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i wanna draw my dang dnd character so bad but im currently HATING everything i draw. HELP!!!!!!!

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trying to move my body and stay motivated to move my body bcs i am very out of shape and unhealthy and feel awful all the time and like i’m way too young to be losing this much mobility…but holy shit doing like a hot 15 on a treadmill with relatively low incline and speed put me in actual fucking pain. like my lower back was burning so much that it made me a little lightheaded by the end. and i want so badly to be able to give myself grace and remind myself that it will get better with time as long as i keep doing my best to move but i cannot help but to literally dog on myself for letting it get this bad. for rotting in bed for most of my teen years but especially the majority of my twenties so far and just???

idk.

trying every day to love myself and the body that i’m in no matter what state it’s in. trying not to buy into the idea that i need to be small in order to be worthy. but i hate myself a lot. i have no self esteem. i think i look worse than i have ever looked before and i’m terrified that everyone thinks i’m so disgusting and ugly and lazy. i wish it was easy to want to take care of myself. i wish it was second nature like it seems to be for so many other people. but everything feels like such an uphill battle that i have to fight for to get any basic consistency.

this is just a ramble atp. i just wish things were easier. and i loved myself more. and that walking didn’t cause me so much pain rn because i want to do it and i want to be better but it hurts a lot and i don’t know my limits.

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The psychiatrist who wrote the criteria for narcissism just made an extremely important point about what’s wrong with diagnosing Trump with mental disorders

Dr. Allen Frances says in speculating about Trump’s mental health, we are doing a disservice to those who do suffer from mental illness. In a series of tweets, he explained why he doesn’t think Trump is a narcissist — and how harmful it can be for us to keep assuming that he is.

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one thing I really like about my relationship with my boyfriend is that we can express negative feelings about each other's actions without assigning blame or requiring apology. I mean like for morally neutral things like "it drives me crazy when you leave a wet towel on the floor instead of hanging it up"

cause now like instead of "oh I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to drive you crazy, I'm terrible and unsocialized" or "um well that's dumb, who cares" it's like

"it does? I didn't know that. how come?"

"because it will mildew and I keep tripping over it and I don't know whether you intend to reuse that towel or whether it needs to go in the wash"

"okay so usually if I intend to reuse it I hang it up, and if it needs to go in the wash I drop it on the floor. I guess because I thought I shouldn't put it in the hamper because it would get all the other dirty clothes wet and then THEY might mildew before we do the laundry."

"that's valid. what if we have a specific place to hang wet towels that need to be washed? how about this one hook here"

"perfect!"

no hurt feelings, nobody being made to feel shitty and sloppy on one hand or uptight and bitchy in the other hand. just, we're partners right? let's workshop this

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starting tomorrow i will be a real person in this world

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i'll acknowledge valentine's day with this shrimp. cause i made it today. on valentine's day.

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Unpopular opinion but if you don't enjoy the process you should find a different thing to do.

And I think this is true in general but now I'm talking about it in the context of AI.

If you don't enjoy making art and only care about the end piece and how it'll look and how much traction it"lol get online then making art is not something for you, find something you enjoy from start to finish.

Same goes for writing: if you do not enjoy writing and rewriting and then some more and instead want AI to write for you, being a writer is not something you should pursue.

Sure, not every part of creative process is going to be equally enjoyable but you should get satisfaction from solving the problems along the way and you should get a sense of accomplishment on your way of "making the piece yours" and you should have a sense of ownership once you are done.

None of these things will come from typing in a prompt into chatGPT. And I am sad to see so many people are missing on the opportunity to experience the joy of making something with their own hands and brains.

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The Ocean, Me, MS Paint, 2022

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To be an otter swimming in a river

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my take on epilogue gale

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Linda Friesen 'The Stardust 2.0 version' Haute Couture Gown

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guys i’m so depressed but at least this dinner was a certified banger 🔥🔥🔥

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Most miserable woman in America 1899

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what fucking hell dimension are y’all blogging from

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worst relationship status to have w someone is “objectively they’re a fine person who is nice but i don’t enjoy their company as much as they enjoy mine”

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ayda aguefort launching the bar for romance beyond the exosphere with “I sent these rocky chunks across the galaxy, and they have traveled since the beginning of time to tell you that I love you. In each moment of our mutual ignorance, where we had yet to meet, this message was already spinning its way to you through time and space to illuminate the night sky, to tell you that I love you. Us, our love, like time, has been inevitable and strange. I have walked in its shadow joyfully. It gives me peace to know that in my darkest moments, my love for you was already on its way, flying through the stars. We have been on our way to save us since before the lights of our world were first lit. Pretty cool, my darling paramour.”