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[vanilla-peachee-blog]

Alright. This has taken too much of my energy to keep up with. Obviously, you are not keen on settling this privately, so I'll come to you. Hey dude, Running-with-kn1ves here. This is some stupid internet bs but you've really got my head twisted around this situation.

I'd like to state this first: I had no idea about the aot creator. I think I heard something on tiktok once, about alt right people supporting aot, and I thought that was just it. Not that the actual creator was a fascist. But after reading your messages that day, I did my own research, and found that what you said was true. This is no excuse, but I'm pretty new to tumblr. I only really interact with the same 100 people at most, and I've only been on here for a few months. I was not aware that aot being nazi propaganda was "common knowledge." Especially on here. I didnt realize that was something so widely known about on tumblr. I did not change my blog due to you, it was because a few of my irl friends found out about my blog, bc of this situation. Something I never wanted to happen. I would honestly appreciate it if you didnt respond to this message and rather just read it and blocked me. But do as you will. I dont use my darkfics as an excuse-- the exact opposite, really. I would hate to spread any kind of pain or suffering, which is why my stuff is very specific, and I dont dabble in anything I deem unacceptable or too harsh. The yandere/darkfic community already has enough controversy and it's own problems that I dont agree with. I dont know if this is going to change anything but damn dude-- some of the things you said really hurt me. The fact that you fully believe that I would intentionally support a neonazi? Did you really get that idea from anything I said or talked about with you? Really? I reblogged a fucking gay fanfiction. I saw it, said hey "that looks pretty cool, I'll read it later" and hit reblog. Yeah, pretty ignorant, I got that. But I wasnt thinking about the canon author, or the genuine themes of the show. Maybe I should have, and I see that now. But the thing I want to say the most, and that I really hope you'll read, is that you didnt even give me a chance. You didnt let me say anything, you just went straight for the throat by blocking and accusing me. That really upsets me. If you had at least given me a chance to talk, I think things would have worked out better. I understand if seeing things with aot trigger you, or possibly make you uncomfortable enough to cut contact. But I wish you didnt bash my name and refuse to explain to me. If you wanted to block me immediately, that's perfectly in your right. But it's not your right to not let me speak, and make snap judgements. The funny thing is that I've never even really seen aot; a few episodes in middle school, but that's about it. Hey I've never even played genshin impact but I still read fanfictions from there, too. To be completely honest I really did not want to write this. I wanted to forget about it and move on, as your posts nearly spun me into a panic attack. That isnt for guilt points, that's the truth. It seriously freaked me out dude. One minute we're talking about shitty fanfiction and the next you're calling me a neonazi supporter. I understand being wary and having low trust, but that doesnt make it okay for you to go batshit. I chose to block you after you sent me that ask, because I really did not want to go through the stress of this situation all over again. It seemed wrong to be made out as the bad guy and given no room to speak, and then suddenly I'm worthy of your grace again because you changed your mind? Nah that's not how it works. I did not see a future where we would be able to speak in a healthy and open way after this situation, so I decided to cut contact. It seemed the best for the both of us-- but I cant deny that I was thinking more about myself. This whole thing gave me a lot of anxiety within the past few days, I felt awful and kept wanting to explain things but you wouldnt let me. And so when you gave me an opening through that ask, I decided it wasn't worth it. I assumed you would have been okay with me blocking you, though. Considering you said " if this is the end of our conversations regardless, that's okay and I accept it." I did not think that you would've cared. But I realize now I

was wrong. I sincerely apologize if I hurt or offended you in any way, as that was never my intention. Especially because I was really excited to have a fanfic bud. I see that this is not going to work out how I thought it would, which is unfortunate. I would really appreciate it if you took down your posts name dropping and discussing me, but I cannot force you to do so. Again, there is no need for you to reply to this, but I would be grateful if you took time to read it. Thanks for your time, and your friendship. I wish ya the best.

I extend the olive branch—gave you the benefit of the doubt, held faith that you didn’t know, got rid of all the posts—and you block me instead. You’re a fine piece of work! Fine, fuck you, fuck you forever! This is why I made those posts private instead of deleting them entirely, because I KNEW that being kind would come back to bite me! So fuck you! I will NEVER forgive you, or talk to you again! And no matter how many times you change your URLs, I will update those posts! I will haunt you!