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I spent my entire childhood hoping someone would love me enough to save me from my parents

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Kind of a positive vent but also not??? I was thinking about how I'm really attracted to people who can catch me off guard in casual conversation and realized the most shocking thing anyone's ever done while talking to me is treat me like a person? Like normally the shock is something crazy like finding out they have a weird fetish or like them saying something awful or out of pocket in public but I was talking to this person on grindr and they didn't immediately start coming on to me and they still haven't really? The most they said was that there's a forest trail with lots of animals they'd like to show me because I said I loved to be outside but get tired too easy to hike? They're interested in what I have to say and the things I'm interested in and I'm trying so hard not to form an attachment too fast bc we met on grindr and both of our profiles say we're just looking for friends, chats, and hook-ups and also I'm really emotionally damaged from years of being reduced to a novelty at best/reducing myself to my body for attention

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the mother wound.

Léon Perrault, Mother with Child // Piss River, Kevin Morby // ? // nocturnal animals (2016) // ? // shameless // mother's apron // Amanda Lovelace // sharp objects // Bethany Webster

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dissociation

virginia woolf, alex venezia, ryan o'connell,

léon de smet, yrsa daley-ward

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chelsea dingman ‘psychogeography’ // catherine lacey ‘cut’ // louise glück ‘unpainted door’ // DH lawrence ‘the complete works; the plumbed serpent’

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Judith Herman, Trauma and Recovery

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– Via "twinnedpeaks" on Tumblr

[TEXT ID: / july didn't even say goodbye. the years don't kiss you goodnight anymore. they just leave behind this empty space, a phantom pain. and still i ache, i ache, i ache! / END ID]

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“like a dog looking for his owner” “we can’t live in a haunted house” SHUT UP

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@nosebleedclub // nov. #17

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um. [now i wanna be your dog] [you always said how you loved dogs i don't know if i count but i’m trying my best] [i’ll be your old broken tv your stuttering baby and your puppy when nobody’s home] [see i don’t see why people dog me around] [and all i want is to hold you like a dog] [i married your dog underneath summer’s tree i want to say he got down on his knees] [so i will wait for the next time you want me like a dog with a bird at your door] [i learn how to dance with the dog] [you treat me like a dog get me down on my knees we call it master and servant] [i’m not your dog ‘cause i’m still your lover] [then you leave me in the back with half a window rolled down like a dog in the summer heat] [if you’d been a dog they would have drowned you at birth] [maybe i've been whimpering and scratching at the door but now i'm dog with sharper teeth] [i bet on losing dogs i know they’re losing and i’ll pay for my place]

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his ass is NOT beating the dog boy allegations

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how to be a dog - andrew kane / sir chloe - leash / sir chloe - i am the dog

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(from an untitled, wip ‘dog motif’ piece)

boy we really are feeling things tonight, huh

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dog motif

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@nosebleedclub // nov. #9