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several months ago, I wrote a poem. unfortunately, the person I wrote it about did not work out. I shall share it anyway.

here it goes

okay. hear me out.

I think I could really like you.

i do like you,

but I don't know you well enough yet to really fall hard for you.

you have a lot of qualities that I want in a partner

and I'm sure you have even more that I just don't yet know about.

it makes me excited to really get to know you. the real, deep-down you.

because I'm sure that the real, deep-down me could easily love that part of you.

that being said

I hope you could love me back.

I hope you could love me with all of my everything.

love my anxiety.

my past.

my baggage.

my traumas.

I hope you could love my flaws.

my insecurities.

my problems.

my sins, even.

I have spent so much time worrying.

worrying that it will be hard to find someone to do that for me.

it will be hard to find someone to love me.

it will be hard to love me.

but I know that I am loveable.

and I know that I'm worth it.

I have good qualities,

and bad ones.

but I like to think the good outweighs the bad.

i hope its you.

i hope that youll see me,

and see someone who loves life

someone who wants to make it worth living.

someone who's fun.

adventurous.

kind.

happy.

patient.

loving.

funny.

I hope you look at me and see someone worth loving.

because when I look at you,

I can start to see it.

I just hope you start to see it too.

because I have spent months

upon months

upon years, even,

worrying.

worrying that I will not find love like I used to have it.

but after some thought,

I see that that is not the kind of love that I need.

I need a new love.

a fresh love.

a kind of love that endures.

a love that is patient.

kind.

gentle.

sincere.

i need sincere.

i need someone who is the kind of person to hold me when I cry, and not say any words.

I need someone who can make the bed in the morning because they know i hate it.

someone who will take the pickles from my chick fil a sandwich because they know I won't eat it.

someone who can read me like a book.

see when I'm not okay and do something about it.

i need someone who sees me for who I am and takes me that way, yet helps me improve.

not someone who will drag me down.

not someone who will make me cry.

make my anxiety spike.

make me wonder where I'd be if I said no.

and if I'm honest,

i truly think with time,

and getting to know each others nitty gritty parts,

that we could have an amazing relationship.

with practice,

we could be happy with,

and for each other.

because I want to fall in love.

don't get me wrong,

i'm not there yet.

but I want to be able to get there.

and get there with you

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