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"You're playing League of Legends? We have a gift for you!

USSR shashlik!"

Nothing unusual, just a Russian advertisement for a barbecue.

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Viktor NSFW hc's.

Tw: mentions of sickness, mentions of throwing up, mentions of famished body.

Soon I will see my dear Viktor again.

I made some headcanons about him. Hope someone will like it. English isn't my first language, so please, don't beat me up, I'm just some ukrainian guy.

— The older Viktor gets, the worse his legs get. Problems with joints are added to the congenital curvature. If at the age of twenty-two he was able to cover three or four kilometers in a day, and with proper stops and motivation — all eight, now, at thirty-two, it is sometimes difficult for him even to get himself out of bed.

— Viktor, in addition to the corset and leg correction shown in the series, wears compression stockings when he feels particularly lousy.

— Actually, all his meals are scheduled and strictly regulated in accordance with his medication, but this stubborn workaholic often neglects his needs, which then makes him vomit bile, faints and experiences other troubles.

— Speaking of stomach problems. Let's omit the fact that all the characters that I like, they somehow magically appear — Viktor really has a reason for problems with the gastrointestinal tract. Previously, everything was tolerable, but now, due to the side effects of phlegm-thinning lung drugs and heavy painkillers on which he sits, Viktor vomits with enviable regularity at least once every two weeks. This usually happens either in the middle of the working day or after. Sometimes he jumps up to get a basin early in the morning, because he can also be sick from pills. Because of this, his teeth are slowly deteriorating. In addition, it is in the episodes of vomiting that he feels particularly weak and pathetic.

— It is in case of an unforeseen outpouring of vomit that there is a basin under Viktor's desk.

— He often faints too. This is mainly due to overwork and lack of sleep. Over the years, Victor has learned to anticipate this phenomenon and therefore usually manages to sit down.

— Viktor washes exclusively while sitting on a special shower chair for people with disabilities. You can't sit in the bathroom in his position, and if you do, you'll get out, and standing in the shower without support is painful and tiring for him.

— If Viktor takes days off, it's just to get enough sleep. He doesn't like social events and noisy streets. It seems to him that the Piltoverians look at him with contempt, he does not like small talk, because he is used to putting meaning and sincerity into every word he says, and, besides, the noise of the crowd tires him very quickly. Even when Jayce invites him, filled with a strange sense of extrovert duty to an introverted work partner, Viktor politely refuses. He does not want to once again experience the views of the local nobility and feel like a stranger. He has enough problems without that.

— The feeling of loneliness and misunderstanding is his only faithful companion. Since childhood, Viktor has watched the fun of other children as if through bulletproof glass, and over the years this feeling of alienation from the world of people has only worsened. He had never experienced true friendship, had never loved anyone—and sometimes this realization made him hate himself so much that it was time to climb into a noose. In despair, he thought that maybe if he had been born like everyone else, it would have been easier for him. No, he never tried to be like the crowd, but loneliness often made him regret his genius. Over time, Viktor resigned himself. After all, his mechanisms will always be with him. There is no human impermanence in them. The breakdown of a certain gear is easier to predict than the cooling of a relationship.

— By the age of thirty-two, Viktor is a virgin. As mentioned earlier, he has never loved anyone, and therefore this fact is not shameful for him. He just thinks it's out of his area of interest and has no regrets about it.

— Viktor has a very significant «manhood»: 18.4 cm in length. However, he does not use it.

— Despite the extremely lousy position of his lungs, he smokes, and smokes a lot. He prefers unfiltered cigarettes, smokes about a dozen a day.

— Surprisingly, Viktor is not circumcised and is not even infertile. He is quite capable of becoming a father - but I think anyone understands that this will be the worst version of a dad that can only be imagined.

— Viktor never attached much importance to the partner's gender. He believes that there is no need to limit yourself to such extensive issues. He is bisexual (and possibly a mechanophile).

— If Viktor hypothetically has sex, he will do it with all his usual thoroughness. He will buy a pack of the best thin condoms (japanese ones can serve as an analogue from our world), purchase hypoallergenic lubricant and be very careful with his partner. In addition, before sexual intercourse, he will wash himself and immediately before the process, he will discuss everything with his partner again. It may seem superfluous, but he does not know how to do otherwise. He feels safer when he knows for sure that he is doing everything right: after all, it is not in his plans to damage someone's intestines or cervix.

— What Viktor will definitely not try in bed is the missionary position, where the heavier partner will be on top, and sitting on his face. This point hardly needs explanation.

— If Viktor finds himself in a receiving position in bed (that is, under a man), he will expect from his partner the same tenderness and attentiveness that he shows himself. Viktor does not welcome rudeness and savagery. He is thirty-two years old and terminally ill. With him, either gently and carefully, or in no way.

— Viktor prefers large partners with a good combination of fat percentage and muscle mass. No, appearance does not come first for him, the contact of mind and soul is more important to him — but opposites attract, and he will be especially pleased if his partner, regardless of gender, is an athletic endomorph with dark skin and large breasts. Sky and Jayce are perfect for his type.

— By the way, the subject of Viktor's stingy erotic fantasies are... Anatomical sketches with a female body. Yes, he prefers realism and precision even in such matters.

— Viktor treats himself differently. As mentioned earlier, he differentiates himself from society, and therefore his own nakedness seems disgusting and unnatural to him. He considers himself unattractive due to exhaustion and pelvic problems, and therefore does not like to relate himself to the general mass. Deep down, he wants to become a machine: then there will be no problems with a sick body and an imperfect mind. «Naturalness is for everyone, but not for me.»

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For several years, Viktor’s leg caught my eye—specifically, I was searching for an official diagnosis and struggling to find something that fit him. After years of speculating, I believe I've found his condition's proper diagnosis and name.

Viktor has a rare and severe case of femoral anteversion in his right leg.

What exactly is femoral anteversion? It is a condition in which the femur rotates, causing the knees and feet to face inward rather than forward. This can impact one or both legs. This condition usually resolves on its own, but more severe cases require medical intervention such as leg braces, therapy, and surgery in more extreme instances—however, this condition is treatable.

This condition impacts children, typically the result of trauma, fetal development, or genetics. Viktor was likely born with this, which would propose that he’s either genetically predisposed to it or the result of a tough pregnancy.

This small scene is an excellent example. It’s only several seconds long, but here we can see that his leg is rotated inward, and he corrects it to face forward—which pains him as he visibly winces—all while Jayce speaks.

It’s noticeable when he’s a kid. You can see how his leg twists and faces inward and how his foot catches on the heel of his other foot, which causes him to trip. In episode 8, while he runs on the dock, he almost trips from this issue again before catching himself and sprinting. Viktor also has an in-toe gait; his step curves as he walks, while his other leg does not.

His leg brace, which we see in Act 2, serves one primary purpose: to force the leg to rotate and face the proper direction. However, at this stage, his condition has been left untreated for so long that it is progressing and showing a drastic impact on his entire body that the leg brace will not fix. It also makes mobility even more challenging for him, with difficulty bending and extending his leg.

This condition can throw the entire body out of whack if left untreated. It can cause pelvic issues, osteoarthritis, spinal decompensation, labral and chondral damage, hamstring-originated tendinopathy, and even weakening of the abdominal muscles, as well as a wide range of spinal problems. The feet, hips, and back are significant body parts that work together; if one is bad, the rest will suffer.

Viktor would require a femoral derotation osteotomy; however, given the severity of his condition and how other parts of his body are now significantly impacted--such as his pelvis and spine, we now have more complications on our hands and that's not even touching on his unnamed lung disease.

There's still so much I could discuss here, and perhaps later, after work; I have a handful of notes I've taken about this and how it all just ties together for Viktor, and honestly, it has been really fun to look at and analyze.

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9 + Arcane

"I never wanted to hate you, but look where we are."

Characters: Viktor and Evil!Jayce

Background: in the AU where Viktor and Silco are brothers and Deckard survived, becoming Silco’s second in command. Also a Deckard/Viktor romance.

“What are you doing?” Viktor heard Jayce say from his bedroom doorway, he was stood over a suitcase. Thankfully he’d had Deckard move everything important and work related to his new accommodation earlier, all Jayce had power over was him and his clothes. Viktor sighed and didn’t turn to face Jayce or stop what he was doing.

“I’m packing,” Viktor answered simply. “I think, given the end of our… relationship it makes sense for me to leave.”

“Is that the only reason why?” Jayce pressed, Viktor’s shoulders tensed as he felt Jayce grow closer. He suddenly became aware of vulnerable he was.

“No. But it’s the only one I wish to speak of.” Viktor’s voice shook slightly. He knew Jayce was referring to how he’d hurt him less than 24 hours ago. The events of the night before had forced him to act. It was what resulted in him contacting Deckard, and by extension his brother. But he wasn’t ready to face that, not yet.

“I apologised for-”Jayce said as he approached, Viktor could feel him just a few inches away and it repulsed him.

“I’m not interested in your apologies, Jayce,” Viktor interrupted, slamming his suitcase closed. Jayce grabbed Viktor’s bicep and spin him around, forcing him to face him.

“Get away from me,” Viktor stammered, pulling his arm from Jayce’s strong, muscular grasp. “I’m not your toy, Jayce.”

“You can’t leave.” Jayce declared it so simply as if he had the power to keep Viktor prisoner, all Viktor could think was it showed how little Jayce knew him any more.

“And what makes you say that?” Viktor asked with a furrowed brow and a tilted head. “You wouldn’t be the first to think they could keep me in a cage and no one else has succeeded.”

“I need you. For my- our work, for our-”

“So it’s our work now?” Viktor scowled. “You don’t seem too concerned with that when none of our creations have my name on it. All of the talks and lectures are done by you.”

“That… that is not up to me,” Jayce lied, tightening his grip on Viktor’s arm, causing him to wince and gasp. “The headmaster-”

“I suppose that’s the problem. You didn’t used to listen to any authority. Now you do, and it’s corrupted you.”

“I’m Piltover’s saviour,” Jayce spat, tugging on Viktor’s arm for emphasis, his spare hand tightening into a fist. “I’m it’s hope for progress. You could never be that, not some cripple from the Undercity.”

“Ah, there we are. A slight glimmer of your true colours-” Viktor was interrupted by Jayce’s fist hitting his jawbone, forcing him backwards and to lose his balance. His cane couldn’t keep him steady, and he hit the ground. Jayce stood over him, a look of anger and possessiveness creating a shadow over him. He kicked Viktor in his small stomach, causing him to cough. He repeated this, over and over again until it was blood he spluttered onto the floor.

“I know you hate me. But that doesn’t mean I’m going to let you leave,” Jayce panted.

“I never wanted to hate you. I never used to. I loved you. But you became the man who uses me like a whore and a punching bag. So look where we are,” Viktor wheezed, pain in his deep brown eyes but the slight hint of stubborn determination shining through.

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I don’t get how some people can say Melkor is an unsympathetic villain. The guy lived most of his life with chronic pain and crippling fear of the future, he can’t finish a thought to save his life and does everything out of spite. He’s literally one of the most relatable characters EVER.

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By Niko Pekonen

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Ghost and König sending you love. 

Do you love them back? (◍•ᴗ•◍)❤

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Summer

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Silent Night

2023

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Silent Night

2022

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Of course I’m not letting go!! Hold onto me, idiot!

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this ship is my aesthetic

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педик

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what good is to live if he is not here?

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I don't know why Angbang should be inherently all BDSM, power plays, harsh, cruel ship or pink fluffy unicorns, two sweet husbands who did nothing wrong, and were just the victims in that situation.

For me, Angbang can be Melkor and Mairon being devoted to each other without resorting to power plays, insults, degradation or fear between them, but still be mean, still be cruel, still be willing to crush everything that stands between them and their purposes. They can adore the other without being diminished to a babygirl - especially Melkor - who is a depressed dumb little puppy who never did a thing wrong in his life.

We can have complexity. We can have Melkor and Mairon being cruel and nice, for different kind of things. We can have them be egoistical and compassionate, like Mairon sends wolves to eat each and everyone in Finrod's company, yet could be caring and loving those wolves. We can have them be anything other than the two extremes: and i'm seing more and more people advocating for pink fluffy unicorns Angbang, which why not, to each their taste and there's no rule in fandom, but complexity is ten times more interesting in my opinion.

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Pretty Morgoth

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Sweet lad, o come and join me, do! Such pretty games I will play with you.

I love you, for your comeliness charms me, my boy! And if you’re not willing, my force I’ll employ.

Erlkönig - Goethe

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