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                                  and in that moment of loss my world collapsed                                                       ------ where there was light became shadows;                              the pain coming and going like waves on frigid sand~

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t a g   d r o p .

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I’m not really certain which is more tragic: loving someone who does not love you back or loving someone but not loving yourself.

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goosebumps rippled through the pale skin of her arms as a wave of icy cold air washed over them, eliciting a sigh from the brunette.  she couldn’t believe it.  vicki hadn’t spoken to alex danvers since high school  --  ten years it had been  --  and every time she glanced over in danvers’ direction, she was hit with nothing but bad memories; thoughts; feelings; things she really did not want to relive.  how could it be, that after all this time  ---  after all the years it took her to truly recover from the effect her then best friend had on her, she had ended up trapped somewhere deep in the trenches of national city, with the woman who vicki still claims, broke her all those years ago.  

vicki wasn’t sure of the specifics of what was happening here: some alien attack or something.  she had heard alex trying to communicate with whoever was on the other end of her coms, but the technical talk went straight over her head so she couldn’t decode anything.  however, the com system had since failed to work and no one, including themselves, knew where they were exactly.  so for the last hour they could just hear the ongoing commotion above them as something tore through their city; the screams, sirens, the explosions.  

vicki was scared to say least... about alex, about being stuck here, about the possibility of dying.  because it would be dark really soon, and then what?  it had been mid evening when she was walking back to her apartment and a woman, who unbeknownst to her at the time was agent danvers, tried to usher her to safety.  and then... this.  it all happened so fast, loud bangs, explosions, and then suddenly she was the bottom of some kind of manhole.  however, the fear hadn’t been quite as strong as when she looked up to see the woman holding out her hand to help her up was her former childhood friend.

with her eyes gazing up at alex every ten seconds or so, making sure she wasn’t looking, vicki lifted up the bottom of her shirt to reveal a large gash along her right side; which she assumed had happened when she and alex crashed through the floor and the buildings surrounding them came tumbling down overhead.  they were lucky to be alive right now, but with a gaping hole in her stomach and the slim chance of them actually being found, vicki didn’t believe they were getting out of here alive anyway. 

trembling fingers moved over the wound sitting just below vicki’s ribs;  there was something there, a small piece of shrapnel poking out of her skin and as she attempted to pull it out, a sharp pain shot through her body.  the brunette winced, sucking air through her teeth as pulled away quickly.  there was no way she could pull it out, but if she didn’t, it would only get infected. 

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*: ･ﾟ✧   christmas songs sentence starters

“ it’s beginning to look a lot like christmas.”

“ the prettiest sight to see is the holly that will be at your own front door.”

“ there’s a tree in the grand hotel. one in the park as well.”

“ it’s the sturdy kind that doesn’t mind the snow.”

“ soon the bells will start.”

“ c’mon, it’s lovely weather for a sleigh ride.”

“ outside the snow is falling.”

“ have a holly jolly christmas!”

“ it’s the best time of the year.”

“ i don’t know if there’ll be snow, but have a cup of cheer.”

“ oh the weather outside is frightful.”

“ the fire is so delightful.”

“ let it snow!”

“ it’s the most wonderful time of the year.”

“ it’s the hap-happiest season of all.”

“ they know that santa’s on his way.”

“ he’s loaded lots of toys and goodies on his sleigh.”

“ although it’s been said many times, many ways, merry christmas to you.”

“ may your days be marry and bright.”

“ please have snow and mistletoe and presents by the tree.”

“ snow is glistening, a beautiful sight.”

“ we can build a snowman.”

“ we’ll have lots of fun with mr snowman.”

“ when it snows ain’t it thrilling?”

“ let the christmas spirit ring.”

“ later we’ll have some pumpkin pie and we’ll do some carolling.”

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But what if we were meant for each other? You weren’t suppose to be the one that got away. How did we end up here?

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🌺 Send this to 10 other bloggers you think are wonderful. 🌺

*licks your face*  thank you precious one, you are the most wonderful.

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aahh! thank you; ohh so lovely & super talented friend of mine!

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' why didn't you just tell me ? '

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“because…”  a beat;  she didn’t know what to say.  vicki knew now how she felt back then; how the sheer sight of alex danvers made her light up inside --- even just a glimpse of her from across a crowded room was enough to make vicki’s heart race with admiration.  but it wasn’t always this easy for her to comprehend.  it wasn’t acceptable to feel that way, or so she believed once upon a time.  “it wasn’t something i could admit... even to myself.”  she replied, hesitantly.  “i was trying to fix myself, but, well, obviously i couldn’t do that... you know how it is---”   and with that statement, she realised one thing; she wasn’t entirely to blame for this whole fallout.  “and you never told me, either.”  she stated, brow raising with slight judgement. 

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❛ What did I ever do so wrong to you for you to hate me? ❜

[ meme / accepting ]   ///   @kara-zorxel

“i don’t hate you, kara.”  vicki breathed a sigh, dark wavy curls ruffling as she shook her head softly.  “i’ve never hated you– it’s just that, back in high school i was dealing with a lot! y’know my sexuality, and religion…”  she admitted.  it hadn’t been long after kara showed up, when things started to change between the two best friends.  vicki became jealous of kara, who seemed to have most of alex’s attention, and she hated how secretive alex became around her; this is when vicki began to realise she had feelings for her that were more than just platonic.  “i shouldn’t have blamed you for why tried to distance myself from alex, because it wasn’t your fault.”  she found, in the end, it became easier to push alex away with kara as her reasoning, instead of dealing with the real issue; especially when alex was so willing to push back.

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MORE QUESTION SENTENCE STARTERS.

❛ Why are we doing this again? ❜ ❛ Is this a bootycall? ❜ ❛ Did you really just ask me that? ❜ ❛ You don’t think I’m going, do you? ❜ ❛ What happened between you and _____? ❜ ❛ So, are you two dating? ❜ ❛ You think you control my life now? ❜ ❛ What did you do? ❜ ❛ How far along are you now? ❜ ❛ Was this your plan all along? ❜ ❛ Why didn’t you just tell me? ❜ ❛ Are you sure you’re not keeping any secrets? ❜ ❛ Are you sure you’re telling me everything? ❜ ❛ Why would you even begin to think that? ❜ ❛ Did someone tell you that? ❜ ❛ What’s the time again? ❜ ❛ Are you ever going to come back? ❜ ❛ Wait, what? Where did you hear that at? ❜ ❛ Are you here to lie to me again? ❜ ❛ Did you really think that? After all this time? ❜ ❛ Why are you leaving me? ❜ ❛ Why should I believe you? ❜ ❛ Why don’t you understand? ❜ ❛ Do you really think I’m going to trust you that easily? ❜ ❛ You mean, you weren’t joking about that? ❜ ❛ Is that really how you feel? ❜ ❛ Do you remember anything, at all? ❜ ❛ How could you go behind my back and do that? ❜ ❛ You didn’t tell me about this? ❜ ❛ So, is there any exciting news to hear? ❜ ❛ You think I’m inclined to believe that? ❜ ❛ How long do you think I will wait for that happen? ❜ ❛ Why aren’t you laughing, was it not funny? ❜ ❛ Why are you staring at me like that? ❜ ❛ Are you okay? What the hell happened? ❜ ❛ Did you go somewhere else without me again? ❜ ❛ Is it you or is it me? ❜ ❛ You think I owe you an apology? For what? ❜ ❛ What did I ever do so wrong to you for you to hate me? ❜ ❛ Why do you hate me so much? ❜ ❛ What did I ever do to you? ❜ ❛ Okay, where is all this coming from exactly? ❜ ❛ Are you trying to break up with me right now? ❜ ❛ Is this part where we kiss? ❜ ❛ Are you trying to kiss me right now? ❜ ❛ Are you going to let me by or not? ❜ ❛ So, are you in or are you out? ❜ ❛ Are we going to stand out here all night? ❜ ❛ You didn’t even bother to tell me about this? ❜ ❛ What else are you lying about? ❜ ❛ Are you hiding something for me? ❜ ❛ Did you even notice that I was gone? ❜ ❛ What are you doing here? ❜ ❛ You know you aren’t allowed in here, right? ❜ ❛ Did you kill someone? ❜ ❛ Are you sure you’re not hiding anything? ❜ ❛ What, you think this is some kind of game? ❜ ❛ What are you having doubts about? ❜ ❛ You don’t think we’re wasting time? ❜ ❛ Is that a threat or a promise? ❜ ❛ Oh, so you don’t kiss and tell anymore? ❜ ❛ What more do you want me to do? ❜ ❛ What am I going to do without you? ❜ ❛ How long have you known about this? ❜ ❛ You’re not starting to like me are you? ❜ ❛ Is this your way of saying sorry? ❜ ❛ Who would buy that? ❜ ❛ You know, I don’t want to see you, right? ❜ ❛ Have you been drinking? Are you drunk? ❜ ❛ How much have you had to drink tonight? ❜ ❛ How’s that hangover from last night? ❜ ❛ Long night, huh? ❜ ❛ So, did I miss anything interesting? ❜ ❛ What are you watching over there? ❜ ❛ Who are you texting? ❜ ❛ Who’s got you smiling? ❜ ❛ You didn’t hear that? ❜ ❛ Is this a date or? ❜ ❛ Are you going to ignore me forever? ❜ ❛ How long before your silent treatment breaks? ❜ ❛ What can I do to make up for it? ❜ ❛ Will you please just talk to him/her for me? ❜ ❛ Are you here to apologize? ❜ ❛ Do you ever stop talking? ❜ ❛ Is that really still a thing these days? ❜ ❛ Are you laughing at me or with me? ❜ ❛ What was it like before she/he was here? ❜ ❛ Do you remember me at all? ❜ ❛ Are you in trouble? ❜ ❛ You’re not in any kind of trouble, are you? ❜ ❛ There was something you needed to tell me? ❜ ❛ Are you insulting me right now? ❜ ❛ Is that supposed to be some kind of an insult? ❜ ❛ You do realize you’re wrong, right? ❜ ❛ What’s so wrong with that? ❜ ❛ Is that such a bad thing? ❜ ❛ You’re not going to be sick again, are you? ❜ ❛ You really the police? Why would you do that? ❜ ❛ You really don’t trust me anymore? ❜ ❛ Aren’t we friends? ❛ Why do you always lie to me? ❜ ❛ Why is it so hard to face the truth? ❜ ❛ Why is it so hard for you to tell the truth? ❜ ❛ Where do you think youre going? ❜ ❛ So that’s it then? You’re just going to walk out? ❜ ❛ Don’t you believe me? ❜ ❛ Do you love me? Do you even like me? ❜ ❛ What’s stopping us from being together other than you? ❜ ❛ How come it took you so long to answer? ❜ ❛ Why are you ignoring me? ❜ ❛ I thought we were friends, how could you do this? ❜ ❛ Are you really wearing that? ❜ ❛ You really think that will help? ❜ ❛ Do you ever think about us? ❜ ❛ Why are you standing on my porch in the middle of the night? ❜ ❛ Are you crazy? Have you lost your mind? ❜ ❛ What did I say? ❜ ❛ Why are you having such a hard time believing me? ❜ ❛ What’s your excuse? ❜ ❛ Did you think I wouldn’t find out? ❜ ❛ How did you find this out? Who told you? ❜ ❛ Are we really going to this stupid party? ❜ ❛ Why are you always so sad? ❜ ❛ Why do you care so little about everything? ❜ ❛ What was it like? ❜ ❛ Are you setting me up? ❜ ❛ As long as you aren’t setting me up for failure, okay? ❜ ❛ Do you believe in love? Do you believe in us? ❜

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                 ❝ if there’s one thing i hate;  it’s men getting in the way of what i want. ❞

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​it was crazy to think that twelve years ago the two of them were actually inseparable;  alex and vicki did almost everything together during their early high school years, but vicki had found herself battling her inner demons when she came to realize that she was starting to like alex as more than a friend.  however, with her being part of her conservative family, this wasn’t something she was able to come to terms with  —  at least not back then.  so she dated quite a few guys, concentrated on them instead of her vastly growing feelings for alex danvers.  however, nothing ever felt the same as those heart stopping moments she had with her best friend  ——  because she could feel something, like some unseen force was pulling her in.  so when she lost alex all those years ago, though it seemed necessary, it was also extremely painful for her.

but now, over a decade since they last saw each other, vicki had unexpectedly run into alex at a coffee shop that was not too far from where vicki’s dad was currently living.  she was in town visiting her father, as she did every thanksgiving, now with her one year old son, malakai.  flash forward another eight hours, and somehow she found herself sitting on agent danvers’ couch, drinking whiskey with her high school crush.

“so, an agent, huh?”  vicki cocked her head to the side, brow rose suggestively.  “i never figured you to be the type– i mean, i always imagined you in some lab somewhere; discovering some new planet… that’s you’d probably name after yourself…”  a soft laugh brushed past her lips, as vicki brought her glass to her lips, before taking a quick sip of the liquor.

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