strong. 

-You are not a failure, 

-Good people exist. 

-Reaching out shows strength. 

-Breathe. 

-Don’t listen to the thoughts that are not helping you. 

-Give yourself credit. 

-Don’t be ashamed of your emotions, for the good or bad ones. 

-Treat yourself the same way as you would treat a good friend. 

-Focus on the things you can change. 

-Let go of toxic people. 

-You don’t need to hide, you’re allowed to feel the way you do. 

-Try not to beat yourself up. 

-Something is always happening, you don’t want to miss out on what’s going to happen next. 

-You are not a bother.

-Your existence is more than your appearance. 

-You are smart. 

-You are loved. 

-You are wanted. 

-You are needed. 

-Better days are coming. 

-Just because your past is dark, doesn’t mean your future isn’t bright. 

-You have more potential than you think. 

- Your value doesn’t decrease based on someone’s inability to see your worth.

Please remember to look after yourself and know that you are more than worth it and you deserve to be happy. Keep smiling butterflies x

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Another 10k steps completed

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11k steps today 🎉