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I was surprised no one was talking about Rook trying to say Lucanis that they love him before the battle against Ghilan'nain, and Lucanis not allowing it, just for Rook to be lock up in the Fade for weeks. The angst, the regrets Lucanis should have felt.

Then I realized that it might not be as obvious in English. In the second wheel of that conversation, if you choose "I'm here to help you" Rook starts a sentence with "Lucanis, I...", before Lucanis makes them stop. There are a lot of things they could have said with that "I", but in the Spanish subtitles, Rook doesn't say "I...", they say "Te...".

There are a handful of sentences you can say, but there are far less possibilities than in English. One of them, the one that makes more senses in the context, is "Te quiero". I love you. Lucanis knows what they are going to say and he doesn't want to hear it, because when you put your businesses in order, you're preparing for the end. He said that much during a banter, but sadly I can't remember why or with whom.

Anyway, Rook complains after that conversation.

In English it would be: "Right, business as usual. Definately not thinking about that all day" They've been waiting the whole day to say that. They've been preparing themself to say "I love you" to Lucanis, and Lucanis didn't let them.

Then he lost Rook. Rook tried to say I love you, and now Lucanis would never hear that, he could never say it back. They lost their only chance and it was his fault.

Or so he thought, because Rook comes back.

That's why there is no more hesitation after. That's why Lucanis is the one that says 'I love you' before the final confrontation. Because he made that mistake once, and he's not making it ever again.

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Rook and Lucanis' banter during the Siege was a highlight

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subtitles just don't do this banter justice

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i love all three antivan main characters we've had. zevran josie lucanis. hit after hit. antiva doesn't miss

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here’s the lucanis/davrin banter mentioned in this post for those like me who read it, loved it, and desperately wanted to hear it in their voices

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Wait, I need to talk about Lucanis kneeling specifically for an Antivan Rook. Never mind “house dellamorte never kneels.” That is the FIRST TALON kneeling before a much lower-ranked assassin. Like, despite their places in the crow hierarchy, he doesn’t just see them as equals, but he KNEELS for them. I’m gonna throw up.

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it's been days since i finished it, and i'm still thinking about the way that a crow rook who romanced lucanis fares in his "a murder of crows" quest.

how, if they get hit during the boss fight, viago shouts at them to stop embarrassing house de riva, but rook immediately knows that he's yelling out of concern and reminds themselves not to die "or viago will kill them", because he cares about them. if they keep taking hits, viago will yell at them to stop "letting that idiot win", and then also to stop getting hit altogether, because his concern comes out as anger that they're not being safe. and rook responds with a huffy "i'm not doing it on purpose!" (very sibling-coded), and then "sorry viago", because this is just how they communicate with each other, and the concern and care is still noted, despite how tense the situation is.

how, if illario hits rook, lucanis will growl that he's going to kill his cousin for hurting them. how he'll urge rook to fall back if they take too many more hits, assuring them that he'll finish the fight himself.

how illario will pleasantly assure rook that it's nothing personal at the beginning the fight, but when he draws in closer later on he'll sneer "you picked the wrong dellamorte".

there's an unspoken understanding of what is required from the first talon, from the perspective of a crow rook, that the player can't help but keep in mind. but when rook expresses concern that those responsibilities could take lucanis away from them, he assures them that he wouldn't leave the lighthouse while they're still there, listing them separate from everyone else when he's remarking on the people that he cares for.

just. CROWS!!!!!! y'know?

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LUCANIS 😭

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SPOILERS - LAST ACT DRAGON AGE VEILGUARD - LUCANIS ROMANCE

this is ft. my character aurelia “rook” laidir.

i am. in love. with this man. the way he looks at rook. his voice when he says he thought he’d never see her again.

‘just.. don’t leave.” “never.”

ARE YOU KIDDING ME?? i never thought i’d be as obsessed with a dragon age man since my obsession w/ blackwall. i was wrong. so so wrong. im absolutely in love with lucanis. his voice. how he talks about her voice comforts him?

i love lucanis and rook together. so much. he was so afraid to love her, to want her. almost losing her forever being his push to finally admit those feelings?? 10/10 i love them.

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i LOVE this so much. my little crow family :(

I’m in tears

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i am so in love with him 😭 and teia. and lucanis. it’s a problem

I love Viago, he's so funny for no reason.

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mary kirby i owe you my life

THABJ YOU MS KIRBY I OWE YOU MY LIFE

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LORD

Assassin 💜

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it’s so strange to post to make after… what, a month of inactivity? which was not intentional, but bin’s passing was hitting…. a lot harder than even i expected, then kai’s sudden enlistment, then victon falling apart which was only semi confirmed by weverse. it was just a lot hitting in rapid succession and i was…. mentally not doing too great.

some days are easier than others bin… i miss you so much, and i think about your family, especially sua, all of your friends and your members every day. and knowing they all have each other helps a lot. plus all the little things that remind me of you. a dandelion in my yard, white butterflies showing up at your memorials, just these small beautiful things that remind me you’re still watching over them. i hope you’re having the best time wherever you are and that you’re enjoying your time. i love you so much my sweet boy

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i love you and your precious smile more than words could ever express. the way you light up when you’re performing, the smile on your face when you engage with fans. the beautiful cat that you named after us ♡

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Words from a Shawol to Arohas,

I know how you’re feeling. You don’t feel like it’s real, it can’t be true, you’re reading articles and watching videos about any possible updates. But it’s true and you feel like the ground opened up to swallow you. The unthinkable has happened, and unfortunately it happened to your beloved Moonbin.

I am not too familiar with Astro or Moonbin, but my heart is with you, and I know your pain. I thought I would give you some advice on how to get through this difficult situation.

This is all meant with love.

1, try not to watch videos with clickbait titles about him. There will be, and already is a lot out there trying to capitalize on this news, only take information from reputable sources.

2, the clickbait videos never really end. They use your dear idol to get views by saying rude things or making infuriating thumbnails. Try your best to ignore it and report the video and the account.

3, don’t feel bad if you can’t bring yourself to watch any funeral footage if there is any. It will be painful to witness, and you don’t have to put yourself through that.

4, it’s okay not to want to listen to his music for a while. Take your time and be kind with yourself.

5, find a way to remember him, if you feel it’s appropriate. For me, Jonghyun’s music saved me in a hard time in my life and I plan to get a tattoo in his honor, but I have also named my cat after his last album, Poet|Artist (we call him Poe), and every new years day I listen to a special song of his to welcome the new year.

6, find fellow Arohas to talk to. They need you as much as you need them.

7, when you feel like you can handle it, find joy in the moments Moonbin left for you. Like dance practice bloopers, photos of him smiling.. remember him on the anniversary if his last day, but celebrate him on his birthday.

8, finally, reach out for help if you feel you need it. It may seem silly to mourn someone you never met, but it’s still a very real loss with very real pain.

I hope this advice can help you find a little peace. I am so sorry for your loss.

-A Shawol

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i’m sorry to anyone who might see me on here for the next…. little while

i may become a lot more active on here just to post content of bin. i’m taking this loss… hard. and it brings me comfort to just… talk about him. not inherently about his death, but just…. about all the things i love about him, pictures of him i just love dearly, just…. talk about how much i miss him, but other than the initial posts from yesterday and maybe this post, it’ll all be tagged for him if anyone following me wants to mute for any reason, but especially if you cannot handle seeing him or discussions about him right now

i’d post on twitter but i’m so exhausted already of the think pieces about mental health and how people treat idols when we’ve been asked not to speculate what happened to him and on top of that every person saying that seems to always be the first person to have made some nasty comments about idols already. can’t even scroll tiktok as a distraction right now without risking the people taking advantage of this to make their sad edits when they don’t even know or care about him and it’s just to get engagement. i feel like my mourning is being taken advantage of when right now i just want to cry and talk about him in positive ways. i want to remember all the good about this beautiful man and what he means to me and to so many others who love him.

and knowing that he’s going to be reduced to this makes me violently ill. this beautiful dancer, amazing vocalist, fantastic actor is being reduced to the final day of his life, the final hours. and all i want is to see people talking about my beautiful boy’s skills or personality, just anything but making him into these final moments of his life