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What country are you from?

Indonesia

(tbh, this is the first time I get anon question^^)

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NOT EVERYTHING IS ABOUT A GOD DAMN RELATIONSHIP AND LOSING WEIGHT AND BEING BEAUTIFUL FOR GODS SAKE GO OUTSIDE AND ROB A STORE AND FEEL ALIVE AS YOU RUN AWAY FROM SECURITY

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I still can’t get over how Naruto is literally named after the little pink spiral thingies you get in ramen noodles

the western equivalent would be like naming your kid fucking Crouton

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Not really. Like what you like, don’t let it affect you. 

The worst part of a breakup is that all your favorite things instantly become sour because they remind you of your ex. (Places, activities, movies)

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The End of Seasons

Di suatu pulau kecil yang indah hiduplah sekelompok orang yang saling menyayangi. Mereka membantu satu sama lain, dan mengatur pulau kecil tersebut bersama. Seorang diantara mereka akan mengatur angin dan menciptakan nyanyian indah bersama bertiupnya angin. Seorang yang lain akan melukis awan di langit, tumbuh-tumbuhan, hiasan, buah-buahan, bunga-bungaan, dan juga bintang-bintang, sehingga kemanapun mereka memandang mereka akan menemui keindahan. Seorang dari mereka akan menceritakan kabar-kabar bahagia dan dongeng-dongeng indah, membebaskan ketiga orang lainnya dari beban kehidupan yang mereka rasakan. Sedangkan orang keempat, ia tidak bisa melakukan apapun. Ia tidak bisa bernyanyi atau melukis, atau berbicara. Ia hanya bisa membersihkan pulau itu dan merapikan hal-hal kecil lain. Ia bergantung kepada keempat temannya yang lain. Ia lemah.

Mereka hidup dengan bahagia meskipun tidak ada pujian yang mereka ucapkan kepada satu sama lain. Akan tetapi mereka menyadari bahwa apa yang mereka lakukan telah membuat teman mereka bahagia hanya dengan melihat senyum dan mata satu sama lain. Tidak ada kata-kata yang mereka ucapkan, tapi mereka bisa merasakan rasa terima kasih dari penghuni pulau yang lain.

Hingga suatu hari seseorang menunjungi pulau mereka dan mengatakan bahwa mereka tidak merawat pulau itu dengan benar. Mereka hanya membuang-buang tenaga mereka, tidak ada sesuatu dari pulau itu yang menarik. Pulau itu sama dengan pulau yang lain. Ketiga penghuni pulau tersebut merasa terpukul dengan hal tersebut dan mulai berhenti melakukan kegiatan mereka. Hanya orang keempat yang berusaha meminta mereka untuk kembali melakukan apa yang biasa mereka lakukan. Sayangnya ia tidak bisa berbicara, dan ekspresi matanya tidak cukup untuk meyakinkan ketiga orang lain.

Akhirnya ketiga orang lain pergi meninggalkan pulau tersebut. Meninggalkan orang keempat sendirian. Mereka bertekad untuk melihat lebih banyak pulau dan menjadikan pulau mereka seindah pulau lain. Orang keempat hidup seorang diri. Ia tidak bisa melihat apapun, tidak warna, tidak pula putihnya awan. Ia tidak bisa merasakan atau mendengar apapun. Ia tidak bisa tersenyum atau bersedih. Pulau itu begitu sunyi. Orang keempat mulai menangis.

Setelah beberapa saat berlalu keempat orang lain memutuskan untuk kembali ke pulau mereka dan melihat apa yang terjadi kepada orang keempat yang mereka tinggalkan. Tapi mereka tidak bisa menemukan kembali pulau mereka. Tidak ada apapun di tempat dimana pulau mereka seharusnya berada. Mereka mencoba menyelam dan melihat apakah mungkin pulau mereka telah ditenggelamkan oleh laut. Tapi tak ada apapun yang mereka temukan di dasar laut. Mereka mencoba mengelilingi perairan tersebut, berharap bahwa mereka bisa menemukan sedikit petunjuk tentang dimana teman mereka berada. Tapi mereka tak menemukan apapun.

Mereka kehilangan pulau mereka. Mereka kehilangan teman lemah mereka yang tak bisa melakukan apapun kecuali menangisi musim yang telah berakhir. Dan semua hal yang telah mereka tinggalkan, mereka tidak akan bisa memilikinya lagi. 

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We simply boarding and sharing the same train, and he decided that this is his stop. He decided he will drop here and continue with his journey. So this should ends here. He wasn't responsible for my happiness, and so do I. He has his own life and way, he has decided it. I am simply staying in this empty car and weeping myself to sleep. And maybe I will stay here longer until my next train come. The train was nice, it was. It was warm, it was. It was cheerful, it was. But now that it is empty, the emptiness feels heavy. It wasn't his fault that his feeling changed. It wasn't his fault that he wants to drop at this stop. It was how I love the train and the trip that it hurts when it stops. It was my naivete that brings me to love this trip, to think that this trip will last longer. But it wasn't my fault either. It just simply that we don't share the same train anymore. His journey will continue, so do mine.

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Someone once said to me, “I hope the pain eases soon.” It struck me as the purest blessing that had ever been offered over my head - I hope the pain eases soon. It’s so gentle, so kind, so hopeful. So to everyone who’s hurting: I see how hard you’re trying, and I hope your pain will ease soon.

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“I crave touch, yet I flinch every time someone is close enough.” - Unknown  

via @quotemadness

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Good Bye Daddy

I once own a house It was warm and safety It was spacious and bright I was loved and I love it I wish I could stay there forever I think I will stay there forever I don’t think I need Another one But then The house was tired Of all my sweetness and other things It desired more than just a little girl Who rattled and running here and there Who took care of it like it was and will be hers forever Who only know about smiling Even when everyone around her Throwing tantrum over what happened to her house And no matter how much she cried and blew her head No matter how much she screamed and cursed She found herself smiling in the sunset For the sunset Is the time when the day faltered but the night yet to come And you might encounter something you won’t found or see With your eyes No matter how much she wanted to hate her house She kept the laugh and sweet memories Because it once warm It once safe It’s no longer that way And it’s the time to bet good bye But the house Do you feel sad that you hurt her? Do wish you can do better? Do you wish you can protect her? Don’t you say you would? I don’t blame you big house For the little girl is too big for you

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I once knew a man I once talked to a very warm creature I once.... Live I don't know where this person go I don't know what happened They stopped talking to me They stopped looking at me I stood here and watched as they walked away I sat here and watched as they greet people around I But they didn't notice me I brought them the most beautiful things human can't buy I talked to them with my cheerful manners But I I stood here while they make sad face, songs, and....quiet They don't talk to me anymore I sat there and talk to people who come So that they When they come back They see people still waiting But they.... .... Th....the..they They never look at me again They leave me rotten for watching them sad The person I knew Is dead

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In the world I don't exist

In the world I don't exist, I could imagine you smile brightly And laughter, that warm and annoying laughter of yours Will always be there In the world I don't exist Maybe you will always smiling And you don't have to answer all the mundane questions In the world I don't exist I could see you find people who love you So without me, there will be no pain In the world I don't exist If in that world where I cease to exist People will be happier People will be more cheerful No pain of losing No pain of missing out Then I... In the world you live without me Will be there any sorrow When you remember that there were a world a small girl exists

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Don’t hurt me

Don’t hurt me

Don’t hurt me

Don’t hurt me

Don’t hurt me

Don’t hurt me

Don’t hurt me

Don’t hurt me

Don’t hurt me

I’m scared

Don’t hurt me

Don’t hurt me

Don’t hurt me

Don’t hurt me

You will hurt me

Everyone will

Don’t hurt me

Don’t hurt me

Don’t hurt me

Leave me alone

Don’t hurt me

Don’t hurt me

Don’t hurt me

It is hurt

But leave me alone

Don’t

Don’t

Don’t

Don’t

Don’t

Don’t

Please

Don’t

Hurt

Me

I’m scared

I’m scared

I’m scared

It is dark

I don’t know what to do

My tears are falling on my cheeks

My head hurts

But I don’t know

What to do

Don’t hurt me

Don’t hurt me

Don’t hurt me don’t hurt me don’t hurt me don’t hurt me don’t hurt me don’t hurt me don’t hurt me

Don’tdon’tdon’tdon’tdon’tdon’tdon’tdon’tdon’tdon’tdon’tdon’tdon’tdon’t

It’shurtit’shurtit’shurtit’shurtit’shurt

Idon’tknowanymore

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The girl cried in front of me. Her breath was short, and she kept saying the words, the words that bites me like a frosted teeth made from sharp glasses.

‘don’t hurt me,’ she said

‘don’t hurt me, please’

And I don’t understand, I’m not trying to hurt her, I’m not‑but she kept on saying it: don’t hurt me, don’t hurt me, please.

‘but I’m not trying to hurt you sweet‑’

‘no, don’t hurt me’

What in world could make someone so scared? What in the world could make someone think that other people kindness will hurt her? I don’t understand, and I can’t reach her.

She is so close, but unreachable, and I don’t understand what I should do to help her.

I am powerless

But she needs help

But my hands are

Weak

And I don’t know anymore

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