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Genuinely dont know if its because im neurodivergent or just EXTREAMLY sensitive to conflict but I just feel like when I say the wrong thing (accidentally) and people get mad. I would think and sob about it all day 24/7. I cant get it out of my head and it causes me extreme anxiety. Genuinely cant even function and thinking abt it constantly. Im unaware of what I did and I will apologize if what I did was wrong. But I guess the hard thing is that I dont recognize tone and an the secret "implication" of my words that other people derive. In reality, I don't mean anything by them, take my words of tease with a grain of salt. No bad intentions no pettiness I just tend to blurt out stuff.

And what I hate the most is that the course of action people take when they're mad at me is they give me silent treatment. I NEED clear indications and instructions when conflict arises. I mean I NEED THEM. Please do not expect me to understand you, I will fail. It feels like I wasnt given any memo , I dont even get to have an equal understanding to why a conflict happens to me. I just get stranded with unclear guilt.

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The beauty of perspective 😭 I love new spins on social understandings of love

I love soulmates but also this-

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SOMEBODY SEDATE ME all i can think about is aziraphale and crowley my heart hurts and i miss them and and and

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smitten | adjective | smit·​ten deeply affected with or struck by strong feelings of attraction, affection, or infatuation

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would you believe me if i said this was based off of a minecraft interaction

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tori spring, ⠀i have been looking for you ⠀⠀forever.

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so…um. how are we feeling good omens fans

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It's going to be rough after those GO news dropped yesterday but I read quite a lot of posts with people who saw it on a more positive side and I am trying to do the same.

Am I disappointed that we get one single episode of 90min instead of the planned 6 episodes?

Yes.

Am I sad that we will miss so many precious moments, minisodes, character developments and interactions because of this?

Absolutely.

But I am grateful that we at least get a conclusion instead of having to live with the bitter cliffhanger from S2.

I am also grateful for all the people who fought for this and made it possible that we can now say that we at least got those 90min. From what I read it was this close to just be canceled completely.

But it will definitely take some time for me to be truely "happy" about the "at least we got something" reality because my mind is not ready to let go of the "what could have been".

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crowley and aziraphale deserved better. we deserved better. david and michael deserved better. terry pratchett deserved better. the whole crew deserved better.

AND most importantly: gaiman's six victims deserved better. they had to go through his abuse and suffer because of him.

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PETITION TO CHANGE SEASON THREE BACK TO SIX EPISODES

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Remember: you don’t have to choose.

You can be grateful that we are getting an on-screen, canon completion to Good Omens, AND devastated that the time we had anticipated getting to spend with our favorite idiots has been slashed by 75%.

You can acknowledge how close the series obviously came to being canned entirely and give a sigh of relief, AND weep for the storylines and flashbacks that will be chiseled away or cut entirely.

You can logically accept that a good movie can accomplish a hell of a lot in ninety minutes, and Good Omens will have a massive leg-up because all of the establishing elements are already there and they can basically jump right into the action, AND feel disappointment and sorrow — grief, honestly — for the loss of what we have been anticipating for so long.

Good and bad, light and shadow, joy and pain — they aren’t mutually exclusive. One does not cancel out the other. They can coexist…and sometimes they must. Don’t try to stamp out one side or the other, either in your own heart or in someone else.

Feel your big feelings. Give them space to breathe. Feelings are neutral; it’s what you do with them that counts.

So hang in there. We’re all in this together 💛

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It was my birthday yesterday, and my closest friends gave me good omens related gifts that were BEYOND of what I deserve .. I genuinely truly love my friends, I dont know what I did to deserve them.

One of them gave me the funko pop (which was extremely expensive and hard to find, trust me I've been looking for one for 2 years) and the other wrote me a beautiful heartfelt letter and qouted Good Omens at the end which really just made me bawl my eyes out.

Love and cherish your friends, they really could be your soulmates . . .

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Hes innocent he does no wrong!!

"I think Aziraphale needs to learn a lot more than that..."

Why do people keep (telling me again and again about this quote) assuming that Neil means Aziraphale needs some moral lessons, get off his high horse, learn some hard truths about Heaven, escape their grasp, finally understand that they are bad etc etc etc.

When the ask is about how Crowley is always forgiven from Aziraphale's point of view and how what (I see) Neil means is that Azi should also be told he's good enough. That he can be loved.

That what he needs to learn is how to believe in himself. To trust his mind, his feelings, to believe he is enough, he always was, that he doesn't have to be perfect or 100% right, that it is not possible and that it's okay. That he's okay. That he was lied to.

I wish we would frame Aziraphale's journey/learning as something else, not morality/awakening of some sort. Not as something he has to overcome. When Crowley changes his mind on something, no one says, oh have a gold star, you went against what Hell wants from you. Well done! Why do we do that to Aziraphale. Crowley is seen in Hell, giving presentations on some half hearted ideas that no one there really gets and getting accolades for things he didn't do at all and everyone is like, oh yay, look at him, so clever. Hahahah. Aziraphale also has to follow rules and do his tasks whether he agrees with them or not or he will be punished. He's not doing it for fun. He breaks rules when he feels he simply must and then everyone is like oh look, he is finally abandoning the rigid thinking that Heaven showed/taught him. But really, the naïve slow angel, he should try even harder.

Why such double standards?

Aziraphale is good and wants to do good. He is not sure of himself, true, but that's hardly his fault. Crowley is also good and tries to do good or at least limit the bad things he needs to do to survive.

They are two sides of the same coin. They both learn and grow. Sometimes the treatment the Ineffables get reminds me of how differently boys and girls are treated when they are learning behaviour. Boys praised for anything and everything even remotely good they do (cos they are expected to be naughty) and girls get the oh you should have already known better treatment. Aziraphale saved Job's kids cos he thought it was a horrible thing to want to do and expected to be punished for it. That's not - he didn't, it didn't change who he is. He did it expecting Falling. That's extremely brave. Yes Crowley has Fallen and people tend to see this as some extra superior move on his behalf, like he had everything figured out, understood how bad Heaven was and tried to bravely fix it. And Aziraphale needs to catch up with him. (If not by Falling himself than by doing some extraordinary learning journey to catch up with Crowley's knowledge). No. That's all HC. We don't even know why Crowley Fell. We don't. We know what he says happened (and we also know that he's not a reliable narrator...) and that's all we know. And even the things he says are not exactly showing him as some truth waving hero only wanting to make Heaven better for everyone and failing. Aziraphale is not breaking rules cos suddenly he used his brain and saw how Heaven is bad. He already knows that. He's risking punishment to help others. Again and again. And that's very kind and admirable and everything but it's not his evolving morality. He's already moral. He's already good. He always was.

He's also fucking cute. Let's not forget.

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They're so annoying i hate them sm 😔😔 <333

Here it is!! 🫶🏻 Commission I've made for @bucky1984 for their collection of fanfic prompts ! You can read them here

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Having AI guilt as a writer is agonizing. I somewhat feel my ability slowly fading, I want to do better but time feels like a boulder rolling down a hill, I cant stop nor can I control it. Im countlessly tempted in quick and easy alternatives to meet deadlines for essays or studying. My hands dont feel like my hands, my eyes don't feel like my eyes and my brain feels like its sleeping.

I want to write and produce mountains of myself. I want to paint until i cant identify reality and my creation. I want to get lost in myself and love every part of it. If only time were on my side.