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Is anyone here planning to visit the Pennsylvania Renaissance Faire for the vikings weekend on September 6th/7th?

I'll be attending myself, but it'd be cool to meet up with others doing the same!!

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Not vikings-related, but I would love it if y'all wouldn't mind sharing this for me. :) Big Baby is so important to me.

Help me get Big Baby to the plushie doctor!

Hey, everyone!! Right here is my beloved childhood friend, Big Baby. She is so much more than a plushie, and she shaped my life from birth when I was given her, she's helped me through many dark times including my fight against EDs and PTSD, and I've hugged her for more nights as I've slept than I haven't. I've had her since day one of life, over 25 years, and the love shows, but it's only right that she has that love returned in full. So I'm going to send her to the plushie doctor for a cleaning and eye replacement, and I need to fund the procedures with commissions!

The total needed is $110 for everything!

Commission options:

Pixel art: $40 (w/ background or just bg) or $30 (w/o background)

Photoshop scene: $40-60 (depending on complexity)

HeroForge models: $20 (or $30 for 2 characters)

HeroForge scene with Photoshop: $50

Full pixel screencap redraw: $100

Payment will be through PayPal, Venmo, or Zelle!

DM me here on Tumblr if interested!

GOAL: $0/110

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When you are used to the no-nonsense, no-context approach of medieval Irish stories, trying to read Old Norse saga literature does feel kind of like you're being told a medieval story by Uncle Colm from Derry Girls.

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Well. The viking just learned about protein withdrawal...! I'd be in my food coma rn if I hadn't slept the entire drive until this point!

I have realized the fucking hard ass way just how real protein withdrawal is. Like yes, I have been on testosterone over 7 years now. But I have never been this depraved of protein before in my life.

I spent a week at my aunt's, and literally 99% of what she had was just... fruit. More fruit. Everything had fruit. She literally had 1 vegetable, and it lasted 1 meal. No other vegetables the entire rest of the week. No eggs after the 1st day. Every meal she made and every condiment had fruit. I do not eat fruit. It's far too sweet for me, and my autism does NOT like the texture of any of it!! I was SCRAPING BY all week, and my mouth was salivating at the fucking thought of like... Wendy's even!! And I don't even like fast food at all!! I was just that desperate!!!

The only meat available was some honey ham and I had some of that, but like... by the final night I told my friends I would slaughter a grown man for a strip of pork loin or steak, a hamburger, a single chicken leg!!

Well this afternoon, we stopped at a Popeyes for lunch. I wasn't buying, so I ordered a 3pc chicken combo, and I guess Odin said enough waiting, I suffered too much in this wait for protein. Because I got handed a 5pc chicken combo with fries, handed the fries to my parents, and ate all 5 chicken strips by fucking INHALING THEM!!! It took less than 20min and these were LARGE strips, too, not small!

Now I'm ready for a food coma. Legit.

So to any folks on testosterone, know that your body fucking NEEDS that protein. You WILL feel the withdrawal without it.

Stay healthy. Eat meat.

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Since it's disability pride, friendly reminder...

This guy, Hafgrim Ahlberg Heimdallsson, who I made for this blog when it was an RP blog, is absolutely autistic with ADHD and has been from day one.

I made Hafgrim 10 years ago based on myself, an autistic man with ADHD. He's come a long way, but social cues are... not his strong suit, because they've never been mine and will probably never be. We both struggle to comprehend anything socially at al.

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So I graduated high school in 2018. My present was gonna be blacksmithing lessons, but due to the pandemic I never got to do them.

Today my mom said once my shoulder is fixed I'm gonna get my lessons!!!

Imagine that. Rehab through blacksmithing! (I mean, not actually, it'll be after rehab.) Still. That's perhaps the most metal thing I've ever done quite literally!!

Gods guide me to getting this fucking 5 year old injury surgically repaired so I can just live and craft again. Hell I miss doing crafts...

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So my boyfriend and I are going to go to his first Renaissance faire later this year. And I showed him my costume.

"You look like a Stormcloak," he said.

We laughed about this, and I joked that he greatly insults me with such a statement. To be fair, he hasn't played Skyrim, he just knows about Ulfirc being a dick lol. My boyfriend knows I'm nothing of the sort, he just genuinely knew I'd laugh if he said this, and I did.

I can't wait for the faire. :) This will be so much fun!!

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10 years ago, I questioned who I was. A girl, a boy, whatever I might be, because truly I had no idea, and the struggle ripped me apart. And 10 years ago, I took solace in the Norse gods, confiding in them for comfort, and gave them my honor as they soon led me to the answer.

For 10 years I've had my faith in the gods. Thor, Odin, Tyr, Loki. All of them have guided me and protected me.

My biggest defender, though? Easily it has been Thor.

I remember the comfort he offered in the little moments, and the darkest and hardest as well. I've worn his hammer for years, I wear it daily and go nowhere without it, and yet...

For the last 2 weeks it's been saying every day it'd thunder. We haven't had a single boom, or a single strike of lightning.

Today in the mail, my updated license with the male gender marker and current photo finally arrived. As soon as I opened it, the thunder began, and the storm has been raging for half an hour now. :)

Hail Thor! And thank you for always watching out for me.

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I know a ton of folks here also love HeroForge, and I gotta say, Kitbashing has been my absolute godsend!! I've pretty much used the site daily since they added it, and well... let's just say I've been testing the limits with it as shown here.

I'm fucking excited to print this model!!!! :)

My most complex HeroForge print is soon to be underway...

3 HeroForge models, 5 separate figure pieces in total, all sliced together into a 2-part print. All models were made with kitbashing.

Part 1 is the base with the rocks and banner. Part 2 is Gunnar Snowherald, a Human barbarian that transforms into a Dragon, and his Elf husband, Prince Eruvan, riding on his back. The print has both pieces scaled 250%.

How I broke it down in HeroForge took me multiple hours across a few days, and it took a ton of trial and error.

Step 1 was making the rocks. Then I shoved a bunch of weapons in there because that's Gunnar's hoard. He's a barbarian born of war, so of course he's gonna treasure weapons to defend the man he loves, and all his friends!

Step 2 was designing Gunnar. I used the raptor base, but shrunk and shifted the head into hiding, added wings, and replaced the tail with a large Dragon tail. Then used a second figure slot on the same model to add a base Dragonborn head with tons of horns applicable to Gunnar. I shrunk the Dragonborn body and got rid of the legs and arms, then put the head into place on the Dragon with the body hidden inside the raptor. And once I had that together, I put it on the rocks and added the banner, then posed him to be holding said banner, and his tail draped as shown.

Step 3 was the hardest bit of all. Because Gunnar's Dragon model used both figure slots, I could not put Eruvan directly onto Gunnar. So I went and took about 30 various screenshots to use as references of how exactly to pose Eruvan so that he could be holding one of his husband's horns while sitting on his back, and without any disruptive clipping to the model once it's put together. This process took me the most time, several hours, and it was extremely tedious and difficult. Patience, plus my screenshot references, were key!!! I still didn't quite get his hand on the horn right if you look closely enough, but it's acceptable to me since that's probably about as close as I'll get it without having to purchase the model again with new hand positioning.

Step 4 I had to separate the models accordingly to purchase and build the full thing. I put the banner and rocks as one model, then Gunnar as the second, and Eruvan as the third. Separate bases for all of them, and separate characters for Gunnar's model so that the head and body would be apart, and that's the next bit.

Step 5 was putting everything together in ChiTuBox. I put the rocks and banner down, then I pulled up Gunnar's 2 parts, the body and the head, and put that together, then I added Eruvan. But! Because I anticipated the hand positioning against the horns to be troublesome, I made sure Gunnar's head was separate from the body so that I could then position it slightly differently and angle it to more accommodate however Eruvan's hand wound up. Again, if you look closely, it's still not perfect, but it's still better than I hoped it would be.

Step 6 I just checked the model to ensure everything was as planned. When it was, I did the next bit.

Step 7 was separating the files. I took the full project file and made 2 copies. Opening the first copy, I deleted Gunnar and Eruvan entirely, leaving just the rocks and banner. I exported that as a whole STL file. Then for the second copy, I deleted the rocks and banner, leaving just Gunnar and Eruvan, and exported this as a whole STL file.

Step 8 I went ahead and opened these two new STLs, scaled each to 250%, and tilted Gunnar to fit better, added supports, and sliced to print!!

Now tomorrow I'll go ahead and print the pieces!! Gunnar and Eruvan will probably take a day or two, seeing I've got a somewhat older printer lol. But I'm chill with that because this is going to be epic!! My only debacle is if I should then create a separate base for the whole model to stand on, with some added stuff to make it extra cool, or if I should leave it as it is with Gunnar and Eruvan on the rocks, nothing else. But if I were to make a custom base, I have no idea what I'd do. Maybe add a ton of Orcs because they fight Orcs together?

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No, app on my phone, I don't want to edit it with AI. I don't want to generate with AI. I don't want to ask the AI. I don't want to make AI wallpapers. I don't want to rewrite with AI. I don't want t-

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I only just found out today that One Piece has a character named Loki. I never watched the anime or read the manga, it's far too long and never caught my interest (not my cup of tea for media tbh), but still that Loki has a cool design.

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I have heard of a cat, YEARS ago now, named Princess Monster Truck - that was because of you??? Anyway you've been successful at LEAST twice with that name suggestion, unsurprising since it's a phenomenal name for a cat.

OH MY GOD ARE YOU SERIOUS??!!?!?! Oh nonie, this makes my night INFINITELY better, thank you!!!! :D

All hail Princess Monster Truck, wherever they are now!! You are a lord/lady/etc. who all shall kneel to in honor!!!

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Ok, I have zero idea why I tried avoiding Loki for so many years at first.

I spent a decade trying to convince random folks online to name their cats Princess Monster Truck (gender neutral), and yesterday I found a reddit called "Name My Cat". I suggested the name to someone in a post.

Today someone randomly made a post saying 4 strays are in their house, and they caught one and want to name it Princess Monster Truck.

Meaning this random user saw my name suggestion, because who the hell else is going to ever suggest such an unhinged name, and they loved that name as much as I do.

I love this. I love that user. I'm so happy. And by Loki I pray they take that name forever and henceforth their cat will be eternally Princess Monster Truck.

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Loki in Hiding

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I often see Loki in his 'outcast' or hermitic aspect. Here he hides in the wilderness, returning to perhaps an older form. I view him in a cave, lit by a modest fire. He sits cloaked and hooded. Before him is a low, rounded working surface on which he weaves a spiraling net that resembles a spider's web.

I believe that one of Loki's oldest forms is as the weaver of nets, setter of traps. He embodies the way humans have survived in the wild through outsmarting and tricking potential prey as well as predators. To the hunter-gatherer, stealth and trickery is a vital skill. I wonder to myself if his name could have the same roots as words like the Finnish loukku (trap) and Russian ло́вкий ('lóvkij' - skillfull, cunning).

As outcast, to me Loki does not seem uncomfortable or desperate, he returns to his natural state. Here he is not "Slanderer of the Gods" or "Forger of Evil", he is just Loki.

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Found on Facebook. Just so y'all know where my blog stands.

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I had to get blood drawn today, and I absolutely am TERRIFIED of needles despite getting draws every month at least for multiple years. So all day, my boyfriend was hyping me up, and jokingly said the Allfather requires I be strong for this!! And I joked back saying I am not permitted to shed the blood of another until I shed my own.

Well I came back out from the lab and told him, "I SURVIVED SACRIFICING MY BLOOD FOR THE BLOOD GOD!!!" And he called me his litter berserker.

Then I drove home blasting Gates of Ekrund because I love that song and Wind Rose, and my boyfriend has been dragging me into WH40k lol.

As I always say, why try to settle for normal when you can find someone who understands your weird?