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*clears throat* *distant sounds of guess who’s back*

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Hello anyone still following me I have a question if I came back to rp would anyone still Ben interested in interacting 

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Official Actual PSA from Kai

Hi guys. I know a couple weeks ago I came on here with the intention to get back into roleplaying, and I’m really sorry I never did. Since graduating high school, I’ve been struck with the sudden realization of my mortality, and I underwent a bit of an existential crisis that I buried under work and other family related things. I also realized why roleplaying made me so damn miserable while I was out trying to be an actual person for once. While I have met a handful of beautiful, wonderful souls through my writing, I have also met a lot of people who have caused me distress and a lot of heartache. I don’t regret meeting a single person here, but I know that it is a little too toxic for me to be here. I have to put my safety and my well-being first. And, while roleplaying with my precious muses does bring me a small amount of joy, having a roleplaying blog adds to my stress levels in ways I simply can’t handle. 

So, in short, I am leaving the roleplay community, likely for good. I have attached small, personal notes to the people who have struck me the hardest (in the best possible way), but I do thank each and every person I have ever encountered here for helping me to grow as a person & become who I am today. 

If anyone at all is interested in getting a hold of me, my regular blog is here, and my snapchat is honestly_kai (I don’t always add people back, so if you really want to talk it’s best to message me).

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Official Actual PSA from Kai

Hi guys. I know a couple weeks ago I came on here with the intention to get back into roleplaying, and I’m really sorry I never did. Since graduating high school, I’ve been struck with the sudden realization of my mortality, and I underwent a bit of an existential crisis that I buried under work and other family related things. I also realized why roleplaying made me so damn miserable while I was out trying to be an actual person for once. While I have met a handful of beautiful, wonderful souls through my writing, I have also met a lot of people who have caused me distress and a lot of heartache. I don’t regret meeting a single person here, but I know that it is a little too toxic for me to be here. I have to put my safety and my well-being first. And, while roleplaying with my precious muses does bring me a small amount of joy, having a roleplaying blog adds to my stress levels in ways I simply can’t handle. 

So, in short, I am leaving the roleplay community, likely for good. I have attached small, personal notes to the people who have struck me the hardest (in the best possible way), but I do thank each and every person I have ever encountered here for helping me to grow as a person & become who I am today. 

If anyone at all is interested in getting a hold of me, my regular blog is here, and my snapchat is honestly_kai (I don’t always add people back, so if you really want to talk it’s best to message me).

For Ronnie - 

     Ronnie, you are the closest thing I have had to a best friend in a very, very long time. I loved to stay up and talk with you, listen to you talk, ask you anything I could. I loved (and still love) you so, so much. You are a beautiful person, and though you have been through much, you will do such great things in life. I know it. I know I’ve been a crappy friend at times, unable to talk when you needed or just being MIA in general, but you have been a wonderful friend to me. Thank you so much. I consider it an honor to have known you within my lifetime. May you find someone who loves you just as much as Jessie loves Asher.

For Jay - 

     Jay, you are an amazing person, and I have always been a little jealous that you and Ronnie got closer than I did to either of you, but I loved you, too. I always wanted (and still want) the best for you, and I think you are one of the most gorgeous people I have ever met. I don’t really know what happened, how I managed to drift so far away from the two of you, but you have been so crucial in my life. Thank you for your company, short stop.

For Jaymie - 

     I loved your friendship, and I still do. You were a wonderful boyfriend, even at such a great distance. I still check on you from time to time, via SnapChat or Tumblr or whatever I can. I hope you are happy, and I want the best for you, lovebug. You made me feel so, so special, and I know you’re going to find someone someday who makes you feel so, so special - the way you made me feel. I’m always here for you. 

For Alex - 

     I have always been intimidated by you, but you were a vital part to making me a better person. You always seem to have your shit together, you’re sweet, beautiful, and talented. You are everything I have ever wanted to be, everything I strive to be. Your world will be filled with happiness and joy, I know, because that is what you deserve. Thank you for even giving me the opportunity to write with you, and spending a fraction of your time with me.

For Lox - 

     I don’t even know if you’re roleplaying anymore, to be quite honest. I always thought you were the cool type, sitting in the back of the room, keeping to yourself. Once I got to know you, I was amazed by the ideas you kept, how intelligent you are, and just you in general. I know you’re already doing amazing things that I could only hope for, and I am proud of you for that. 

For Leah - 

     You were another person that intimidated the crap out of me. I loved your characters, your plots, your ideas. I loved watching you interact - both in and out of character. I always wanted to be your best friend, but I was a little too shy. I hope things all work out for you (I’m sure they will), and you can be sure I’ll be double checking to make sure you and Dexter are alright on social media.

For Sophie -

     Between me being shady and Shiloh’s muse a clingy little shit, I know I wasn’t a great partner, and I sincerely hope I wasn’t one of your favorites (I certainly wouldn’t have deserved it). But you were one of mine. You were always there when I wanted to write. Thank you so much for being that constant part of my life. Please keep in touch with me; you are a wonderful person and I simply adore you.

For Kaitlyn - 

     I know I wasn’t a good roleplay partner - that’s what I get for having my little meltdowns. But you were amazing, and I was so honored to write with you on a (not-so) regular basis. Thank you, so much, name-twin. May the world give you everything you’ve asked for and more.

For anyone I have ever written with, admired from afar, or spoken to -

     Thank you. Thank you for writing with me. Thank you for listening to me rant. Thank you for putting up with my privileged ass as I learned to be a better human being. Thank you for coaxing me through anxiety and panic attacks. Thank you for being here for me, & for saving my life. Thank you so much. 

May you have all the happiness in the world. 

And now, here is my secret. It’s a very simple one: One can only see rightly with the heart. The essential is invisible to the eyes.

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when people say they want to rp with me

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iriidivm:

Carson stares at them for a minute, then down at the plant, then back up at them before finally speaking, “I don’t know how to respond to that.”

Benji just rolls their eyes, shaking their head a little. “Just smile, say thank you, take the plant. I was trying to be cute.”

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In a lapse of judgement, Musa has allowed his daughter to use his phone to play that new Pokémon game she keeps rambling about as he bought a few things. Thus, the little child has wandered off, and when he looks for those familiar little brown curls, he has a moment of panic because he can’t see her. Less than a minute later, the panic soothes, and he spots the girl in adamant discussion, waving his phone around in her hand as she talks to someone much closer to her father’s age. “Habibti, you can’t go wandering off like that. Leave the nice stranger alone, yeah?” As he lifts the four year old onto his hip with ease, he shoots the other an abashed smile. “Sorry if she disturbed you. Amii gets a little excited.”

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Benji seems to pop out of nowhere, a very proud smile on their face. “Aloe you vera much,” they offer, extending the tiny potted plant in their hands.

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nevermind i found it. like for a starter.

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sorry i like died again. life has been a little too hectic. um... still really wanna rp again but like... life is getting in my way. i start school in a little more than a month, and i’m having a tattoo done on friday, and the rest of this week i’m working. i might be able to get on when i have my off days, but... it’s going to take a while to adjust. sorry friends.

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so now I have a large bruise on my neck

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guess who snuck out and got birthday kisses

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sigh. this day isn't going well.

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• I wanna go to bed but I don't wanna move • still not a big fan of boys but now I think my coworker nick thinks something is going to happen he's a nice boy but boys stress me out • I work a lot tomorrow • kinda wanna pick up a shift on my birthday, kinda scared of my mom • I work Sunday and almost every day next week sighs but I did it to myself I can't complain when I picked up three extra shifts

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okay so 6/26 is Stitch Day because Stitch is Experiment 626 

which means that 

6/25 (my birthday) is Reuben Day because he’s 625 

which is perfect because i am Reuben I mean look at this little fuck making his sandwiches he doesn’t mind that his boss is a jerk he’s just happy with his sandwiches

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one more thing can an adult come @ me and like... help me with the buying an apartment thing and what a lease means and how rent works i’m moving out in a year and i just need a lot of help friends

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also hello i fucking hate wearing shirts to bed i just want to change into my tank tops but my mother is like your boobs are hanging out woman do i care no they are just boobs you don’t complain when your husband walks around shirtless or your father goes into public without his shirt fully buttoned like it’s the same concept just because i have a uterus doesn’t change anything they’re still boobs they’re not going anywhere they’re not being used to harm anyone they’re just boobs