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the thing i never realized about gaining weight is that you sweat?? like i never used to sweat and now that i put on muscle i sweat like immediately when i work out or go outside when it's hot. and smell more because of all the sweating. i'm worried i'm getting too big but also i just eat junk food so i don't know what i expected. at least i'm only gaining muscle not fat

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“A disappearing act, the act of becoming invisible, is, in fact, a visible act, and rarely goes unnoticed.”

— Marya Hornbacher, “Wasted” (via lifeinpoetry)

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eating disorders are about a lot of things but maybe the thing they’re most about is a fear of our painful emotions and the drive to avoid them. that avoidance seems like our only means of psychological survival at the time. and it does allow us to survive whatever pain threatens us, but only temporarily 

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By Mariamne Photography

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That's the problem with drinking, I thought, as I poured myself a drink. If something bad happens you drink in an attempt to forget; if something good happens you drink in order to celebrate; and if nothing happens you drink to make something happen.

— Charles Bukowski

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I showed so many signs and never understood why no one saw I was struggling

What I didn’t realize was that no one ever actually cared.

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"At some days, I really miss being constantly drunk or high. At least my life then had a purpose."

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[Not me]

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