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why do people complain like nonstop asking for help just to ignore those who offer to help. like i am trying to lend a hand but you just dont want it? its not that people dont care about you, you just dont want them to

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Actually i think the tragedy of sibling incest is when children get raped by their own family but okay!!!

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its funny/sad seeing how many fauxcest posters have clearly never experienced anything remotely similar. like can yall be even 1% more careful with your words before making posts that, after getting reblogged by someone not using those tags, could 100% explicitly being about incestually raping a prepubescent girl

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I wonder how many people with incest kinks have actually ever been affected by it. From the way people here on tumblr talk about how great and amazing sibling incest is, probably not that many

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This morning you were resting in my bed

While I was awake

Work in a few hours

Responsibility we can't deny.

We both Love capitalism. We both Love working for wages

But you were so warm, so soft, so sleepy

In my bed- all for me

All mine, we rest together

Evetything I need

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"I love you mommy"

It feels unnatural. It feels broken. Empty. Until you. Until someone is there, for the first time.

Words that never even formed on my tongue

Other than as a child playing with dolls

I love you.

Mom.

I dont know her. I know you. I love you.

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every time i send a text its like my fingers are screaming want me, need me, love me

need me the way i need you. talk to me as if you enjoy my words and want to share yours

im so tired of crawling, im so tired of clawing

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older sister who pins you down and ties you up and talks to you about cutting you up in front of an audience to sell your body

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it sucks being whatever the opposite of a weird brianwashed terf is. oughhh i cant sleep with afab people bc my abuser had a pussy. get over yourself

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being told "im not good enough for you" by someone you really like and want fucking sucks. i know it comes out of their own insecurities but it ends up still sounding like "there is something you can change about yourself then ill think we deserve to be together"

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i try not to think of ten years ago

of orange triangles and a sleeping angel

fish on blue walls, rope around my wrists

on the bed, someone was on me

i try not to think of ten years ago

of the dream i had where she killed me

and he killed her, and he killed him and himself

and it was all my fault, she said

i try not to think of ten years ago

walking alone in the street, bitter

hoping selfishly to be gore

tied up on the powerlines, setting with the sun

i try not to think about being a child

but the mold inside seeps through my pores

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SHUT UPNSHIT UO SHUTNUP SHUT UP I DONT WANT THERE TO HE NOISE IN MY APARTMENT

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it sucks listening to songs about rape and wondering was i actually raped? no i wasnt yes i was no i wasnt yes i was no i was yes i wasnt i wasnt i was i dont know

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i can be trusted to posess a body

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i want to bleed you out if me

do you remember how we used to run?i wish i could hold you again. will you come over tomorrow and hold me?i miss you.i miss you. i miss you. i hate you. dont come close. i dont want to see you or hear your voice again. i dont want to think of you but you invade and live here in my thoughts when you want. i want to kill you, i want to kill the part of you that is me.

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do you remember how we used to run?i wish i could hold you again. will you come over tomorrow and hold me?i miss you.i miss you. i miss you. i hate you. dont come close. i dont want to see you or hear your voice again. i dont want to think of you but you invade and live here in my thoughts when you want. i want to kill you, i want to kill the part of you that is me.